I See Right Through You ~ Judah Lewis (EDITING)

11.

Judah's POV

"Babe we need to talk" cierra says walking in my room looking down

Today we decided to have a chill day in Cierra's house, her mom's went and done another one of her disappearing acts so it's just me and her here but, she's been acting off all day.

"Princess what is it" I shift my attention from my phone to her so I can see her face

She has tears in her eyes.

She sobs as she walks towards me "You have to promise that you won't get mad and leave me"

"You know I would never do that, come sit on my lap tell me whats wrong"

She comes and sits on my lap now in full on tears

"I-I just don't want you to see me differently" she starts crying uncontrollably

"Baby baby I would never i promise, you'll always be my Cee, please tell me whats wrong baby so I can fix it let me fix it" I hold her closer to me

Tears begin to meet my eyes

I hate seeing her like this she's the only person i would ever cry for and with the ways she's crying she's concerning me.

after she finally calms down she began to struggle but she speaks

"There's one secret I've been keeping from you"

3 Years Ago..

Cierra Cameron

I walk in to yet another party this week. I woke up this morning to a bunch of hate comments from Iris and my mom is no where to be found and ever since I got out of school today I've spent every second looking for her and at this point I don't want to feel anything so I thought

"fuck it I'm gonna get black out drunk tonight"

wasn't very smart of you Cierra.

As I walk through this party I walk past some guy with a big leather jacket (judah) and he is holding Iris's hand, me and him bump shoulders he stares at me and says sorry

Iris shoots me a..

'I-don't-like-you-move-away-from-me' look but the guy next to her is kinda cute not gonna lie but, I didn't come here for that

I walk over to the kitchen and...jackpot. All the booze in the world. So knowing me I start filling up my cup then 1 cup turns to 4 cups and then the next thing you know I'm downing the whole bottle until I feel someone behind me I turn around to see that it was Lee Anderson he has been watching me from across the room ever since I walked into this kitchen I've heard rumors around the school that he raped a bunch of girls but I never thought anything of it...

Until now.

When I turn around and look down to see that he has a boner and even though I'm drunk I am still able to tell him that I'm not interested in that type of stuff being the fact that I'm still a virgin and I'm trying to keep it that way but even though I'm telling him "no" he takes advantage of  the fact that I'm piss drunk and roughly grabs my left wrist causing me to drop my red solo cup and he starts to drag me to a room somewhere in this persons house and throws me on the bed

I go to the door to get out but I can barely keep my balance so he shuts the door and locks it before I can get there but little does he know I took out my phone started recording and dropped it on a chair quickly before he could turn around once I do that I stumble towards the door again to get out but he throws me on the bed I begin to feel dizzy and my eyes open and close as if im going in and out of sleep

"L-lee get off me please!!" I yell trying to catch someones attention but I guess the music was too loud for anyone to hear me cry out for help

His body is heavy on top of mine making it hard to breath he begins to roughly kiss my neck and rip off my shirt as I try to fight him off but he is too strong for me but I wasn't going to give up

He used my body as if it was worth nothing, as if I was just a warm hole to stick his cock in, with every stroke a piece of my strength was stripped away from me, he was relentless and could care less about me pleading and begging. And in that moment, I wanted nothing more than to be dead.

At some point I gave up and realized no matter what I did, no matter how many tears were shed,

He Didn't Give A Fuck.

First thing to leave my body was my voice then it was the tears and my feelings and then it was my will to fight. I realized that there was nothing I could do and that no one was coming to save me. He wasn't stronger than me and I could beat his ass 7 times over if I was I've sober but right now he had the upper hand, I knew it and so did he.

So I laid there speechless and without a move until eventually I pass out from the booze but..

Then I wake up..

And for a moment I forget where I am but Lee was quick to remind me.

My shorts and panties are off as he rams himself into me repeatedly I weakly try to fight him off with tears in my eyes but I fail as he grabs both of my hands very tightly leaving bruises for me to see tomorrow.

"I know you like that mm" he pants

"please" I whisper but I can no longer yell for it feels that even though it's only been about 10 minutes I have been yelling for hours and my voice has finally given in.

so as I stare at the ceiling of this bedroom as my last tear comes out my eye and slowly trails down my face I start to hear him groan as he shuts his eyes tightly he lets go of my wrists and pulls out of me as he cums into a napkin he found

and even though I could have gotten up from there and left I felt as if I couldn't move and as he pulls up his pants he throws me my panties and shorts and says

"You're mines now and if you tell ANYONE about this I will personally kill you myself" and then he walks out
like nothing ever happened

And for a few moments I couldn't leave the bed cause it felt like if did then this would become real.. that I was raped.

Eventually I slowly put my clothes back on as I stare at the ground, emotionless. His words and his groans are on replay in the back of my mind, I walk over to my beat up converse and put them on, I didn't even see him take them off. I walk out the room stumbling still because I'm drunk, the ache between my legs is unbearable.

I walk through this party and as I look to my left I see that boy judah and iris feverishly making out in the kitchen and he stopped and looked at me with a confused face as if he knew something was wrong but didn't quite know what it was yet but iris turns around shoots me a dirty look grabs judahs face and starts kissing him roughly again but his eyes don't close they stayed on me then I look to my right and see Lee partying and dancing with some girl I felt like I was gonna be sick as if he didn't just ruin and scar someone forever.

I walked home that night in the cold and alone and even thought Lee wasn't there..

I Could Feel Him, All Over Me.