Heart Beat [Fall For You Again]

[30] Please, Tell Me It Is A Lie!

Oh POV

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"Mom, what happens? Why are you crying?" Copper asked his mother who kneed down in front of me. She was crying.

I looked at him who looked at me too. He look so surprised. No. It was me who look so surprised.

His mom? She appologized to me? She appologized to me about my parent's death?

This is a mistake, right? I heard it wrong right? It can't be. It is a joke, right? Everything is just a joke, right? They are wrong. It can't be him. Please tell me it is not him. I hope it is not him. Please!

"Please tell me if what I just heard is wrong" I said, "It is just misunderstanding. Please tell me it is a lie!"

He tried to come close to me. He wanted to calm me down. I stepped beack everytime he walked forward to me.

"No. Please don't!" I yelled.

He stopped. He looked at me with his lovely stare. But I could see a sorry from his eyes. I didn't know what to say again. He kept looking at me. The way he looked at me, it hurted me so much.

"Why?" I asked them, "How could you?"

"I am sorry...." He said.

Why he should say sorry to me? It wasn't his fault. I wanted to say that but my words stuck in my throath. He tried to come to me again. I stopped him again.

"Don't!"

I couldn't hold it any longer. My strenght was faded away. I turned around and ran away from them. I ran. I just followed where my feet brought me. I fell down. I knee down. My tears was running down to my face. I cried. I cried out loud and screamed.

"Aaaarrrrggghhhhhh!!!!!"

I screamed to let out my anger. I tried to let out my sadness. I didn't care if people will get annoyed of me. I didn't care if people will hit me because of that. And I didn't care if people will think I am crazy. I didn't care about it at all.

"I am sorry Mom, Dad!" I cried, "I am sorry because I fall in love with him"

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Few days passed by. My uncle and aunt wanted me to come and live with them again but I told them I would be fine. I didn't want to make them worry.

Days gone by day and I still tried to make a peace with my situation. I needed times to be alone to think about everything. Sometime Sun and Nam came to check on me or just brought me foods to eat.

"How are you, I mean your feeling?" Sun asked me after Nam left. I didn't answer him and just looked at the ceiling blankly.

"I am sorry" he said. Still, I din't answer him.

Why everyone said sorry to me? Why they asked me for forgiveness? I am not God! I am just a human being and I have my right to be mad angry to them. But Sun never do something wrong. He is just trying to protect me from getting hurt. He is such a good friend.

I asked him to leave me alone and he got up to leave. He told me to eat the foods he brought for me. Honestly, I didn't have any appetite but because he look really cared and worried about me, I will eat that food later to show how gratitude I am for his caring.

"Sun!" I called him, "Thank you"

He closed the door and I looked at the ceiling again.

"I miss you" I cried.

My tears burst out. It was like a rivel. Maybe flood. I didn't know how many times I cried. My tears just keep running out, even though I have tried to hold it.

I hated myself for being weak. My parent taught me to be a strong boy, that's why I never cried when they were busy with work when I was kid. I always be their strong kid and always play by myself. I never cried because of loneliness. But now, why I become so weak?

I cursed myself because of it. I shouldn't cry, but my tears wouldn't stop for coming out.

I should hate him but why I couldn't do that?

I should forget him, but why my heart misses him so much?

I should take a revenge of his family, but why I feel so hurt when I imagine him being hurt?

I am in pain and I didn't like it. I wanted this pain to be gone but it won't be gone. It will stay with me forever. Maybe I should disappear to make it gone. Maybe...

Someone knocked the door, my door. It was midnight. I still hasn't sleep. Too much to think and a lot of things flied in my mind.

I felt so weak and too lazy to work my feet but that person kept knocking my door. I worked my ass up, walked toward the door then stopped when I heard his voice.

"Oh!" his voice sound trembled. He sounds so weak. Did he cried?

I just sat, my back against the door. Did he do the same? I could feel his beating heart through the door. We were being silent for minutes.

"I miss you, Oh" he opened his mouth, "I miss you so much"

I miss you too, I spoke in my mind.

"I am sorry" he said again.

Why you're sorry? It is not your fault!

"I wish we could be back like before"

I wish too...

Silence again.

"I don't know how and what to say to you again. I only can say sorry about everything. About the past. About your parent. About my dad..." he cried. I could hear he was crying. I cried along in silence.

He didn't continue after that. He was silence. I waited him to talk again but there was none. He stayed quite.

"Please tell me if everything is a lie. Please tell me it is a lie!" I begged him. I was waiting for his reply. Seconds passed by and he still stayed silent.

"I... I am...sorry..."

Why he said sorry again? Please stop saying sorry!

"Please just tell me it is a lie!" I begged him in tears. I cried.

"I am sorry, Oh"

"Please I beg you...." I said again, "Tell me it is only a lie"

I couldn't hold it back. My strenght faded away and I brust out, cried. I hit my chest that felt so in pain. I cried out loud.

So, this is not a lie!

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Maybe next chapter I will move to Copper POV

I still not decide how to solve their problems yet 😅

Maybe I will make Oh takes a revenge and make this story end with tragic ending? 😈

Let see what I can do with them in future chapter 😉

Xoxo