Polaroids s.m.+ c.c.

chapter twenty six

We got home after one and half week in a hospital.
We're alright, I don't want to talk about it, honestly.
She's always sleeping and then eating, then crying.
I'm fascinated by her.
You would be too.

For God's sake where are you?

I don't know if I'm gonna be able to do this.

He slapped it closed, groaning from the fact that he can't do anything about it. Because it's in the past.
He needs to talk to her, through this. Everything.
Was there any post birth depression.
He still doesn't know answers about her health.
How did she do?

He agreed with himself that he's gonna talk to her and get through this confusing part of life, to see a better future.

He turned pages, they were blank.
Nothing more.
Nothing less.
She didn't scribble anger down, she didn't curse at him.
She just stopped writing.

-

"Your apartment is dusty" Camilas mother ran her finger over table and looked at her daughter. She didn't insult her in a way that she didn't take good care about her home, she just wanted her to know.

"It's just a little bit of dust darling" said Camilas father, rolling his eyes.

Camila shocked her head and just slightly smiled, but smile faded away.
"It's not good for the baby Ale"

"Owh, she's not a baby, she's growing into big girl" he smiled down at his lap, as Kiara slept peacefully after tiring day of playing with her grandparents which missed her so much, but not as much as the person she didn't know name of.

"Yeah she is" Sinhue sat down next to her loving husband and ran hand thought Kiara's hair.

Camila admired her parents a lot, she looked at the as her roll models.
She adored the way her father took care of his wife, being married for 27 years always felt for them like first year of marriage. He made sure she is always loved.
Her mother reciprocated the same way of serving him with love and keeping everything close to her heart.

She wanted what they have.

"God Camila she looks so much like her father" Sinhue's words made her fade back into real world.

"I don't think that's what she needs to hear" Ale said with empathy, he always wanted to protect his daughter of all the costs, but he could never protect her from power that love holds.

"It's okay dad, it's truth, she is 80% her father" she creeped smile on her face, remembering Shawn, struggling to change Kiara's diaper.
How he always wanted to learn things about her alone, like he was ashamed to ask her. The heavy sigh always leaving his lips as his mind focused to do job perfectly, she would stalk from the door. He was a quick learner, he already does it with ease.

"Did you hear from him honey?" She didn't know what to answer.
Sinhue's words cropped Camilas thoughs.
"Oh - I swear I saw someone walking down the street looking like him"

Camilas heart skipped a beat.

"Tall, handsome as always, curly hair"

"I'm sure he's not the only one handsome in this world" Alejandro stated.

"You're right but he always saw something else"

"Honey, I don't adore him in any way"

"I know baby, but he doesn't know"

"He shouldn't have done what he did"

"What, make a baby?"

Alejandro nodded.

"They were making love for the last time, he didn't know he made something"

"Something? It's Kiara"

Camila tapped her leg as she listened to them, cringed as they talked about her sexual life.
"Okay stop, please!"

They turned to her, with their eyes wide, because she yelled.
Kiara didn't wake up because Camila teached her to sleep in some kind of noise.

"I'm sure that wasn't him" she said, a lie.
That probably was him, but she couldn't tell them about him yet.

"We're sorry sweetheart" her father said, truthfully.

"He did amazing job, I mean I'm mad on him and not because he made this angel" Sinhue whispered because it would eat her inside if she didn't say it.
Alejandro rolled his eyes, Camila chuckled "I heard you"

"It's the truth!"

Camila shocked her head and went into her kitchen to make a coffee.
"Since you got your job, we won't be seeing you so much" Camila nodded her head as she listened to her mother.

"Would you like spending Christmas with us?"

Camila smiled and nodded happily
"Of course, Ariana is going to her parents with her boyfriend -" she stopped as she didn't know what's gonna Shawn do.
Maybe she could be with him on Christmas morning, no, he could be with his daughter.

"Maybe mum - umm we're gonna be there for Christmas dinner?"

"Why?" Her mother asked curiously.

"I want to decorate tree here with Kiara since she can do some things now. And you know me - I like traditional Christmas, decorating tree on Christmas Eve"

She hoped she could feel some kind of family time, she imagined few times now Shawn rose Kiara on his shoulders so she can hang some decorations.
Lights flickering as they laid cuddled on the couch drinking hot chocolate and watching elf.

"Okay honey, dinner than"

After few moments of silence filled with just soft snoring, her father asked her.
"Did you find anyone?"

Camila chuckled, "no, I didn't even try, and no one wants a woman with a baby"

Her mother sadly smiled.
"You should find happiness somewhere"

"I'm fine mama"

"You're not"

"Mum I swear -" she sighed as she tried to make words.
"Baby, I know you still love him. You always will" Alejandro said to his daughter.

"He took half of your heart with him and other is with Sky"

Camila didn't want to listen to that.
"That's true but I'm totally fine" she imagined that Ross sentence and voice, almost laughing.

"But you won't be alone for a whole life baby, she's gonna be a trouble growing up"

"Mama! Let me be for now, she's isn't even two, I can do it, for now"

They both sighed and nodded.
"Shawn -"

"Can we not please" she begged with her voice, "okay" they answered and drank their warm coffee.

All the wanted is best for their daughter, and best kind of childhood to Kiara. With both loving parents, enough money for health and food, but most importantly, they wanted them to be happy.

A/n: Happy weekend! How are you guys? Sorry for typos, comment what do you think about it, do you like Kiara's grandma?
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