I See Right Through You ~ Judah Lewis (EDITING)

23.

Jack Cameron

"Well awhile ago me and jack had a pretty normal life" cierra says to judah as she leans back on the couch

"A normal mom" I say playing with the rings on my fingers as I look at the ground

"Our dad was the first to leave, then it was our brother dave" I shifts in my seat, sometimes even saying their names brings me discomfort and anxiety. I did something horrible to Dave and i hope he doesn't find me.

"Things definitely changed after dave" cierra says with a pained look. Cierra has no idea who our brother is now, he's not the boy he was. he's changed.

He was our big brother and all though when he was around and mom was sober times were good but still a bit rough with our dad gone and he was always there to make things better

"We loved him so when he left we felt a bit betrayed" i say running a hand through my dark brown curly hair very similar to cierra's

"Like everything we went through together didn't matter at all" cierra quickly swiping a tear from under her eye.

Judah silently rests a comforting hand on her shoulder.

"And then the next to leave was... jack" she says as she looks at me her arms resting on both thighs she couldn't look any sadder. she looks tired. I am too.

"And I never got to know why, I went to sleep one night and woke up with him not here with no explanation at all"  I can tell her heart is breaking.. mine sinks as well.

"Well once mom started drinking she changed. she was a cold heartless bitch so when shit started to go south I stopped giving a fuck. I didn't care about school, I loved to skip, hang out, and act up. I had no respect for mom because she didn't have any for me. The only thing I cared about was keeping you safe so mom got fed up and sent me to military school. One night I went to sleep and woke up to two big buff guys in military suits dragging me out of bed while mom stood there... and watched"

i keep my eyes on the ground, i've never wanted to tell her that story. only because i know how worked up she'll get. she's my twin. my sister. she's been there for absolutely everything. for me to be ripped away so suddenly leaving her all alone. my heart aches just thinking about it.

"after military school i ran away, i was homeless for awhile and i was addicted to multiple drugs i did some horrible things for money but i finally got into a shelter and i got clean"

she looks me in my eyes tears sitting at the edge of her water line "Jack, I-" she puts her hands on my cheeks and connects our foreheads

"i wish there was something i could've done" she whispers

"hey- it's not your fault. she took the choice away from both of us. if she had put the bottle down and actually tried being there for us when shit got rough maybe things would be different.. but we can't think about what could've been anymore" i grab her hands

"we gotta focus on what we have here right now. I was so scared to walk through that door cee.. i thought i was dead to you- that you were never going to want to see my face ever again. I kept things of all the what ifs, it took me cutting it the fuck out to knock on that door." i shove her shoulder and she giggles

cierra stands up from her seat in anger "if i see her. i'm going to kill her. because who the fuck is she to make calls like that- shit she might've been drunk when she made that call!"

"woah- there will be no murdering of our mom.. not yet at least."

"what? hey- all that matters now is that he's back right?" Judahs says from the couch

"Exactly that's all that matters Cee I'm back alright your my bestfriend I'm never leaving you again"

"And you... judah come here" I say waving him over to where I'm currently standing

He gets up from the couch and walks over to me and once he gets to me i give him a firm hand shake. He was there for Cee when I wasn't and he cares about her. He made it his job to protect her when I wasn't there to even though she hardly needs us for protection.

"Thank you for taking care of her when I couldn't"

"it's more of her taking care of me" he giggles as he reaches out for her as she wraps her arms around his torso

"she's the love of my life. she's stuck with me" i squeeze her tightly

"oh i'm going to be the third wheel aren't I?"