Here I go,
Once again from A to Z quicker than the flip of a coin,
And you ought to know that the functions of my brain,
Are something I don't even know,
Never know exactly which feelings I'm feeling pumping through the engine,
And oh how it loud it can roar,
But that sound has long since been buried under the wind.
Can not let seem to find out just how to let go,
And I keep letting myself say it,
Here I go falling apart,
Tattoo needles staining my heart,
And tears glittering in my eyes,
I tell myself I'll never be enough,
Because even I can't fool myself,
And I feel the pain like a shot through the lung,
Left to drown in this tainted black blood,
And to choke on something thicker than any man's liquor.
Come on just quit letting me drive my heart so,
I already got so many thoughts going through my brain,
I keep taking more like it's suddenly a good thing for me,
But I will always know,
It's still worse than the useless heart haunting my rib cage,
I just can't seem to turn off this motor,
One second cruising along at 102,
Only to shift gears, some speed a whole lot quicker than anyone can ever tell me,
I can not get out,
And I can not see with the winds blurring everything in sight,
It's impossible to ease up with such heavy lead feet,
I keep dragging around,
And now I can't even manage,
To pull one foot off the gas,
And lift the other to the brake.
Tighten my grip on the wheel,
And pray I could go right off some cliff,
I can not seem to push this engine to break apart,
Oh, how can I feel it beginning overheat,
And I keep waiting for something to blow,
As I slide into just one gear more,
Because if I can't slow down,
I might as well try to crash the whole thing.
I'm so sorry,
I don't wanna hurt you,
But I cannot hear your words,
I'm so sorry,
I'm driving myself down into my own death,
And I shouldn't even be at this wheel,
Because my brain it's foggy,
My tongue it slurs,
My eyes bloodshot and jittering.
I was never in any condition to even think about getting in a vehicle,
And now I can not get out,
I can not slow down,
And I'm so sorry I decided to let you jump in next to me,
How dare you trust me,
With your soul?
Don't you know all this time I've been trying to kill mine?
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The Damning Of My Poet Soul
الشعرAnd all it took was one neat paragraph in pen. Enjoy some small teen me starting from like 2016 to like idk late 2018 I think early2019 I'm doing some rereading and retitling cuz numbers idk Thank you readers for over 4k reads. like is it good tho...
