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Earth: no ... I don't want him to know about this child ...
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Earth's mother sad, seeing the sadness in her son's eyes.
Mother: why my son ?! He is the father of this child! He deserves to know about this child!
Earth got up angrily and looked at the two who were sitting on the couch.
Earth: he lost this right when he betrayed on me with that woman ... He stopped being the father of this child from the moment I saw him lying on that bed naked and grabbing her ... Earth Crying ... My baby has no father.... I will raise and be the only father of this baby ...
Sad Fluke, he understood Earth but what Earth was doing is not right.
Fluke:. N'Earth! Are you sure this is what you want ?! He is the father of this baby ... You cannot deprive this right of p'kao! ... I know what he did is unforgivable, but now the situation has changed! You have a child growing up inside you, and the father didn't deny this baby, like p'Ohm did to me ... Did you ever think when he found out about this child?! What is he going to do! Instead of him wanting your forgiveness, he will not forgive you for hiding this child from him ...
Earth heard everything Fluke said, but he didn't want to know he didn't want Kao to know about his son, he wanted to give this punishment to Kao for having betrayed him.
Earth: I know what he can do when he finds out about my baby! But I don't want to know ... Maybe he doesn't really want this child, he likes the free life he has ... I'm just doing him a favor ... This child is mine alone ... And it's over this conversation I'll rest, I'm tired.
Earth's mother stood up and called Earth's name out loud.
Mother: Earth ... Earth my son ... Listen ...
Earth entered the bedroom and closed the door, tilted his head back, touched his head on the door and thought, thought of Kao, thought of the child he was waiting for and thought of what he will do going forward. After thinking Earth left the door and sat on the bed, touched the belly with both hands and said with a loving and affectionate look for the child he is carrying in his belly.
Earth: I can almost see this dream that I'm dreaming, which is to have you in my arms ... Every step I'm going to take, every move I'm going to make, seems lost without direction ... But I ... I - I have to keep trying, I have to keep my head up ... there will always be another mountain, and I will always want to remove it, there will always be an uphill battle taking care of you ... sometimes I will have to lose to you...the struggles that I will face, the opportunities that I may not be able to have, sometimes they can bring me down, but I won't fall... I don't know anything, I'm new to this, but this moment that I am having, and that I will have until the nine months are over, are the moments that I will remember the most ... I just have to continue, and I, I have to be strong, I will continue to pursue this path that I chose... Your father will never know about you ... I know that when you grow up you will judge me for what I am doing ...But this is for your good ... You don't deserve him as your father .... From now on I will be your only father ... Did you hear me my love ?!
Earth was talking to the baby inside the belly, being very happy to have a piece of life inside, the phone rings, Earth saw the name and answered it.
Earth: Hello N'newyear!
Newyear with a smile.
Newyear: hello p'Earth! How are you and p'Fluke ?!
Earth: we're fine! And you?!
Newyear: I'm fine! I miss you so much!
Earth a little sad remembered that Newyear was still in Bangkok, he said sadly, not wanting but wanting to know about Kao.
Earth: and how are you there in Bangkok ?!
Sad Newyear noticed that Earth wanted to know about Kao.
Newyear: you want to know about p'kao, don't you ?!
Earth did not answer this question, he remained silent.
Newyear: I haven't seen him for a week ... When you went there two days later p'kao came to me ... He didn't know you left ... But don't worry, I didn't say anything to him, where are you.
Earth without wasting time, sad but said anyway.
Earth: I'm expecting a child from him ...
Newyear stopped for a second, was unresponsive when he heard this news coming from Earth's mouth, after a second, Newyear confused, shouted loudly.
Newyear: what! What are you?! What ?! You! ... You were born with ...
Earth: yes! I was born with this capacity ... I have been pregnant for a month ... I discovered this today ..
Newyear worrying about Earth.
Newyear: and what are you going to do ?! Are you going to tell him ?!
Earth: no ...I don't want him to know about this child ...
Newyear: why ! why don't you want him to know ?! ...
