[19]: Deep down

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Natsumi's pov:

I do care about ___, after all she's my best friend, I've noticed, well Levi too has noticed how distant she has forgotten from us. It's breaking our friendship apart. All of us. Levi seems the most pained though. I mean, he hasn't been himself since ___ left us.

I'm starting to think, Levi may think of her more as a friend... I mean they have known each other longer than they've known me. But I feel somewhat saddened I have a crush on Levi though... if he has a crush on ___ then it's going to be pretty awkward and difficult. After all, ___ did say that she didn't like anyone. So that'll mean Levi loves someone who doesn't love him back. Unrequited love.

Come to think of it, ever since, I confessed to ___ about who I like, things have gotten stranger from there. Unless... she was lying... about not having a crush... but that's okay... as long as it's not Levi... because situations would be even worse... but she's been acting strange around Levi and I. But that could only mean... she lied to me about having a crush on Levi.

But if that's the case, I feel bad for falling for Levi. He's my first crush, and I do want this to go smooth. I do wonder if he likes ___ though. Even if he did, he doesn't display any sort of feeling very clearly. Maybe he doesn't have a crush on anyone. Maybe I do stand a chance.

But I do feel guilty. What does a girl who has her first ever crush do when their best friend crushes on the same person too? But I can't make assumptions, I haven't guaranteed if ___ actually has a crush on Levi.

My heart says; just go for my dreams. Go for Levi. But my brain says; you have to think about others. Think about ___. People say go for your heart. That statement is true.

My suspicions about ___ haven't been confirmed, yet, so I do possibly stand a chance with Levi...? I might as well, gather the courage up, and take the opportunity... of maybe claiming his heart.

He's my first lover after all; He's the one fate has made me fallen for. I love Levi, and it pains me to see him upset. I'll try my best to make him happier. I really care about him, and wouldn't let him be surrounded by the depths of despair.

I love Levi; and I therefore claim him to be my lover.

Oh mother, will you be proud of me, I've finally fallen in love!

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