WARNING VERY DRESSED MICHEAL
INCLUDING: ACHOLE, SUICIDAL THOUGHTS AND DEATH
YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED!!!
Nobody's PoV:
Micheal was frozen he was starting at the corpse that once belonged to a very dear friend of his. Someone he considered, his best friend no more than that his brother.
"DEVIN!" Micheal broke down in sobs and pleads. "IM SORRY PLEASE COME BACK PLEASE! IM SO SO SORRY!" The tears from Micheal's eyes wouldn't stop. He crawled over to the lifeless body or so he thought it was lifeless. As soon as was in Devon realised who was holding him, Devin let it a chuckle and gently place a hand on Micheal's cheek.
"H-hey Micheal..." Devin's voice was quite drained of any energy he might have had once before. "Y-you did your best and I'll be waiting for you on the other side." Devin gave Micheal a soft smile before he continued "l-live a long and happy life-" Devin was interrupted by a coughing fit he took a couple of deep breaths
"W-we...I-I! C-can still save you!" Micheal desperately gripped onto Devin's hand squeezing it not wanting this reality to be the truth. Hoping, praying he would wake up and this would all be some terrible dream.
"M-Micheal... my t-time is u-up... e-enjoy life and d-don't be a-afraid to a-ask for help..."
Devin made a necklace. It had a make shift ruby by that ruby was changing colours.
"P-put I-it on." Devin muttered. "It's m-my apology gift for l-leaving you so-so soon." Devin chuckled and smiled one last time before managing to mumble out louder enough for Micheal to ear over his own sobbing.
"I-I love y-you brother..." Devin's took his last breath. Tears escaping his eyes at the last second.
Micheal entire world stopped as demons surrounded him and his now fall comrade. Micheal simply ignored them he continued to cry heavily on the still chest of his deiced brother he only words he spoke were 'I'm sorry I failed you' over and over and over again.
The demons were closing in and then he hear that voice. The voice that cause all of this the voice that caused his brother to perish.
A voice...
that no longer
belonged in the realm of the living.
The Demon king stood before him looking down on them. Insulting his now dead brother. Calling him weak. Mocking him.
Micheal didn't need his god slaying powers to kill this monster.
Micheal raised his head off of Devine chest and lifted his hand up.
"How dare you talk shit about someone who isn't alive to defend themselves." And with that Micheal began chocking the fake Ritchie out.
"Your a coward."
He threw the doppelgänger into the wall of a building. We're there civilians in the buildings? stuck in the wreckage? Who knows?
Who cares?
Micheal? No. He doesn't care. He doesn't feel anything. He just wants the person who caused this to die and by his hands by his actions. He wants to be able to look back and think. I did that. Not my god. Not someone who brainwashed me. I did that.
Micheal then opened a rift to the shadow realm.
"I'll let you live though hell. Try not to suicide while your in there." He smiled.
"I want to kill you my self." Micheal opened this hand dropping the copycat into the rift.
He'll be seeing him very very soon.
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A week has passed since that awful day. Micheal hasn't spoke a word since.He hasn't felt an emotion since. He was broken as the others put it. At least on the outside. On the inside he wanted nothing more then to join his brother. He wanted nothing more then to join Devin. He wanted nothing more then death. But he was a coward. To much of a chicken to take his own life. To afraid of the unknown.
Micheal was currently in his room. Starring at his window. The other guilds were acting as though nothing happened. Well three of the four guilds were. Divinus Mania wasn't though. They never did when something like this happened. Micheal couldn't help but let small short laughing fits escape his mouth.
'How is it the guild that used to be criminals have more sympathy then the others?'
'How is it he most human guild is the guild that has members how have murdered people?'
The realisation then hit Micheal.
'They've seen both sides to each story... that's how...'
'They've seen the light and the dark. The good and the bad. The rights and the wrongs. The dos and do nots.'
He wanted nothing more then to cry to get ride of this pain. The only thing that's worked so far is... Well... The bloody razor blazes in the bathroom. It was he only way he could feel. The only way he can think properly. The only way the voices stopped.
So he continued. He continued to drink and cut his problems out of his life.
'Why feel anything if your just gonna end up in pain? Again.'
Little did Micheal know a particular worried lightning mate came to check up on him. And say the destress the god slayer was in.
Ritchie's PoV:
I rushed over to Micheal. His couldn't breath, his eyes were filled with tears and the bags under his eye were heavier then ever before and the way he was before its self was already a huge concern to Ritchie... But Micheal eyes...Jesus... There isn't a word that can describe them. They were cold... dead... there was only darkness and despair in them. They were darting around the room as if they were desperately searching for something. Anything. He body was shacking as much as the ground does in an earthquake.
Micheal did always have terrible panic attacks but this one this one was the worst.
I head him in my arms and rubbed circles on his back. His head was on the crock of my neck while his legs were curled up in a ball on top of my own. Making his hole body struggle to stay in that position. I tried to calm him down the best I could but the position we were in made that impossible.
I then picked him up and lied him down on his bed. I know it's not a good or ideal thing to love someone having a panic attack but I didn't really have a choice.
I moved his body to where his head was still resting my neck and his body was on top of my own clinging into to it. I allowed him to cry into my neck while I softly whispered quite reassuring words to Micheal.
After a long time I noticed the desperate clinging turned into snuggling and he cuddled into my neck pulling himself even closer to me. I looked at him and noticed the same peaceful look on his face as he always does when his asleep in my arms. I don't know how long I just watched him peacefully sleep next to me while I brush my hand though his hair all I know is after a while I started to grow tired and fell fast asleep as well.
