Against Reason

Teacher's Pet

~ "kiss me in the d-a-r-k dark tonight" ~

Aria

I read Vera's ominous text and obey her demand, even though it pains me. I go about my evening and make some dinner, and attempt to distract myself with Netflix. I do fold a few times and peek out a window to see if I can see anything. Unfortunately, I couldn't tell anything about the situation from this view. Except for a random car that I hadn't noticed in my earlier glimpses. Is that...fucking Sean's car?

"Oh for fucks sake." I sigh in annoyance and turn my attention back to the TV. She wouldn't take him back, I know that much for sure. What I don't know, however, is the nature of his intentions. Is he going to take the kids? Hurt Vera again? Boot all of them out of the house? Eventually I have to roll a joint and distract myself with some weed before I lose my marbles.

That finally makes my mind slow down enough for me to fall asleep, where I dream about the car sex I had with Vera mere hours ago.

Vera

I sigh in annoyance and roll over in my bed. Needless to say, it's been a sleepless night. The combination of having Sean in the house and not having Aria in my arms makes it impossible to fall asleep. I look over at my nightstand clock, 4:26. That's fucking great. I need to get ready in a few hours, and then I get to deal with shitty teenagers all day. On no sleep.

But, I do have to admit that a tiny weight has been lifted off of my chest. Yesterday afternoon, after I walked in and had the argument with Sean and then cried in my room for a bit, I left the house again and officially filed a petition for a divorce at the court. I had been meaning to do it and my attorneys agree it's time, but for some reason I kept putting it off. I think a part of me hopes that the man I married will make a sudden reappearance? But even if that happened, would I still want him after all the shit he put me through? Regardless of why I was putting it off, having that little conversation yesterday was the push I needed to get it done. It does hurt me, because there was a time in my life when I genuinely did love him, and the realization that I'll never get that back sucks. But deep down I know that this is no way to live, and this decision is for the best. I'm officially no longer cheating on anyone, which is a huge burden lifted. Soon enough, I'll be able to lead a Sean-free live. Whether that involves Aria or not, I'm unsure about.

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My alarm goes off, almost louder than usual today, and I groan out loud. I must've gotten maybe 2 hours of sleep? I feel like my body weighs a thousand pounds. How the hell am I supposed to teach anything in this state?

I grab my phone to turn the alarm off, and it suddenly hits me that Aria never responded to my text. I didn't 100% expect her to, but knowing her I thought she might blow up my phone with questions. I sigh deeply and force myself to get up.

Honestly the tiny sliver of hope for a spring break spent alone with Aria is the only thing getting me through. Just two more weeks.

I finish getting ready and go to wake up the girls, only to find them awake and eating already. And Sean standing in the kitchen with a shit eating grin when she sees me.

"What's going on?" I ask.

"I'm just getting the girls ready for school," he says in a smug voice. All I can do is roll my eyes and grab a granola bar and coffee for me. I check my watch and see that it's about time for me to leave if I want to get to school at a decent time. I walk over to the girls and kiss both of them on the top of their heads.

"Bye mommy!" Elody says after I peck her head. I smile and ruffle her hair. Then I promptly hold my middle finger up behind my back, flipping Sean off. I hear him scoff from behind me before I turn on my heels and stand a foot away from him. He looks down at me with a smug smirk and I furrow my eye brows.