She's In Love With A Geek

Chapter 47 - Making Things Right

COURTNEY'S POV

"What an idiot!" Terry exclaimed after I finished telling her the whole story. She shook her head and sighed. "I can't believe you did that. That was a really foolish decision," Terry concluded, her voice laced with disappointment.

"What?" I stared back at her in disbelief. "But Ter--"

"Oh, please don't give that I don't have a choice excuse, Courtney Collins." She crossed her arms and stared at me, her eyes filled with disappointment and frustration.

I swallowed the words that were about to escape my mouth. She was right, that was my reason.

And I couldn't see any other reason. I felt powerless.

"Since you're smart, what could you have done then?" I crossed my arms and challenged her. There's nothing I could have done differently, I know that. The situation seemed impossible, and I felt helpless. I couldn't come up with another solution no matter how hard I tried.

"Easy. I will tell Chad everything." She answered without hesitation, "I would have been honest with him from the beginning. I would have told him the truth about the situation, even if it was hard."

"Hah!" I laughed sarcastically. "Easy for you to say. If you're in this situation--"

"Oh, trust me, I wish I could take over and prevent you from making the biggest mistake of your life." She drawled in a challenging tone.

I glared at her. "You don't know what I'm going through, what I'm feeling."

Terry raised an eyebrow. "You're right. I don't know what you're going through, because you never told me, or us, anything. You could have told us what was happening before making this stupid decision. Yet, you chose to suffer in silence, without any support from those who care for you."

I avoided her stare, not wanting to see her disappointment. I knew she was right; I had kept everything to myself, and I had not given anyone a chance to help me.

"I was trying to figure out what I could do, but I felt like I had no control, like I could not do anything. I was trying to figure out what was the best course of action. But, it was difficult to decide what to do, because I was confused and overwhelmed." I said in defeat.

I heard Terry sigh and sit beside me.

I was so thankful for her coming on such short notice.

After my conversation with Chad, I felt so helpless, and hopeless. I was so sure that it was for the better, but after he said those words and I watched him walk away, I couldn't help but feel a wave of sadness wash over me. I couldn't help but think that my decision was wrong and I had made a mistake.

I wanted to call him back, I wanted to run after him and try to talk to him, but it was too late.

I was left with nothing but regret and sadness.

My heart ached with regret and I felt like I had messed up.

I knew I needed to talk to someone right away, and I immediately thought of Terry.

I was grateful to have Terry here to listen, but it also highlighted how foolish and stupid my decision had been.

She was right.

It would have been better if I'd told them before making a hasty decision.

"This is so not you, Court. You don't let people walk around you, you take charge and stand your ground. You don't let anyone mess with you." Terry's words reminded me of who I was and what I was capable of.