Earth: because I can't forgive him .... He hurt me a lot, I can't raise this baby next to him, after what he did to me ... And also because I hate him ... I hate him so much that I want to crush the his face ... I can't even look at him, how can I raise a child with him? ...
Newyear saddened by Earth's situation, he said telling his life story.
Newyear: I grew up without my father .... Because my mother hated him to the point of not letting him love me .... One day your son or daughter will look for his father ...And you won't be able do nothing against it ... Sooner or later you will have to face p'kao ... And I am sure he will not forgive you so easily, after hiding that he was a father ... Or rather that he is the father of this child ....
Earth was silent but then said.
Earth: when my son wants to know about his father I will tell him who his father is ... I will not hide it from my son ... And if he wants to meet with his father, I will not stop ... But I will never want to look at his face again... And when he finds out he was a father, I won't care if he will hate me or not forgive me ... Because whoever will never forgive him will be me ...
Newyear was unable to say anything when he heard this from Earth, he has been Earth's friend since childhood and knew that Earth is a difficult young man to forgive.
Newyear: I can't say anything against this! If this is your decision! So I just have to support you!
Earth smiled sadly but a little happy to know that his friend supports him.
Earth: hmnm! Thank you so much N'newyear for understanding me, and staying by my side .... Please don't say anything about this child in p'kao ...
Newyear: hmm ... Don't worry! I will not say anything ... Tomorrow I will travel to the United States! ..
Earth: I'm happy for you ... Take care ...
Newyear: I always took care of myself ... Although I like to have sex, and I have fun I always took care of myself, unlike you and p'Fluke, who didn't take care of themselves and ended up pregnant with the two men you both love ...
Earth smiled and was a little angry.
Earth: shut up! I'm going to sleep ... You talk a lot .... Goodbye ... Earth hung up the phone.
Earth got out of bed and went to the window, looked out the window touched the window with one hand and thought of Kao.
Kao was in bed, he did everything to try to find Earth but he couldn't find any information where Earth went, sad and thinking about the young man he loves so much.
Earth was thinking at the same time as Kao, Kao lying on the bed and Earth with both hands at the window.
Kao thought (my love, why did you leave? Only heaven knows where you are now .... how I love, how I love again? Tell me how I should breathe without air ... If I die before I wake up, it's because you took all my breath away ... Losing you is like living in a world without air ... My heart doesn't move ... It's incomplete without you .... I wish there was a way to make you understand what happened really .... how do you expect me to live in a world alone without you ... My world revolves around you, it's so hard for me to breathe ... that's how I feel when you're not here .. tell me how you will be without me ... I walked, I ran, I jumped ... looking for you ... I didn't have a chance to say one last goodbye ... I have to move on, but it hurts to try ... I will miss you like a child does from your blanket ... I hope you know I always loved you ...)
Earth thinking (why ?! Why did you do this to me ?! I'm too young to be so hurt ... I feel trapped in this bedroom, staring at these walls without blinking ... counting the wounds and I'm trying not to feel all of them ... Do you mind?! I gave my all, my purposes, my sweat, my heart, my love .... Why didn't you care about all that I gave you in the days we were together? Why did you have to betray me?! ... You had the courage to destroy my love .... Why did you trick me into saying you love me?! I should never, ever, have trusted you .. I wish I had asked you that question that day ... Why weren't you who you swore you would be ?! I stay up all night, I tell myself I'm fine ... But somehow I'm alive for inside, you took my breath away, but I will survive ..... how do I trust, how do I trust again ?! .... I have to move on, but it hurts to try ... but I have to move on my life....The time has come for me to grow up and raise this baby .... Only myself and our son ... The path I'm on I must follow alone now ... This love is slowly killing me .... I needed lost you to find me, I had to hate you to love me .... So don't judge me for what I'm doing now ... I'll raise our son alone, I'll be fine .... I predict darkness if I stay with you ...!)
Earth started to cry every time he spoke and said these painful words, Earth left the window, lay on the bed and slept, Kao on the bed closed his eyes, while a tear came out of his eyes.
