She Devil | ✔︎

Fifty-one.

Kenji's POV;

She's beautiful, yes, but dangerous.

I miss her.

I'm not sure why I did what I did, but I expected her to make a big deal out of it, fight me, and beg for me.

She, on the other hand, did not. She hasn't talked to me since then. She's either busy, drunk or with Evelyn.

It's as if the rejection made her even happier than she was before, which is confusing because she seemed to mean what she said to me.

And now she doesn't seem to mind. I know I don't have the right to be enraged, after all, I was the one who kept pushing her away.

And I'm aware of what they say. If you push someone away and they end up preferring to stay far away, they are unlikely to return.

But I keep convincing myself that everything is working out for the best. Her keeping away from me will keep her safe from being hurt or killed.

My entire being yearns for her touch. My life was changed when I fell in love with her. It's no wonder that losing her has had the same effect.

As I exit the torture room and make my way to my office for the final meeting, I try to keep my thoughts straight.

Business has been good, and our cover hasn't changed. Many people have attempted but failed to expose our organization.

With a bullet in their head.

When I walk into the room, Massimo is preparing a stack of documents. He's been irritated by what transpired between Athena and me.

"What are those for?" I say as I take off my coat. "Check it out yourself." He gives me the cold shoulder.

His lack of maturity makes me roll my eyes. He's been my best friend since we were babies, but he prefers a woman he's only known for ten months over me.

"Are you still mad about something unrelated to you?"I admonish him, "yes," he glares at me.

"I miss her as well, okay?" I loved her, and it wasn't an easy thing to do." I take a seat and rub my temples.

Loved.

Liar.

"You think spending time with her kissing her and having fun with her is all there is to it? that was love?" He expresses his dissatisfaction.

"Yeah." I nod, but I'm not sure what he's getting at. He scoffs, shaking his head in incredulity.

"This is what love is all about. missing her now that she's gone." He explains, "I thought this was the bad part?"

"No, the worst thing is forgetting about her. When you are unconcerned about her. If you don't give a damn about anything. The worst is still to come, so savor the grief while you still can." He lets out a sigh.

"Massimo i-" When I try to speak, he stops me with a hand; I've never seen him so mad about a subject, so I bite my tongue.

"I've spent my entire life standing next to you, Fratello, watching you push everyone away and shut yourself up in your gloomy fortress. You, on the other hand, changed when Athena arrived. And it was noticed by everyone, and for the first time in a long time, I had hope that something good might happen. But you are continuously sabotaging wonderful things in your life." All of this is said in a single breath.

Translation: Brother.

He's right.

I always sabotage the good things in my life.

"Go." He points to the door. "Go get your fucking girl, buddy, what are you waiting for?" He exclaims.

"She doesn't want to see me, "I defend. "She does. She didn't speak to you because she wanted you to put forth an effort." He says it, as though that's the most obvious thing in the world.

"When did you start giving love advice?" I make a joke to lighten the mood, but his expression remains serious. "Okay." I sigh and leave to see Athena.

Let's hope she doesn't chop off my dick.