The Meaning of Wife (KimXi Fan Fiction)

Chapter XXXVII - A Little Too Late

I’m sending my heartfelt condolences to the Yap-Chiu family for the loss of Mrs. Louella Yap Chiu. May she find true happiness in God’s safest haven.

 

Forgive me for the turtle-like update. I always wanted to post new chapters regularly but my mental capacity always reaches its limit. HAHA!

I would like to address my deepest gratitude to those who keep on encouraging me to push through this story. I highly appreciate your comments. Thank you for inspiring me to be at my best as an amateur writer. Thank you for uplifting me despite of the negativity from other readers who don’t seem to understand the flow of the story. I know that I seldom reply to your comments and I’m really sorry for that. But still, I’m very much happy with your responses towards every chapter that I post. Thank you very much. I love you all.

 

This chapter is dedicated to: @gizelivy. Request granted.

 

 

-Mia

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

KIM’S POV

 

I finally decided. I think it’s about time na palayain ko ang sarili ko sa lahat ng sama ng loob na dinulot ng pagpapakasal ko kay Xian. It’s about time na magsimula ako ulit. It’s about time para manumbalik ako sa dating ako na nawala buhat nang piliin kong magpakatanga kay Xian. It’s about time na sumuko ako sa relasyon na sa simula pa lang ay mali na. And it’s about time na bigyan ko naman ang sarili ko ng kahit konteng awa. I have been suffering a lot. Limang buwan pa lang mula ng itali ko ang sarili ko sa kanya pero sobra-sobrang sakit na ang naranasan ko. Kinaya ko lahat ng mga ginagawa niya sa akin noon but killing the baby? That’s a different story.

“Anak, desidido ka na ba talaga sa gagawin mo?”

 

“Mom, trust me. Kaya ko ‘to.” I smiled in order to convince my mother that I will be okay. Kahit pa alam ko sa sarili ko na hindi magiging madali ang pag-alis ko. I have to start all over again. I have to bury the past behind. I have to face my fears of leaving the man I love. I have to face the consequence of standing alone. But I have to pretend that I can do it. Ayokong mag-alala sila sa akin. Masyado ko na silang inabala dahil sa failure ng marriage ko.

Despite of what happened, hindi sila nagtanong. Wala akong narinig na kahit ano mula sa kanila. Ni isa man sa kanila. Maybe they were thinking na mas makakabuti ‘yun para makapag-move on ako. Hindi rin sila nagtanong kung bakit mas pinili kong umuwi sa bahay nila than umuwi sa bahay namin ni Xian. Silence treatment from them is really killing me.  They were just saying “Wag kang umiyak. You’re brave enough to face these challenges.” O ‘di kaya, “Hold back your tears, he’s not worth it.” So I did. After I got myself out from the hospital, hindi ako umiyak. Ni isang patak ng luha, walang tumulo. What for? Para malaman na naman ni Xian na hanggang ngayon, siya pa rin ang kahinaan ko?