Renegades//Dnf

29|twenty nine|29

⚠️TW: mentions of suicide, mentions of cutting, F slur(I'm in lgbtq I can say it) mentions of abuse, mentions of weaponry,crying, mentions of use of illegal drugs⚠️

I once stuck a bead up my nose.

~Dreams POV~

-a few hours later so the time is around 7pm-

"Okay dream! I found a therapist and your therapy starts next week"
George yells from downstairs.
I cover my ears slightly, from the yelling.
"You okay?" He asks.
"Mhm! I'll be right down!" I say back.
I change into a hoodie and shorts, finally being confident enough to let George see the scars on my legs without him mentioning them.

I run downstairs, nearly falling.
I get into the living room, not seeing George anywhere.
"George where are you?"
I ask looking around.
"Boo!" He yells from behind, jumping on top of me.
"Ack! George!"
"Haha I caught you" he says spinning me around and kissing my lips.
I kiss back, wrapping my arms around his neck.
I never want this to end. It's perfect.
He pulls away, hugging me.

"I love you baby" he whispers.
"I love you too"
"Hey. I'm so proud of you for eating earlier" he says smiling at me.
Fuck. He found out that I haven't been eating.
"Thanks" I chuckle.
He hugs me tighter, laughing.
"Your pretty" he laughs again.
"Thanks" I smile.
"Mine" he says again, kissing my head.
Hes so perfect.
He lets me out of his grasp and we sit on his bed.
I let out a sigh, leaning against his shoulder.

"What's wrong, love?" He asks.
"Nothing"
"I know somethings up. You can tell me" he says looking at me.
"I'm scared to start therapy.." I say moving my face onto his shoulder.
"Don't be scared. I'll be with you the whole time I promise"
I smile up at him as he faces me, and puts his hand on my cheek.
"Im so lucky to have you" he says closing the gap between us with a kiss.
I wrap my arms around his neck, kissing him more.
I pull away from the kiss and hug him.

"Baby come here" he says slurring out the last word.
I sit on his lap and he puts his arms around my waist.
"How you feeling?" He asks.
"Good because I'm with you"
"Any suicidal thoughts? Wishing you were dead at all? Thinking of hurting yourself?"
"No, no, yea." I answer.
"Okay that's good for the first two but what about that last one? You've thought about hurting yourself?"
"Yeah" I say.
"Love, why have you been thinking that? I'm always here to talk"
"I know it's just.." I mumble trailing off.
"Just what? I don't want you hurting yourself" he says turning me around to face me.
"It's so so hard. I've gotten raped, tried to overdose, and a lot more but I don't want you to worry about Me"

"Baby what's going on. You can tell me anything" he says putting his hand on my leg, where some of my scars are and rubbing it.

"Well..my dad verbally abused me as a child and I just can't get the words he said out of my head. They just stay there"
"Can you tell me what he said?"
"That he can't have a pansexual son like me and constantly called me a faggot" I say holding back tears.
"What else?"

"That I should kill myself.."
"Anything else?"
"That I ate too much and constantly called me fat so i stopped eating and developed a eating disorder."

"Well don't worry baby. I'm here and I'm trying to help you the best I can."
"And I will always be here for you" He says again.
I start crying into his chest for maybe the third time today.

"Shhhh baby it's not your fault i promise. I love you so so much and I'm so lucky to have you in my life" He says.
That's cute.

"I promise I'm here for you. I won't let anything happen to you alright?" He says smiling at me.
"Alright.."
"Do you know anything else about your dad?"
"Well uh..he got arrested once,"
"For what?"
"Abuse, use of illegal drugs, Having guns in his house,Threatening to hurt his child"

"So you've told someone about this?"
"I didn't. I told a friend what was happening and he told the police."
"I'm so sorry baby" he says pulling me closer to him. 

He kisses my head and rubs my back as I cry.
"Shhh it's okay it's gonna be okay" He assures me.
"I'm always gonna  be here for you baby"
He says.  
I don't say anything. Instead, I just smile.
He's perfect.

"thank you. I really hope you don't leave" I say.
"I won't. I promise" he says.
"Hey! Let's watch a movie. We can get some icecream from the freezer, make some hot chocolate, and we can cuddle and watch movies" he says smiling.
"Okay!" I say.

He walks with my hand in his, then pauses.
"Baby I promise I'm always here for you. We're both going through the same stuff and I promise we can get through it together alright?"

"This is why I love you" I say smiling. 
He grabs the tub of icecream, two bowls, and two spoons as we get ready for a movie night.

"Baby" I whine, slurring out the word. 
"Aw your being whiny right now hm?" He says turning around as I tug on his arm. 
"Mine" he says kissing me.
"Yours" 

He gets some icecream for both of us and makes some hot chocolate as I go and get a whole bunch of blankets and pillows and put them on the couch.

About 2 minutes later I see that the hot chocolate is done and walk to the kitchen.
"Bubs come here" George says laughing.
I see him in the kitchen and walk over to him, feeling him put his arms around my waist.

"Hi" he says laughing more.
"Well hello" I say melting into his arms.
"Cutie" he says kissing my head.
He lets go of me as I walk to the living room and sit down.
He grabs the hot chocolate and icecream, puts it on the coffee table, and sits down with me,putting blankets over us.

He grabs the remote and picks a movie out for us.
"Your cute" he laughs.
"Thanks" I say smiling.
I grab my cup of hot chocolate and drink some, and put it back.
"Do you like it?" He asks.
"Yeah" I say.
We continue watching the movie until my eyes start closing.

~George's POV~

I look over at dream and see he's sleeping.
"Aw" I whisper.
I pick him up, trying my hardest not to wake him up.
I take him to my room and lay him down.
I lay down beside him and put my arm over him.
He's so perfect.