I woke up with a heavy head and a sore....
Huh?! napamulagat ako bigla, I look at the room side by side.
Nasaan ako?!
I stood up only to growl in pain.
Masakit ang pang-ibabang parte ng katawan ko, hindi ko na nabigyan ng pansin ang hang-over na nararamdaman ko dahil mas matimbang ang sakit na nararamdaman ko sa sensitibong parte ng pagkababae ko.
Para akong binibiyak, and that's when I realised I'm wearing someone else clothes.
An oversize shirt that reached my knee but other than that I'm wearing nothing underneath.
Tumakbo ako papunta sa CR, I look around to find my clothes but I saw nothing.
May namumuo ng idea sa isipan ko pero hindi ko kayang tanggapin ‘yon.
That can't be, why didn't Pheobe or Aly looked for me?!
Pagkakita ko sa sarili ko sa salamin, napanganga ako. I faced palmed.
My hair is all over my face, hickeys are very visible. I lift up the shirt, I'm full of bruised. It even look like a beast devour last night.
Slowly, I touched the red marks, from my neck down to my breast and stomach.
Miski braso ko hindi pinalampas! Even my legs!
Tumakbo akong muli pabalik sa kama kahit sobrang hapdi ng gitna ko.
The bedsheet is color gray but I still saw 'The stain'.
I broke down. It really happened, and then while staring at the damn bed, flashes of memories last night run through my brain.
I had sex.
With a man I barely knew.
Hindi ko maipaliwanag ang nararamdaman ko. Natatakot, kinakabahan, nagtataka.
What if I got pregnant?! And I fuckin lost my virginity!
Hindi ko namalayan, tuloy tuloy ng tumulo ang luha ko.
"Oh my, god!" hindi ko mapigilang iyak, naka dapa lang ako sa sahig at humahagulgol.
Hindi ko din alam kung nasaan ako!I barely remember what happened last night!
And then the door flew open, I look at the man who arrived.
Pagkakita ko sakanya, lalo akong napalabi at umiyak nang umiyak.
He looked at me with furrowed brow and worried eyes.
Nanginginig ang katawan ko sa kaiiyak, sumisinok pa ako na parang bata.
Bukod sa masakit ang pepe ko, nawalan pa ako ng virginity sa lalaking hindi ko naman Boyfriend! higit sa lahat hindi ko naman talaga kilala!
Konsolasyon lang gwapo sya.
Pero! anong gagawin ko?
Malalaking hakbang ang ginawa nya para makalapit sakin, walang sabi sabi akong binuhat at ilinapag sa kama.
Wala akong magawa kasi wala akong lakas para mag protesta.
"Y-you...." Hindi ko matuloy tuloy ang sasabihin.
He patiently waited for me to finish it but I couldn't. The more I stare at his eyes, the more stupid I feel.
Nang maiupo ako sa kama, hinaklit ko ang dulo ng shirt nya.
I grab it tight, nagagalit ako. Pero hindi ko makuhang sumigaw kasi kasalanan ko.
"I... I had sex with you." I finally said and once again broke down to tears.
Ngumawa ako pero natigilan nang magsalita sya. "Yes." He spoke ironically.
Tumingala ako, nang makita kong parang wala lang sakanya iyon, hindi ko napigilan ang sarili at sinipa ko sya sa abot ng lakas ko.
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Mnemosyne's Youth
RandomMnemosyne Blythe Zoyle grew up fine even though, she has no biological mother or father by her side. Deep down, she knows she's incomplete but she forced herself to be contented with her life. Why, she has a good wealthy family and she's not strugg...
