To be honest
I don't know what it is
I can't pinpoint it
I'm just numbI can't tell anyone the truth
I'd be sent away from all of this
As much as that sounds nice
I won't make any progressI don't take care of myself anymore
I don't shower or eat
My body is always tired
My mind never sleepsWhat used to be easy
Is impossible now
My days fly by
As I accomplish nothingI'm doing the bare minimum
Hanging on by a thread
Just the bare minimum
Feels like it's too much anymoreMy head feels foggy
My hands shake
I've lost it completely
In every single wayI'm captive by my emotions
Yet they're blank
I can't see anymore
White spaceI've always been able to pull myself up
Find a way out
So why can't I this time
What's wrong with me nowAm I destined to stay here
Until I'm not who I was
When someone finally realizes
My hole has been dugIt would be relieving
To lay in the dirt
Even if it encompasses me
It's better than my life and workFinally I could rest
Without feeling like a failure
Sure my family would be hurt
But they would get betterI'll sit here all night
Drowning in my sorrow
Suddenly before I know
Here is tomorrowI'll stay in bed
Sleep and waste time
Until the sun falls
And I'm alone again
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Frozen Feelings
PoetryThis book outlines the pain I experienced in my past and the things that I look back on. These are my greatest fears and worst moments. I'm not writing this for the public, but for myself