Tommyinnit Angst

Not alone (4)

"N-nothing nothing it doesn't matter" 

"It always matters tell me whats going on." 

Tommy's POV

I am so scared that my dad is going to figure out that I told Wilbur. 

I don't matter, nothing I do matters so when Wil asks me what's wrong I tell him the truth that I don't matter. 

"It always matters" Something I've never hear before, 

"tell me what's going on." 

I can't tell him the truth because if I tell him the truth, that I'm scared my dad is going to figure it out, he's going to be mad at me. 

"It's really nothing" 

"You're afraid that your dad is going to figure it out right?" How did he know? 

"Y-yeah? How did you-" 

"My mum was abusive as well" 

"Wait what?" My jaw dropped. 

"Yeah she was just like your dad. She was a drunk, she would beat me, call me worthless all of it" 

I couldn't believe what I was hearing someone else was going through what I was going through.

I wasn't alone

"Really?" 

"Yes and I was like you, I was scared of what she could do to me if I told anyone" 

"So what did you do?" 

"Nothing, I just waited until I was old enough to leave" 

"So I should do that too?" 

"NO" I flinch backwards and cover my face with my hands. 

"Sorry sorry I meant no it's the worst mistake I have ever made. I've just now realized that if I would have told someone sooner I would have had more of my childhood back. To be honest I still haven't told anyone you are the only person that knows about it." 

I don't say anything 

I don't deserve to know

"Yeah you do" 

"Huh?" 

"You said 'I don't deserve to know'" 

Fuck 

"I said that out loud?" 

"Yes." At that point the waitress came over 

"One cheeseburger" She says cheerfully 

"Thank you!" Wil says with a smile while paying her. 

"How much was it" I say as I pull out my wallet 

"Don't worry about it" 

"Are you sure? I have some cash" 

$500 american to be exact 

"No it's alright" I take a bite, I haven't had food in a couple days it tastes amazing. 

"How long has it been since you ate?" 

"A week and 4 days" 

"Tommy that's so long" 

"It has been worse uhhh I mean yeah it's a lot wait no-" 

Wil cuts me off 

"Tommy Tommy calm down it's alright your dad isn't gonna hurt you and I can see you don't want to talk about it so don't worry" 

"Thank you" 

"No problem you should talk to someone though" 

"Yeah I know but who?" 

"I'm not sure buddy" by then I was finished my cheeseburger. 

"I have to go to the bathroom" 

"Ok". 

I unbuckle my seat belt and calmly walk to the bathroom, I open the sliding door, there is a small sink and a toilet. 

I kneel down and (TW) I put my finger down my throat, 

I start to gag and then I throw up. 

I turn on the tap and splash cold water in my face, there is a mirror so I look at it. 

You're fat

I walk out of the bathroom and walk back to my seat. 

Tubbo is sleeping so soundly and Wilbur has his headphones in, listening to his song 'Your new boyfriend' 

I chuckle as I sit in my seat. 

Wilbur looks at me but doesn't suspect anything at least I don't think he suspects anything. 

I sit down and grab a pillow from my bag as I try and get some sleep.

words-1023

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