Mnemosyne's Youth

Chapter 20.

"C-call my Papa, Augustous. Call Kuya Ice or any from my family" I pleaded.

He sighed.

"I'll tell my driver to take you home. Mag-pahinga ka na, Zoyle."

Umiling ako.

"Call Papa, Please"  Iyon kang ang paki usap ko hanggang sa makalabas kami ng hall at nagpunta sa lobby.

He helped me sit on Hotel's lounge.

"Hintayin mo ako, Zoyle. I'll book you a room for you to stay. And I'll call my guard to take you home after you calmed down. Hindi ako makaka uwi kasama ka, I needed to settle what happened inside."

Mahaba ang sinabi n'ya pero wala ni isa ang pumasok sa isipan ko.

All i could think about was Marcus face and the fear i felt back then. Nagsimulang mag ramble sa memorya ko ang lahat, kung paano ako nakidnap. Kung paano n'ya ako muntik sirain.

I'm so scared for my life, the trauma he gave me will never leave.

Hindi ako makahinga, pinipilit ko naman pero sumisikip ang dibdib ko. I'm having a panic attack and Augustous noticed it.

"What the fuck?" He exclaimed and he doesn't know what to do.

"Breath, Blythe Zoyle. Breath!" He panicked too.

"I-I'm trying!" I cried. Nanlaki ang mata ko at lalong sumikip ang dibdib.

Think of good things, Mnem. Please.
Nagsimula na akong umiyak.

Humagulgol ako. I was so frustrated that I couldn't think of anything but the terror I felt year ago.

Kung paano ako dinala sa ospital, Kung paano akong ilang buwan na nag memedisina at nagpapakonsulta sa Psychiatrist.

Augustous said something and left. I clutched my chest as the pain is searing.

May mga staff na lumapit sa akin, their attention is making it worse.

This is all his fault. Sana, hindi nalang s'ya nabuhay. Sana hindi ko nalang hinayaan na mapalapit sakanya.

I don't want to be miserable anymore, I regret everything I did.

I cried in pain. Napa pikit ako sa hindi maipaliwanag na dahilan. Ang panginginig ng katawan ko ay lalong lumala.

"Mnemo, fck baby. Breath. Slowly, breath." I heard that familiar voice.

I don't know if it's really him, all i could hear is his instruction.

"Breath. Just like that, everything is fine. Yes, slowly baby." He guided.

Unti unti, nakakahinga na ako nang maluwag.

Humagulgol ako ng tuluyan at minulat ang mata ko. His green eyes staring at me intently with full of worry.

Otomatikong pumulupot ang kamay ko sa leeg n'ya. He's kneeling down in front of me now.

"I wanna go home." I said in between tears.

"Hush, don't cry. It's fine, I'm here." Marahan akong tumango, nagsumiksik ako sakanya at yinakap nya ang nanginginig kong katawan.

"I don't like it here." I said like a child begging her parents for something.

Ayoko dito, just the mere thought of Marcus sharing the same place with me is suffocating my entire body.

Iyak lang ako nang iyak. I don't care about anything anymore, I just want to get out of here.