Apprentice of the moon- (Jack Frost x Reader)

Chapter 36 - Lost memory- lost meaning

I aimlessly walked around the aisles
I must've come here for a reason.
"Excuse me miss...? Are you alright? We're closing soon" a worker came up to me. I checked the time

3 hours had went by
But it seemed only like a few minutes. I turned red and quickly grabbed an item.
"Oh- most apologies " I ran to the cashier and quickly payed. And then I saw a little girl with bunny ears - she looked up at me and I recognized her.

"Moon fairy" she spoke pointing at me.
I stood there in a state of shock. Moon fairy
An odd title but one so warm and sweet. But it didn't fit me
"Star - wishing star..." I said. Her smile grew brighter
"I knew it!! You're the fairy in the star that grants wishes!!" She jumped up and down. Her mother began to pull her away embarrassed. The little girls eyes never left me before she whispered softly.

"I believe"

I looked at the bunny ears once more - another flash.
I sneakily hid in a tree- barely able to hide my giggles as I sat on a tree branch. A sound whir sound brought me confusion before a boomerang ran into my face. I was knocked out of the tree and landed on the ground with a loud thump. I groaned a bit in pain as I looked over to bunny. The Easter bunny
"Found ya Sheila " he smirked holding out his paw to catch the boomerang. I sat up and pouted
"God you are the worst!!" I smiled. He sat down next to me before speaking.
"Say... you like frost bite right?. Like - love?" He asked. My face fumed up
"I - I -." I didn't speak until he spoke once more.
"If you two... you know do get together- you wouldn't... stop being here... with me ..right?" He looked at me the way a sweet lil bunny would. My heart melted.
"Why would you think I'd ever leave?" I asked. His ears went down.
"I know I'm not the nicest.. or the funniest- but I really care about ya mate... and I just want to see you grow.." he smiled softly at me. I smiled and hugged him tightly.
"I'd never leave you- you're my big brother!!" I smiled. We stayed like that for hours. Just the two of us .

I was running home. This hurt. It hurt so much
Faces I didn't recognize in my head
In my heart.
It was unbearable.
I felt like sobbing and break down.
I ended up in a park and sat on the swings. I just needed to calm down, they were just figments if my imagination. But what are the flashes of light? They couldn't possibly be the sun. That would be ridiculous. I noticed a sand box. Sand...
flash
Sandman watched me as I read a loud a chapter of papas book. He looked at me with such big eyes. He didn't have to speak in order for me to understand him. We had that sort of relationship- the type where he would allow me to dream and have such warm moments but enlighten me. Like a big brother I never had- he clapped his hands after I finished. An exclamation mark appeared on his head as well as some others I couldn't make out. I laughed
"Sign to me-." I reminded him. I had taught him ASL thought it'd be a easier way then just symbols. He faced palmed lightly before giving me an apologetic smile. He began signing slowly, he was still getting used to it
"Your father took good care of you, making sure you were safe despite knowing all of the things about you"
I nodded
"Papa was a selfless person, he didn't care for having biological children. He was contempt with me- the girl who had the brightest eyes. He called me" I smiled sadly . Sandy moved in front of me and began to float so he was my height. He signed once more
"Sometimes, good things leave before we are ready to. And we aren't always prepared. But the hurt will turn into your armor- you'll use your fathers once strong presence and move forward with it. You can't wallow away in tears forever. Your father would want you to be happy and free- the way you should have been"
His wide ness did not come as a surprise to me. I always knew he was someone with a big mind and heart. He just lacked words. I smiled softly tears pricking at my eyes. I hugged him warmly
"Thank you , Sandy.."

I was running. I didn't even realize I had gotten up. Like my body was trying to lead me somewhere with my brain not cooperating. I stopped and began to pant softly as I bent over trying to catch my breath. Two mothers spoke on the opposite street from me. I was within ear shot so eavesdropping was inclined.

"It's so odd, the children have become so afraid of the dark and each other- do you think something happened?? I hope not"
"Yes I know!! It's bad enough that Pippa won't leave her room. She's so scared without Keith-."

Keith.
That name stung me.
As if he was the cause of pain
And I had caused his

"Y/N? When did you get back from your internship-." The women began approaching me. I must've looked panicked cuz their expressions tensed. I backed away and ran in the direction of home.

I don't know what I did
I don't know who Keith is
But I know I killed him
And that's something
I'll never be able to shake out of my head.