I wake up at 8 in the morning and it's still kind of chilly here. Ah, the weather in Redwoods during November.
I think, about going for a run and pull on my joggers and a sweatshirt. As I pick up my pace, my mind wanders to Steve, my boyfriend, and I start thinking about us.
It was in early June when he asked me out. I was just getting out of a relationship myself, (my first one actually), so I thought I'd wait for a while with this one. I told him that I needed to think about it.
In July, we went on our first date to a really pretty lakeside. I drove, since I was the one with a license and a car. We met a few more times after that, and although we tried to keep it strictly casual, we started falling for each other.
In August, college reopened for me and I had to leave. I went to his house one last time, we got to second base and I tried to convince him to try long distance with me.
Although I was definitely not expecting it, he said he was willing to try it with me.So I went back to college, this time, with something as strong as love. I spent one and a half months without meeting him. My birthday came and went, he never came to see me. I could understand the restriction from his family so I didn't make a huge issue out of it.
In October, I skipped college for 3 days and went back home to meet him. This was kind of a big deal seeing as it took me an eight hour train ride from Sunshine Valley to reach Redwoods.
We went for a movie (but didn't exactly watch the movie), had lunch together with a couple of friends, went on a drive, went to his place and went for a movie again. Those three days were a blur. We hit a little bit of third base. It was nice and felt good, and I had so much love for him in my heart.
It wasn't as if we didn't have problems. I almost broke up with him on the way home that time. He wasn't being understanding of the efforts I put in to go meet him. Every. Single. Time.
But as usual, he knew exactly what to say to get me back. And so we continued.
In October, after I went back to college, my friends and I went out for Zack's birthday weekend. We had so much fun, and although Ashley was there, she was mostly occupied by her boyfriend. On the way back, I got sick and couldn't even stand in the train. Zack was so helpful, he sat next to me and I put my head on his shoulder.
That following week, I got even more sick and Zack gave me all kinds of attention that Steve didn't. I was able to understand that Steve was far away, but asking how I felt and telling me to take care didn't require too much effort. He still didn't do it. I didn't know then that Zack had feelings for me. I just assumed he was a nice guy by nature.
The trees rustle in the wind and apart from that the only sounds are my shoes hitting the ground. I realise what a mess I've gotten myself into. I realise I'm not even sure if I love Steve anymore and I'm not sure if I love Zack now.
I just know that I need to solve this, because however much I try, my feelings for Zack isn't going to go away.
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Falling
Teen FictionSapphire from Redwoods is happily committed to Steve, her met-at-school boyfriend. But when she moves away to Sunshine Valley for college, long distance isn't all that good as it seems. Especially with Steve. As she struggles to maintain her relati...