The Damning Of My Poet Soul

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My eyes show the world around me so simplistic,
But with my wonders, it twists it so abstractly.
Can't read a thing, I cannot recognize a single letter.
And any  of  my translations,
Cannot be taken so seriously.

It's always changing,
This distorted view,
Please do not let my words Pierce your skin,
Let them roll off your skin,
Because I'm sure I don't mean a thing,
There isn't any of them that makes sense when I keep seeing like this.

Did you not already forget,
I see things from a different point of view,
Don't tell me such things,
Because I don't know what the fuck to do,
But the thought of you,
Catches fire inside my soul,
And put the gears in motion.

I wanna stop this,
As my heartbeat quickens,
My breath grows shallow,
And everything seems to be racing,
Can not seem to sit back as enjoy the ride,
You call me pretty,
And I guess I see that,
But even if I was pretty,
Still soon to be thrown away and forgotten,

Doing my best to make sure I'm not wasted,
But deep down,
I still know.
And I can't find hope now,
Wouldn't find faith,
Even if I wanted,
Because in the mirror,
What I see flickers,
Knowing I'm such a small light,
Compared to that of the world,
And it's span of time.

I'm so sorry,

This is so strange to me,
Don't wanna let you know,
I make myself toss those thoughts of you away,
Because I know I can't read it right.
Wanna live like the old days,
When I was alone in my sailing ship.
I swear the second we hit land,
I'll be preparing a new boat to call home,
Returning to my old abode,
Where I'm okay with being alone.

Don't tell me I don't have to go,
Because we have yet to land,
But beware our fate lies in the hands of Poseidon.
Honestly, I know I'm not in his favor.
Threatens to chain me to the bottom.
And yet I dare to go sailing again.

I didn't expect so many Olympian visitors,
What even is Eros even doing here.
Come on just go home and leave me alone...
I pleaded inside my head.
Here I go again barely getting shot.
Just let me go.
I plead.
I did not ever wish for this.
Just let me go home,
Go back to my lonely scribbled on abode.

I can not seem to stand to be,
Who I say I am,
It's been doing all kinds of things,
Why does your poison miss its mark,
In favor of keeping myself safe,
With all these shadows aboard,
Long lost crewmates,
Have settled in on my decks.
Can barely be seen.

Why must I run around letting you Gods shove emotions down my throat,
Now that I just wanna be left alone.
Just go away every last one of you Olympian or not.
I want lonely back,
And I have lost it all but I could get it all back,
Get up and actually reclaim my pride,
Yeah you know I've wasted that,
They've all had a taste of the bad end of that.