🖤Dark Society🖤 (YiZhan*ZhanYi) (Completed)

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I added 🔞 not cause of smut but quite unpleasant content

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I'm standing in front of her and my whole body trembles, this moment was truly something I feared to even think about, what should I do now? what should I tell to her? how to explain? like only remaining pure thing in my life was Yang Zi until now, I don't want her to be dirtied like me, far, she has to be far from me.

"So... why did you come?" I ask again and she awakes from the daze

"I was going to talk to Yibo, about our so called engagement. It's bothering me, felt like I had no right anymore to contact or meet you but..." She stops and eyes us "seems like I was the only one feeling like this, you two... what are you? I mean..."

"Let's talk outside, alone" I hold her hand and look back before leaving, Yibo stays quiet, just tightens his fist and removes stare from our entwined fingers.

we sit in the garden facing each-other and both hesitate to say something, Yang Zi nervously rubs her fingers and i feel so sorry, during those years we're together it was never hard to find talking subject, although we had nothing common, our life was totally different still we could understand each-other so well. but now... I feel so hurt for our ruined relationship

"Zhan" at the end she lowly says and looks at me "don't gonna lie, I have too much conclusions, doubts running in my mind, all of them seems totally nonsense but... sure i knew it was something wrong with you since that day you cried in my arms, I waited patiently for you to open and share your worries but... guess too much things changed and most importantly it's you. I won't believe any of them until you say it yourself, I'll just listen to you cause I know you never lie, at least you can't lie to me" yes right and this is the worst part, how am I going to explain without lying? if I tell the all truth she is going to feel too sorry for me, try to protect and keep me apart from Yibo, but what she can do? someone totally naive and innocent for this world, she will be dragged in like me and I can't let this to happen

"I'm sleeping with him" I know she thought about this possibility but hearing from me causes too strong pain and disappointment, Yang Zi turns her face away and breaths out to stop her trembling chin, please don't, please don't cry "it's been quite long time since we're having this kind of relationship" 

"no, it's impossible. you couldn't treat me like this"

"still, I did"

"I can... I can understand if you explain, I know it couldn't happen without reason, you couldn't... just cheat on me, I know you very well, was you forced? did someone threaten you?"

"you don't well enough Yang Zi, no one does"

"Zhan"

"I know you value yourself and please don't change cause of someone like me. I don't deserve..."

"then, what am I supposed to do? this is too sudden, I can't even... breath properly, tell me just let you to go? just erase everything like this? you know how much I love you, I really do, I can forgive if you still..." she leans closer and cups my face, unable to handle her teary eyes I lower my stare "no, look at me, you told me before it was impossible for you to have sex with someone you don't have feelings for, did you change or... what Yibo means for you?" isn't this what I'm asking myself too? "you just hesitated, this means much" she moves back again and painfully smiles

"it's totally different, from what I feel for you, Yang Zi I can't explain it but..."

"Different or not, you still feel. but... I wonder which is real one? the look in your eyes changed too, it was always carrying sadness but not this much, sorry if I was too late to notice it and help you" the more good she is, the more my heart hurts for her, the more she cries the more I want to kill him and myself too. Yang Zi did nothing wrong, yet she has to suffer like us