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(Angry noah gif, even if he's not angry in this chapter xD he just looks so cute)

Noah:

It was 8 pm and I had not pick up any of Valerie's calls, I picked up my phone to dismiss another notification of her texts.

Other than asking me to answer her, and telling me she needed to talk to me, she's been sending links or images about how great Harvard is, as if her attitude 3 days ago didn't piss me off enough.

I fucking know how great Harvard is. I try to keep it in mind so i change my decision about not going.

But it just doesn't happen.

I can't really see myself without Valerie anymore. We've been together for almost 6 months, and i really didn't think i could ever love a girl as much as i love her.

There is the long distance relationship option, but i don't even want to try it out.

I have been apart from her for a couple of days and it didn't feel nice at all, Now she's asking me to get used to not seeing her? get used to only see her through a tiny screen?

I even feel pretty miserable today for not seeing her or talking to her at all.

But i didn't really wanted to see her if all she's gonna do is try to send me off to Boston.

I thought she was going to be happy that i wouldn't leave and we wouldn't be apart. and somehow, even though i am the one sacrificing, i ended up like the villain.

I heard a knock on my door, and frowned walking to it, when i opened it, my friend Chad was there with 2 cans of beers.

"mind if i come in? i think you need someone to talk to" Chad might be an ass to others sometimes but he is a good friend after all. I let him in and he walks to the couch sitting down with one of the beers

"You just won one of the biggest championships on the country, we got a scholarship to Harvard, everyone downstairs is celebrating and yet you're here locked up in your room mourning." He says without any hesitation

"i'm not mourning" I stubbornly reply.

"I understand your girlfriend is upset about you moving to harvard, but i'm sure you can make it work" He says without even knowing a single thing about our fight

"That... that's not the problem..." I say bluntly, his comments are starting to annoy me "She actually really wants me to go" I sighed thinking about how much she wants me away

"then what is the problem?" Chad asked frowning

"You wouldn't get it" I open the can of beer and drink from it. He wouldn't get that i am so in love with this girl that i'm willing to give up on everything for her. He is a player he sure doesn't have the ability to love.

"Well, try me" He said calmly as he drinks from the beer he just brought. He wants to make me feel better but he is not really comforting, i wish Valerie was the one telling me it's okay to love someone so much till it hurts.

But she doesn't even love me as much as i love her.

"I turned the offer down" I start, and Chad's mouth is opened wide listening to me "Valerie got pissed at me for it" I keep with my story

"Well i'm pretty mad at you too, what the hell, man? why would you turn the offer down?" He asked frowning, starting to get a little agitated

"Well..." I suddenly don't know how his reaction would be. probably same as Valerie's "I love her so much man... i don't want to move to another state" I look down and scratch the back of my head

"Are you serious?" he asks again and i look up to glare at him

"Yes Chad, I am being serious, stop being a douche for once, can you?" I ask annoyed and chad sighs heavily at my comment

"You going away doesn't mean you'll break up with your girl" He comments.

"But everything will change, how will we even work?" I look at him hopeful, that he is trying to say something useful

"Well, there's facetime, right? and umm.." he scratches his neck "You can catch plane ticket sales or something and visit her from time to time" He comments again and i sigh heavily , tell me something i don't know

"I won't be able to touch her, to kiss her, to make love to her" I lamely admit and he chuckles a bit

"Well, if you want a good shag, i have some friends in boston.. we could..."

"Chad..." I look at him sternly and shake my head at him. "I don't want any girl... i want her" I sigh again and after some laughter chad calms down again

"Well, that's what sexting, nudes and video chat sex was made for, right?" he suggests and i purse my lips

"I'm in a pretty damn good university, I'm fine here, i have everything i need, i think i will be pretty successful even if i graduate here instead of harvard" I try convincing him so i don't sound so crazy

"You know it's not the same, bro" He sighs and then after some thought he looks up at me again

"I guess that if you're really planning on not going you must really love her" He finally says calmly and i nod

"Yeah man.. i feel like i can't breath without her" I confessed, getting pretty comfortable talking to Chad, he is a player, but a good listener at least.

"Then do what your heart tells you to do" he bites his bottom lip in thought "You are the smartest guy i know, if you are making this decision, you must be right.... you don't need to graduate from Harvard to be a great Economist" He offers a small smile and pats my shoulder

"thanks man" I mutter and drink the last bit of my beer.

"Call her and talk to her, I don't like to see you all miserable" He chuckles and tosses his empty beer can on the trashcan before leaving my room. 

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A/N: missed me? probably not xD vote and comment and you know, make me feel loved

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