• Dangerous to dream •

• Part 21 - Alone again •

No matter how much i missed them...

I knew that this was probably for the best.

This way they were safe.

They wouldn't be hurt.

The further from me...the safer.

I should never have made friends in the first place.

But when I caught a glimpse of Draco.

That pain in my heart grew...it wasn't anger though.

It hurt.

I remember all the times we had shared over my first few months here.

His smile.

His silver, glistening eyes.

And his peaceful sleeping.

The warmth of his chest.

Leaving him was all too much.

But before I could continue Snape grabbed me by the wrist but this time he wasn't gentle.

He made the boy that attacked me come too.

He took me to Dumbledore.

———

I'd been in Dumbledore's office before.

The older head professors stared down at me disgusted.

I wanted to rip them to shreds.

"Miss Riddle?! Are you listening?"

Shit I spaced out again.

"Mhm"

"Miss Riddle...I'm giving you three last chances, and if you loose them all I have no other option but to expel you"

Wait. What.

I was defending myself!

They were hurting me!

It was two against one!

But not even Snape spoke.

I was hurting so bad.

It was like the pain Delilah made me feel all over again.

Maybe it was for the best I did vanish this time.

Not back to Delilah.

Not back to anyone.

Not my father.

Not Draco.

Not Vaicey.

Not anyone.

I felt worthless again.

Weak.

Pathetic.

Loser.

Blood traitor.

MONSTER.

"No! Nonononono you wouldn't actually do that...would you?"

"I'm afraid I would"

The other boy sat there smugly.

I really needed to cry now.

"B-but my mother! You promised her!"

"But you can't hurt the other students and expect to get away so easily"

"YOUR A LIAR! SHE KILLED HERSELF THAT DAY YOU TOOK ME AWAY! Y OUT PROMISED I'D BE SAFE! AND NOW YOUR BREAKING IT BECAUSE I DEFENDED MYSELF!"

My head was aching.

I sprinted out the room as fast as I could.

Tears pricked my eyes, but crying makes you weak.

Love...makes you weak.

———

I was hiding in the girls bathroom.

I didn't want attend the house cup ceremony.

I didn't want to do anything.

I wanted to disappear again.

Maybe I deserved this though?

Everyone always hated me...

Thought I was some kind of monster.

A burden.

And maybe I was one.

And monsters should be killed.

I began to cry.

It felt good to let it all go.

I couldn't stop.

My tears became thick.

My breathing raced.

I shook violently.

Helpless.

It felt like the world could swallow me up and nobody would even care.

Maybe they'd all be happy.

If I did just...disappear.

I was alone again.

Born to be alone and hated by all.

A/N : this one was a little more serious and sad but tell me if you'd like to see more of this kinda stuff...luv you chics! Xx