Eight months and three weeks passed.
Fluke was in the bedroom, preparing the baby's suitcase, which he would take to the hospital to have the babies, he happily looked at the door that was opened by Earth, Fluke said worriedly.
Fluke: watch your belly! You have to rest! You still have a week to have the baby ...
Earth with a happy smile, approached fluke and looked at the twins' clothes that Fluke would give birth to, he said taking a piece of clothing.
Earth: what a cute outfit! ... It's so beautiful! ... I can't wait to have my daughter ...
Fluke said as he smiled and remembered the ultrasound scan of Earth's fourth month of pregnancy.
Fluke: hahaha ... I'm remembering the day you found out you were going to have a girl! You almost jumped out of bed with so much happiness ....
Earth: hahaha! I always wanted a sister! My mother never gave me one .... After my father died, my mother didn't have a relationship with anyone else! .... You were happy too! .... You will have more nor less than two girls... I must congratulate you ... So naive and so pure ... But that in bed was a naughty boy ...
Fluke smiled and got angry, slapped Earth on the head slowly with a piece of clothing and said shy and embarrassed.
Fluke: I am not naughty ... p'ohm is the one ! ....
Fluke was sad when he remembered Ohm, Earth saw that Fluke was sad and said sad also when thinking about Kao.
Earth: do you miss him ?!
Fluke looked at Earth with a sad look.
Fluke: yes I miss him a lot ... But unfortunately he doesn't ... And you ?! Do you miss p'kao ?!
Earth did not want to answer this question because it was obvious that he missed Kao, he said.
Earth: sometimes it's hard not to think about it ... There are scars that don't heal and that I can't reverse, the more it heals the more it hurts ... That means I'm trying to forget about it, and little by little I might succeed ...
Fluke noticed the enormous sadness inside Earth's heart but he couldn't do anything, Fluke said, finishing packing the babies' bags.
Fluke: Maa! Let's stop thinking about sad things, and let's think about those that make us happy! I have to go to the hospital now, because I'm going to be hospitalized for an operation tomorrow ... As you know, we men are not born like the women ... We are operated on to have babies ...
Earth confused trying to see, how they end up being pregnant, if they don't have a female reproductive organ and that the place they have sex is not exactly a female reproductive organ.
Earth: am I still trying to understand why we got pregnant ?! With this capacity!
Fluke did a lot of research on what some men have, which is getting pregnant, fluke said.
Fluke: something happened a long time ago, but nobody knows how it happened ... We just know that we got pregnant ... Our uterus is turned towards our anus, and the women's towards the vagina ... But unfortunately the place where children should be born, it is very small and cramped, so we have to do a cesarean section ...
Earth understood everything perfectly, said Earth impressed with fluke's intelligence.
Earth: amazing how smart you are! ... You studied a lot about it ....
Fluke with a smile.
Fluke: hmnmnm ... From the day my parents told me I was born this way ... I started researching ... Now let's go it's too late ... I don't want to feel pain or have my daughters here .. ..
Earth and fluke went to the hospital, they didn't go with Earth's mother, Earth and Fluke wanted to live alone, just the two of them they didn't want either Ohm or Kao to find them.
Fluke was taken to the operating room the next day, Earth was waiting for news if the twins were born or not, he was with Kimmom, Earth looked and said at Kimmom with a smile.
Earth: you didn't have to come ... 'We can both take care of each other very well!
Worried Kimmom said as he touched Earth's face and then Earth's big belly.
Kimmom: how am I not coming! I know that you and Fluke know how to take care of yourself ... You and N'fluke have babies inside you ... And it's already been the last days! It is dangerous to leave you alone ...
Earth smiled when he saw Kimmom's concern, after that day when Earth discovered he was pregnant Kimmom called and sent several messages on Earth, he and Earth became great friends, but Kimmom besides being a friend he liked Earth more than than a simple friend, but he never told Earth because he didn't want to ruin the friendship.
Fluke had the twins, Earth went to the hospital room.