Falling

Friendship?

When Saturday rolled around, it was decided that I would leave to Sunshine Valley the next day.

I was still a little bit sick and asked Steve to buy some things on the way from college, but he didn't. When I asked him why, he said it was because he was in a rush to meet me.

We spent one last day together, which I didn't like much because I looked at him and felt nothing. Absolutely nothing.

I was so confused about my feelings for him and for Zack. But I didn't want to hurt Steve, and since I was leaving the next day to back to college, I thought I'd actually meet Zack before I took a decision.

So Steve and I kissed and all that. The one last time stuff. I didn't like them at all. It felt too physical and less emotional for me.
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Later that evening, I spent most of my time with my group of neighbour friends and they took my mind off things. I came back home around 11pm and checked my phone and guess what? Zack was still online. I texted him and asked why he hadn't slept yet to which he replied that he was waiting for me. Ah yes. Saturday night. 'The talk'.

So I called him. He started explaining how he had crushed on me when college reopened in August and how he had told Ashley about it. Apparently, Ashley had been drunk and she had told him about Steve. Then he kept insisting that he tried to see me as a friend after that, but I had a feeling he was lying. Heck, I was in a committed relationship, but that hadn't stopped me from feeling things for Zack.

After all that he had confessed, I just couldn't take it anymore. I had to tell Zack the truth. So I told him, after I had fallen sick, I had started developing feelings for him.

"I can acknowledge that we both have feelings for each other. But I'm in a committed relationship with someone I love and you're not ready for a relationship, so it's not going anywhere." I said.

He said "I understand and that's fine, we can be friends".

Yes we can, can't we?