|And I knew it from the very first moment 'Cause a light came on when I heard that song and I want you to sing it again
I swear the every word you sing, you wrote them for me Like it was a private show but you never saw me When the lights come on and I'm on my own Will you be there to sing it again? Could I be the one you talk about in all your stories Can I be him?
If you were mine I'd never let anyone hurt you I wanna dry those tears, kiss those lips It's all I've been thinking about
Can I be him?|
Can I be him // James Arthur
•×•
Jisoo stared at the paper in her hands deciding if she should chunk it in the trash or tear into pieces and then chunk it in the trash
Before she can decide what to do she hears her door unlock and it's her brother Taehyung holding a similar black envelope with the gold paper inside
"Have you seen this" Taehyung asks and plops on the chair in front of her
"Obviously, mine was personally delivered and I had to look at Suzy like I'm happy she was alive - which I'm not just to make things clear"
"Uh-huh, are you going?"
Jisoo looks at the paper then at her brother and then the picture frame beside her computer, "attending weddings are kinda my thing"
Her brother looked uncharacteristically worried for a moment before sighing and standing up, "Well...at least bring a date"
...
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It was so bland that Jisoo wanted to vomit, she wanted to hurl her guts out because the love of her life is marrying someone - someone that could be her, it should be her
...
Jisoo met Chaeyoung during freshman orientation and she knew instantly the moment the blonde girl walked in with her cute little skirt like a chipmunk lost in the woods and her aussie accent that made heads turn - Jisoo knew in that moment she was completely, utterly in love.
But the moment was never right, or at least that's what she tells herself.
Because freshman year Jisoo has a girlfriend and Sophomore year when she was ready and everything Chaeyoung was in a relationship
There dance continues until Jisoo is the editor in chief of Vogue while Chaeyoung is one of the most sought after fashion designer
It goes for quite some time, until eventually they lost touch and then Chaeyoung comes back with a another woman in tow she introduces as a friend
She didn't quite believe the description so Jisoo made her move, this was it.
She made a handwritten letter to Chaeyoung about meeting her in their old college and that she needs to tell the blonde haired girl something important
Jisoo waited - she waited back in college for the girl to be available then if Chaeyoung was ready then until she finished her studies and until she had a blossoming career and now she's waiting for the same girl
She left the campus around 12am, hands in her pockets - the cold was doing a good job of numbing the pain, she felt stupid for waiting that long but at least now she got her answer
Jisoo swallowed hard as she remembered that memory, she can still feel the scar it left in her heart and the coldness in it's wake
Before she could destroy herself further with destructive thoughts and her phone vibrates
Chipmunk| Outside your office, Taehyung said you were free for lunch
To: Chipmunk| Be there in a sec
And yeah, Jisoo is still a sucker for Park Chaeyoung and that needs to change soon
Lunch with Chaeyoung will always be entertaining, one reason is that the girl still cries when the food served is good
"God, I can't believe you still do that" Jisoo laughs, she permits herself to be happy in this moment
"I didn't change much" Chaeyoung shrugs, back to being composed
"Yeah you did, your hair for one changed" Jisoo points out that the then blonde hair is now silver with violet highlights
"It's cute" Chaeyoung reasons and brushes her hair
"I didn't say it wasn't - it is...beautiful"
The fashion designer cleared her throat, "I need to tell you something..."
Oh no
"...Tae gave the letter to Suzy"
"What letter?" Jisoo tried to play dumb but the girl in front of her gave her a looked that probably meant playing dumb won't work
"I read it late"
Jisoo's heart stopped beating and the rest of her organs shut down, "oh"
"She gave it to me late"
"Oh?" There was a slight increase in anger on her tone
"But not late enough, I choose not to come"
"Oh"
"I'm sorry" Chaeyoung said in a low voice, "I thought you should know"
Jisoo let goes of the breath she didn't know she was holding and looked at Chaeyoung
"Why didn't you tell me? Or at least meet me - I deserved that"
"You deserved more than that and I'm so sorry - I just...Its just - I couldn't"
"I need to know, did you...just once even think of the possibility that we were--"
"-more than once"
"Thanks, I needed that"
Chaeyoung just smiles at her and they continue their lunch, When Chaeyoung was walking her back to the office Jisoo turned to her and asked a question, what Chaeyoung answered gave her some perspective
...
Now Jisoo is standing somewhere within the crowd as the newlyweds Chaeyoung and Suzy dance their first dance as a married couple
There was still that tinge of pain in her heart but she was at peace.
. . .
"Maybe in the next lifetime?" Jisoo asks
"I don't think so"
Wedding vows: written by Chaeyoung to Suzy
I have never known unconditional love until I met you, I love you today, I know I'll love you tomorrow and the days that will follow and I have never been more sure that I will love you until the next life
