Lovin him always (completed & not edited)

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They came back and told us that they had lost Abel once on the operation table. that now they fixed him up he'd be placed in the incubator and when we were ready we are more than welcome to go see him. 

the nurse came in with a Wheelchair and with Jax's help, I got off the bed and into the chair.

"Can we touch him?" I asked

"Of course just be careful" the nurse says

"Or course," Jax says as he follows us out of the room to the little room they have our son.

When the two of us seen him we both cried.

The nurse and the person in the room left giving us time with our son.

I sniffled and wiped my eyes before I carefully stood with Jax's help then we both walked around to where the circular doors were.

I opened one as Jax closed his eyes pinching the bridge of his nose.

I carefully reached into the door and softly touched Abel.

"Hi, baby boy."I greeted softly as I watched him.

"It's mommy. I want to tell you that I'm in love with you so much and so is your daddy. we are right here with you and we will be by your side through everything. thank you so much for coming back to us and not leaving us broken hearted. you are our precious miracle and we cant wait to see you grow and hold you. but for now, we will just touch you softly and tell you just how much we love you." I say to him as I brush my fingertips along his little body.

He opens his little hand and I place my index finger on his little palm watching him close his hand.

I smiled as I looked at Jax and wrap my arm around him.

"Wanna say hi daddy?" I asked

He nodded his head as he carefully reached in and brushed his fingers along Abel's hand 

"Hi, bud it's daddy. mommy is right, we will be here with you by your side as you grow and get strong. then when you get out of the hot box we will show you so much love you'll hate us." Jax says

"We are so grateful that you didn't leave us that you fought and came back so we could have you our beautiful miracle" he added

I laid my head on his shoulder as Abel let my finger go and held Jax's as I brushed my finger along his little leg watching him as he held his daddy's finger.

After we spent a long time with Abel we bid him goodnight and headed back to the room where we both cried and held each other.

It was a couple days later that the reasled me. and from that pint I've been in that room reading,talking and just telling Abel stories of me, his dad, his gran and gramp. told him about Tommy and JT. 

Which was when Jax showed up

"telling him about Dad?" he asked as he sat in the chair I just vacated before sitting back down.

"I am. cause he's gonna know about his wonderful grandpa that he'll never meet but Im positive is looking over him along with his uncle and other gram" I replied as I laid back as Jax wrapped his arms around me as we told so many funny stories about us together, stories about Tommy, JT. Gemma.

"Oh. your here" 

We looked up seeing Tara.

"As appose to where else would we be other than with our son?" I asked

"wait your son?" she asked

"yea" I replied

"I thought this was a lady named Wendy's kid that Jax screwed," she says

I stand up out of Jax's arms and get in her face.

"And with that stupid thought in your head, you figured he'd be single and needing a shoulder to cry on so you'd off yours. well here's the four one one for you. I birthed Abel, I am married to Jackson. you'll never have him ever. that whole bullshit of Wendy and him fucking is horseshit. Now get out of this room and never ever come back in here or I'll go have your job" I tell her

she looked over at Jax like he'd do something.

"He won't do anything to me. so stop looking at him like he'd do something to me or say something and get Out" I say

she sighed and walked out the door while I walked back over and placed my hands on top of the incubator.

"Sorry baby boy you had to hear mommy use foul language and tell that chick off" I apologized to my son

I heard Jax stand up before he walked up behind me and slipped his hands around my waist and nuzzled his head in my neck.

"she never learns," I say

" Apprently not." he says

I turned in his arms and had him look at me.

"she'll come back around wanting something from you Jackson and I want you to tell her no," I say

 "Why would I help her. she's nothing to me?" he asked

"I don't know I'm just mentioning it cause I know that she's gonna try to get you. wheather it is in your pants, your help both or in general" I replied

"won't happen" he says

"good" I replied then kissed him before we looked back at our boy.

"Come on visitation time is over," Jax says taking my hand

"Bye baby boy see you tomorrow," I tell Abel 

"Bye Bud," Jax says as we walked out

I looked back at him before we walked by the nurse station.

I stopped briefly and told them Dr. Knowles is to no longer be around mine and my husband's son. before we fully left.