Mnemosyne's Youth

Chapter 12.

I was busy the whole fuckin week, after i fought with my group mates on who will take the lead in reporting, we settled to me. And after a hectic day in SMX convention center, i busied my self in reviewing for the upcoming exam.

I literally shut my self out from the outside world, kahit na ginugulo ako nina Pheobe at Aly dahil gusto nilang pumunta sa condo para mag review. Of course i refused them, group study will never be my forte, magdadaldal lang kami, wala pa naman akong preno. It's not like we didn't try the group study, we did and it ended badly. Cramming lang naman kami, mangiyak ngiyak nga ako kasi parang wala akong alam isagot sa exam noon.

Ever since then, Ine FO ko sila kapag exam, and they got no choice. Kaya nag-aaral din sila kapag exam.

Ayoko talaga ng iniistorbo kapag ganito, kaya pinatay ko ang phone ko at para sure, I uninstalled all my social media apps.

I studied the whole weekend.  By monday, nakuha namin ang schedule ng examination. It's a four day exam tho, 2 subject per day, except saturday kasi isa nalang yung natira dahil walang written exam sa Cognitive Psych.

After kong kunin ang exam permit ko, umuwi na ako. I tried reading my Psycological psychology book just in case. And then i proceeded to the other two subject na hindi ko pa na review.
Hindi na ako pumasok kinabukasan, wala rin namang sense kasi walang gagawin sa school dahil nag e-exam na rin ang ibang departments.

Pinasadahan ko lang ang sarili ko sa mga lesson and I'm done. Sukang suka na ako sa pagaaral, Lalo na sa Chemistry, Ugh. I fucking hate thay subject so much.  Mamaya nalang ulit ako mag rereview, kailangan kong magpahinga.

Dahil tapos na akong mag review, doon ko lang na realize na ang kalat pala ng condo ko. 

Ang daming balat ng chichirya, napangiwi ako nang makita ko ang mga bote ng vitamilk na nagkalat sa sahig.

Damn, my condo's a mess.

After cleaning, I took a bath and slept for almost four hours. Nagising ako nang mag a-alasais na. Good thing i put my alarm on or else I'll sleep the whole night. Kulang parin ako sa tulog pero okay lang, i need to eat.

Tamad akong magluto kaya nag prito lang ako ng sunnyside up, and i toasted a bread. May nakita pa akong avocado sa ref kaya nilagyan ko ng condence.

My whole body felt so heavy, paano Ilang araw akong nasa condo lang at hindi lumalabas, ni hindi ako nakakapag lakad. Nakaupo lang ako at ng rereview.

I know, this is just a prelims and even if my parents keep saying na "Grades is just a number" I still don't want to disappoint them. More than that, i don't want to pity myself just because I know i can do better so why not try better, right?

The days passed by, and today is Saturday. Saturday means, last day of Examination.

Kahit isa lang yung pag e-exam, pakiramdam ko kasing bigat nya yung dalawang subject kahapon.

Like fck, bakit ang dami?!

Sa huli, bangag akong lumabas sa examination room ng matapos akong magsagot.

I waited for Aly and Pheobe outside, hindi ko na kayang mag stay sa loob kasi pakiramdam ko magsusuka ako. Wala pa namang laman ang tyan ko magmula kanina.

Maaga akong pumasok kahit na ala una palang ang exam ko kasi pinatawag ako ng Student Council, they asked me if i want to volunteer on going to Central Luzon drug Rehabilitation Center.
Sabi ko pag-iisipan ko, hindi ko kasi sure, although ang tempting ng offer kasi new experience 'yun, inaalala ko schedule ko.

They said it's fine and if i changed my mind, i'll just call them.

After about ten minutes, lumabas na sina Pheobe at Aly ng sabay. Both of them are pinching the bridge of their nose.
"Oh, my god. Just what the fuck was that?! Those weren't included on the PDF she sent to us!" like usual, Pheobe is throwing a tantrum.