Tears by the Moonlight (AS#1) [completed]

Randell Shan C. Alfanta

Randell Shan C. Alfanta

"S-shan, I'm sorry, Please"

I can't look at her. I can't look at her the same way before! The person I loved! Yes, I loved her and it fuckin' hurt knowing that she cheated on me!

"Leave, Mikee." Pilit kong kinontrol ang sarili na hindi sumabog at lumakas ang boses. Nasa garden kami sa likod ng bahay namin at hindi ako tinatantanan.

"I-i was drunk, Shan! P-please, I'm s-sorry" Pagmamakaawa niya.

Kung dati, kapag nakikita ko siyang umiiyak, yayakapin at patatahanin ko siya. Pero ngayon, wala akong maramdaman. I'm so disappointed.

I'm disappointed to myself, too. Marami nang nagsasabi sa akin na hindi matinong babae si Mikee, but I didn't listen. Bakit naman ako maniniwala sa mga sabi sabi eh hindi nga nila siya masyadong kilala iyong tao at hindi tamang manghusga ng ganoon.

Pero ngayon, sa ginawa niya sa akin, naaawa ako sa sarili. I gave my love to her and I trust her. I don't know if she trusted me.

Oo, minsan na niya akong inayang magsex but I refuse. Hindi sa hindi ko siya kayang panindigan kung mabuntis, kun'di dahil nirerespeto ko siya. She was drunk when she told me that kaya alam kong wala siya sa matinong pag-iisip. Even though she's sober, I still won't do it.

My Mama told me that loving a person should be by heart. Na hindi mapapatunayan sa pakikipagtalik ang isang pagmamahal ng tao.

"Mikee dear, your mom-Oh my gosh! What happened to you?!"

Napabaling kaming dalawa kay Mama na dinaluhan agad siya. Mom immediately throw a dagger to me. I remained cold.

"What happened to the both of you?! Randell! Bakit umiiyak si Mikee?!" Aniya at inalo si Mikee.

"We broke up, Mom" I said. Nanlaki ang mata niya at sinamaan lang ako ng tingin.

"You broke up? And just your decision, Randell? Obviously, Mikee doesn't want that! And that's not good! Breaking up should be a mutual decision!" Pagkampi ni Mama kay Mikee.

She likes her that much. She treats her like her own daughter at masaya ako doon, noon. Hindi na ngayong sinira niya ang tiwala ko sa kaniya.

"Mikee knows the reason why we are breaking up, Mom. She knows that" malamig kong turan at nalipat ang mata kay Mikee na mugto na ang matang umiiyak.

Now, you're playing victim, huh?

"T-tita, no! I love R-randell so much" her voice is shaking.

My jaw clenched, making me snicker. No, if you really loved me, you wouldn't fuck that man!

Sinamaan ako ng tingin ni Mama at dinala si Mikee sa loob. Sumunod na rin ako at nagtungo sa kusina para kumuha ng tubig.

"Fix this, Son. You are better than this" si Mommy bago bumalik kay Mikee. I could only sigh and went to my car.

I need space, I don't like seeing my beloved mom with that girl.

Nagtungo ako kay Gab. Sa opisina niya. Bago pa lang siya sa trabaho sa kumpanya nila kaya hindi pa ganoon kabigat ang mga gawain niya. I was surprised to see Crane with him. They both look at me as I went to them.

"Ano, naniwala ka na?" Bungad ni Crane. I scowled at him and sat on a single sofa.

"Alam naman na kasing malandi at lasinggero, pinatulan pa" bulong ni Crane na hindi ko pinansin. Hindi ko alam kung pagod lang ako o talagang wala na akong pakiramdam. Naubos na.