Nobody's PoV:
The next two days Micheal has been able to have full days without panic attacks. Every thing was going fine. He was walking around Atlantid not really paying attention to anything or anyone. Precisely why he accidentally walked into someone. Micheal apologised and that was supposed be the end of that. But no. This stranger just had to be annoying.
"Excuse you. What do you think your doing?" The tall brunette asked as she towered over Micheal in obvious attempt to intimidate him.
'Does this bitch not know who he is?'
Micheal apologised once more before going and the ignorant woman.
The lady grabbed him by the arm and started to shout at him.
This continued for twenty minutes and Micheal has ran out of patience. He slapped the lady and screamed at her back "LOOK IN SORRY THAT YOUR FAT ASS WAS IN THE FUCKING WAY. MAYBE INSTEAD OF BEING A BITCH YOU CAN MOVE THE LARGE EGO OF YOURS OUT OF THE FUCKIN' WAY AND MOVE ON WITH YOUR DRUMB LIFE!"
He turned around and walked way. He normally wouldn't be made in-fact he would have laughed at her and walked off but with the lost of his brother being only a month ago and his emotions running while. He's not dealing with that kind of person right now. He can't deal with this kind of person right now.
Micheal felt his breathing picking up pace and his hands start to shake.
'Damn it all that screaming from that cunt triggered his panic attacks and his was one bad Micheal could feel it. Then he remember what Ritchie told him that one night.
~~~~~~flash back~~~~~~~
"Remember Micheal if you are ever having a panic attack or just want to talk to me I'll be there for you."
"Thank you Ritchie..."
~~~~~~~end of flash back ~~~~~~
Micheal immediately shadow traveled to Dinius Mania hoping Ritchie would be there and just Ritchie.
Luck was on Micheal's side today because as he entered the office. Ritchie was indeed alone and was immediately by Michael's side.
Michael's PoV:
Ritchie pulled me into his lap and started to calm me down. As usual his touch and voice was all I need so in about five minutes I calmed down again.
"I'm sorry..." I mumbled wiping the continous tears of my face.
Ritchie placed a hand under my chin and forced me to look at him.
"why are you sorry?" He asks me and smiles "you have nothing to be sorry for." My face heats up at that.
"I-I just interrupted your work for something so pathetic..." I asked cocking down a sob.
"Don't be silly, you'd never interrupt me." Hand cups my face as my eyes widened with shock and my face bushes darker and darker by the second. "I told you to come to me if you when you had another panic attack and I'm so glad you did." He smiles at me once more and this time I couldn't help but smile back at least a little bit. "I'm such a fucking child. Nothing but a weak cry baby." I say my tears returning again.
"No. your not." Ritchies holds me tightly and says "Your not a cry baby. It's okay it be upset. it's okay to want to cry. it's okay to feel sad and scared."
He whipped my tears with his finger.
"R-really?" I ask.
"Yes Micheal. Your hurt and upset by the loss of Devin. That's okay. You were both really close and you have every right to mourn over him." He tell me hugging me closer.
'This is why I love.'
'This is why I fell for him.'
I couldn't help but stare at his lips. I want to kiss them so badly but I don't think he'd be okay with that.
I must have been staring for to long as Ritchie caught on and chuckled at me.
"You want a kiss?" He whispered in my ear.
I can't barely feel my face it's that hot right now gosh I just look like a blushing mess.
I don't respond instead I hesitantly look away. Before I knew it he had leaned in and kissed my gently on the check. I looked at him in surprise. I tried to speak but all that came out was flustered stuttering and confused noises. He laughed a little at this and then kissed my nose. Even more flustered and confused I ask "w-why?"
He knew exactly what I meant.
"Because I love you Micheal always will."
I started to tear up again.
"B-But you have a son!?" I cry out. My heart... I've never felt this much pain before no mount of cutting or drinking made this much pain and... I... I think I liked it? I... I'm not sure... Not sure at all...
"Flurries moved on with her life and found someone else to love..." Ritchie looked back at me with those big caring blue eyes of his and stays "I have as well..." He moves closer to me connecting our heads. He closes his eyes and says softly "may I?"
"Y-Yeah..." I stutter our quietly.
The kiss didn't last to long but so much love was poured into it that neither of us cared for the length.
"I love you Micheal."
"I-I love you too."
"Do you want to stay the night or do you want me I walk you home?" Ritchie asks me.
"N-night?" I ask turning to the window and see the pitch black sky only to be light up by the stars and he moon. "Time sure flys by huh?" I say as Ritchie chuckles.
"Yeah it sure does."
"C-can i... s-stay with you..." I ask looking away from him to embarrassed to keep eye contact.
"Yeah of course."
"Thank yo-!" I was cut off by Ritchie picking me up and blinking over to the bed.
I laughed a little "Really couldn't walk?"
"Nah." He smirk. "You know we've only been dating for about ten minutes and we're already sleeping in the same bed as each other. I wonder how long till I can do more fun stuff with you in bed?~" he purred in my ear. I turned around and slapped him making him out me down and laugh in response.
"Okay I deserve that. I'm sorry." I admitted hugging me from behind.
"Yeah you better be sorry. Or you can say hello to your double in the shadow realm for me." I say.
"I see someone's getting there confidence back." He says cheerfully.
"Heh... thanks..." I say blushing.
Ritchie then pulls me into the bed and cuddles me. I end up falling asleep in Ritchies strong protective arms. I haven't had that good of a sleep in a long time.