Against Reason

Gracious Your Form

~ "and i've heard of a love that comes once in a lifetime. and i'm pretty sure you are that love of mine" ~

Vera sits in her old clawfoot tub with lustful eyes, taking in my figure as I undress. And I of course can't take my eyes off of her as she sits there, fully naked. Her slender fingers gracefully tap against the porcelain edge of the tub.

I came over a few hours ago to apologize, one thing led to another, and basically I've lost count of how many orgasms I've had.

"Stop looking at me like that!" I say as I step out of my jeans.

"Like what?" She asks in an innocent tone. I roll my eyes at her and finally get into the tub as well. I situate myself at the other end of the bath tub, resting my legs next to Vera's. It's a small tub so we both have to bend our legs a bit.

She smiles at me with a love drunk look in her eyes.

"Like a horny teenage boy who's never seen tits before."

Vera scoffs and breaks out into laughter. I can't help but smile at the sight of her laughing, and just at this in general. The warm water kisses my cold skin, and the bubbles tickle my shoulders. My hair gets slightly wet and sticks to my breasts. I lean my head back against the tub and look at the ceiling.

"You know I had never kissed a woman.. before you."

"Not even in college?" I ask, shocked.

"Nope. I met Sean my freshman year and just assumed that was it."

What a sad fucking statement.

"You just...knew he was the one?"

"I mean-" she pauses a second to choose the right words. "I knew it was what was expected of me. But if you're asking if I felt the whole earth moving-fireworks-butterflies thing, then no." I look back at her with understanding eyes. "It sounds stupid, but it was a different time. Even in the early 2000s there were still heteronormative standards everywhere, being with a woman never even crossed my mind. My whole family expected me to marry a nice man and pop out a few kids, so that's what I did. And I wasn't ever unhappy, I just assumed the feeling of longing for something...different was normal. I thought all women just, felt nothing when their husbands kissed them, that it was normal to get fed up of being the perfect housewife sometimes."

I feel tears well up in my eyes. No one deserves to live a life of mediocrity because it's what's "expected" of you. To think that this woman has been stuck in this rut for so long is heartbreaking.

"I'm so sorry Vera. If I could've been born sooner and we met sooner I would've smacked that sort of thinking right out of you."

She smiles at me, sweetly.

"I wouldn't take any of it back, this life gave me Elody and Haven. And besides, I think we were fated to meet when we did. Butterfly effect and all that. I had to live through that to meet you..." she holds my hand under the water, squeezing it reassuringly.

I smile at her, tears falling from my eyes and plopping into the warm water. I can't put what I feel for her into words, so I just shift my position and lay my back against her front. She welcomes me with open arms, wrapping them around my shoulders and resting her head on my left shoulder. I love you. So much.

I tilt my head back and turn it towards her so that our lips are mere centimeters apart. She brushes a stray curl away from my face, before lovingly stroking my cheek. I finally bring my lips to hers, kissing her with all the love in the world.

Her soft, plump lips fit so perfectly with mine.

She begins to kiss down my neck and onto my shoulder, making me shudder with pleasure.