🖤Dark Society🖤 (YiZhan*ZhanYi) (Completed)

Welcome Back

I fall down at the door and cover my ears, trying to not hear him but... those begs and cries pierces my heart. his words "I hate you" how differently it sounds now, how much pain it carries, before he truly meant it but... Zhan, my silly gege, how foolish of you, how could you give your heart to me? your precious heart. I bring fingers to my lips and slowly caress them, still not believing he truly kissed me, Zhan... it didn't taste like smoke anymore, but tears no? why? why even our first kiss was filled with pain and sorrow...

during last days, after you left I was mourning for Huai Sang and longing for you. I was scared and heartbroken by loneliness, I couldn't part illusions from reality, that night...those blurry memories of soft touches, words, sweetness on my lips, your tears pouring on my face, I thought it was all dream, only real scars on my legs made me realize... it truly happened.

something, that I could never imagine to be true, love? after meeting you I tried my best to avoid, to run away from it. and you?... you fell in love with me? if both... hate and love makes us to cry, then I wish you don't love me Zhan, this way our separation gonna be easier. Like before... I wish we're connected by hate more. your cute pout of disappointment, thinking I forgot your confession and that bittersweet sparkle in your eyes after finding out I remember, hope someday... I have chance and right too, to say it aloud, to confess to you Zhan

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hearing car sound, I move curtain a bit and steal last glance at Zhan, the moment he leaves with Yang Zi I breath out and enter my room again. standing in front of the huge mirror I take my clothes off and scan every inch of my body. behind of these fancy, silky materials...how many scars are hidden, every one of them... I can remember the causes, protecting someone from bullies, getting bad grades, fighting with my classmates, refusing to beat someone up, good or bad behavior, it did never mattered, as long as it was unacceptable for him. it's enough, I'm very tired, I don't want to be his slave anymore, if someone pure like Zhan thinks I'm worth to be loved, then let it be, I'm going to believe

I tighten fists and move closer, leaning my forehead at the glass, I deeply stare into my eyes and try to erase or hide again, feelings... all emotions...softness slowly disappears, only emptiness remains there and my whole heart and mind fills with hate and despise. my lips forms evil grin and I whisper "welcome back young master Wang, good luck in your revenge"

*****

after fixing my tie, I enter huge, fancy designed hall and try to hide my annoyance. special party-meeting for shareholders, caused by Huai Sang's family bankruptcy. at moments like this everyone becomes like vulture, doing their best to grab other's property as much as it's possible. These nice looking people, carrying ugly souls, born to dirty this world. Politely greeting everyone on the way I walk towards my parents and future parent in laws, Yang Zi who is wearing long elegant dress, slightly nods to me when our eyes meets and I smile widely, bowing to them.

"Mr Yang, ms yang nice to meet you, it's been while"

"my future son in law looks too handsome as always, having this looks and innate elegance, think you can become great politician like your father" 

"don't say this please, I can never be such a humble patriot and righteous person as him" 

"such a shy boy" he pats my shoulder and turns to my dad "I heard you're preparing for grand political action after winning last election as celebration"

"right, with all my dear supporters" he makes such a pure, sweet expression and I feel like puking. we'll see dad... if you'll be able to fulfill your plan