"Hindi ko lang maintindihan, parang iniiwasan kasi talaga niya ako lately and I don't know why." Tumungga ako ng Yakult at inimagine na alak yun. Di ako pwedeng malasing dahil may klase pa ako kinabukasan.
"Baka busy lang talaga." Sagot ni Avi.
"Never pa niyang ginawa to. Kahit sobrang busy niyan magsesend at magsesend yan ng message sakin just to inform me. Kada tatawagan ko, di sumasagot."
"Eh di puntahan mo sa hospital." Suggest ni Allison.
"Wala akong time," I just sighed. A week after noong nag-bar kami ay biglang parang ghinost ako ni Kurt which kind of hurt because he's the last person that would do that to me. And the last time someone ghosted me was Trevor.
"Trevor is back in the Philippines?" gulat na sabi ni Avi.
Grabe namang coincidence yun, iniisip ko lang siya tas saktong nakita ni Avi yung post niya sa IG.
"What do you mean back?" I asked.
"Ah, after ng kasal ni Alli, he decided to stay sa Singapore. Supposedly for good, but he's in the Philippines again."
"Good for him." Itinungga ko yung tirang Yakult sabay tapon sa basurahan. "Tulog na ako."
After graduation ni Avi, sumunod na silang nagpakasal ni Yuen. A year after that, nagpagawa kami ng bahay for us three. It was our dream since high school to live together under one roof. Natupad naman. Kaya lang isa-dalawang gabi every month lang nangyayari dahil may kanya-kanya na silang bahay at may asawa sila.
I feel so left behind, but with Kurt, nalelessen naman. Naiisip ko mga minsan bakit hindi pa niya naiisip magpropose. Siguro sa plano niyang vacation, magppropose na siya. Agoi, sana nga.
As soon as I get all comfy in my bed, sakto namang pagtawag ni Kurt. Agad akong bumangon para sagutin yun.
"Hey, love. I'm sorry."
"Okay lang. Kumusta?" He didn't respond. "Love, are you okay? Are we okay?"
"Yes. We're okay, but I am not."
"I'm all ears."
"No. I can't tell you just yet. I need you to promise me one thing."
"What is it?"
"No matter what, trust me. Sa akin ka lang magtiwala."
I am puzzled as to what he's talking about, why he's telling me this. I still promised anyway.
Days passed, bumalik kami sa dati. He's even making more progress now. Sumasama na siya sa friends and colleagues niya. I should be happy, I am happy, except that one time they joked about him and that girl na nagpunas sa stain ng damit niya one time.
He told me to trust him and that's what exactly I'm doing. Hindi magagawa ni Kurt na magloko sa'kin.
