Okay.. I think I've made a mistake. Michael and I have not been anywhere near each other later my and.. Well. Michael's very upset since that night. He tries every night to get me to settle his 'problem' and I just used LaToya's advice each time. Michael comes home and settles down for a while, then he can't keep his eyes off of me once I'm in sight and then he reacts after a while. I just basically win every time and this is hell for him. Every time I do my thing, he groans lowly but each night it gets louder.. It sort of resembles his moans but with more annoyance than pleasure. Michael gives my the same look all the time before he gets up. Lustful, wanting and pleading eyes. Michael was in distress and I knew it. Every night went like this for about a week.. Then Saturday came..
Michael had just came home from work and I did my usual. I was in the kitchen and then he came in there with me. Michael stood against the side of the doorway and crossed his arms as he looked at me.. Most likely fantasizing about me. I saw what he was feeling right away and I tried not to make any movements that would make him forget everything and pounce on me. Michael kept looking at me and he gave me a new look tonight.. It was.. Determination, domination and lustful.... I know this look anywhere. Ain't no way in hell that I can escape him tonight.
Suesie: Hello sweetheart. Did you have a good day at work today?
Michael slightly nodded. He never speaks to me anymore.. Not even good morning, goodnight or I Love You. If he does, I never hear him. Michael kept his stare and it was starting to get to me.
Suesie: A-are you hungry?
I took a while for Michael to nod again because he was thinking. Then he shook his head. I was confused.
Suesie: What do you mean? Did you lose your appetite already?
Michael shook his head No and now I was truly confused.
Suesie: Okay.. Then let me make you something to eat. The food just got done.
Michael shook his head again and I crossed my arms.
Suesie: Michael.. What do you want to eat?
Michael tilted his head towards the food and then shook his head.
Suesie: You're hungry.. But not for what I made?
Michael nodded.
Suesie: Well.. What do you want?
I said, starting to look through the refrigerator. Michael came up from behind me and placed his hand on my hand. I looked at him and saw the same look as earlier.. It scared me. How could this have occurred so soon? I shrugged and stood up straight frustrated. I crossed my arms and glared at him.
Suesie: Look Michael, I have been slaving over that stove and I can get that you're not hungry for what I made but now you refuse to speak to me? How childish are you? If you want something, say it! Otherwise, get it yourself!
I was so mad. I slammed the refrigerator door shut and tried storm away. Michael grabbed me by my arms and turned me around. Michael looked at me and his eyes were so loud.. His eyes screamed what I knew what was coming next. They said, 'I'm going to kiss you.. Don't scream, fight or anything afterwards.' But that wasn't good enough for me. I tried to yank myself away from him but he held me firmly.
Suesie: What, what? What do you want from me? SPEAK!
Michael: You.
Suesie: You have me. See this ring?
Michael shook his head.
Michael: That's not enough..
Suesie: Well what is?
Michael: You.. I want you..
Suesie: No.. Not in the way you want me. Now let me go.
Michael pulled me close and let his hands wander lower and grab a hold of my butt.. I was a little too close for my liking because I could feel his problem.. Michael bit his bottom lip and closed his eyes. He squeezed my butt and I jumped a little. Michael looked at me with his slowly opening eyes. He started to rub my arms and try to unzip my pants. I grabbed his hand and he was getting impatient with me and my actions.
Suesie: Michael, wait. Wait!
Michael: What?
Suesie: We can't.. Not down here. This is the kitchen!
Michael leaned in close to my ear and started speaking in that low tone of voice that I love..
Michael: I'll have you on the living room floor in ten seconds.
Suesie: Michael.. Now, come on Michael. Don't do this. I've already said no.
Michael: But you body is saying otherwise and I know it.
Suesie: No that's just you.
Michael: You wanna bet? Alright. Let's play a game. If I make you moan first, you have to be mine for a whole week.
Suesie: Michael, no. I don't care what you say, I'm not doing it. I'm not having sex, I'm not making love and I damn sho' ain't letting you take control of me and do what you did to me in the bathroom..
Michael let his voice get all raspy and it sent chills all over my body.
Michael: But it was so wonderful. You were just screaming until you couldn't scream anymore. You were moaning like a ghost and your face was perfect.
Suesie: Need I remind you that you almost killed me and that I was para-.
Michael shushed me and put a finger on my lips. I looked at him like he was crazy and he wasn't buying.. But this time, it was real.
Suesie: Are freaking cr-.
Michael: Don't even try it 'cause I'm not buyin' it.
Suesie: I ain't tryin' nothin'! The only thing I'm tryin' is to get cha' hands off me! Now I said no and I mean no. Get away from me and chill out please.
Michael looked at me and showed no emotion.. Like nothing I said mattered.
Michael: This is not your day. You've had you week, now I'm gonna have mine. So get ready, because I'm coming for you.
Suesie: Well guess what. I ain't ready.
Michael shrugged and pinned me to the wall so that my face was against it.
Michael: Too bad, because I am.
Suesie: Michael if you even th-..
Interrupted by a scream and moan mixed.. Oh.. You want to know what I said? Okay. I'm going to replay it for you.
Suesie: Michael if you even th-MICHAEL! Aah, s-stop!
Michael didn't want to.. Ugh.. I shouldn't have done that to him.. Now Michael is having his way with me.. In the kitchen.. I know! IN THE FUCKING KITCHEN! Where I cook! Oh Lord.. Michael kept his word and had me in the living room in about ten seconds.. I couldn't count at the time but that's what it felt like. I kept on moaning like crazy because I couldn't talk and Michael was just going on and on. It seemed like forever.. On the last few seconds before he stopped, the doorbell rang.. Ugh.. Don't they know what time it is? More importantly.. Do I? Michael didn't care about the people or person at the door and went on until he was done..
Michael was so tired and then the door started to open. Michael quickly pulled a cover over us and tried to stay awake. I was already half asleep so I don't remember much. I know that the light was starting to shine in my eyes before I went to sleep.. Goodness.. It must be very late for the light to be shining. Michael fell asleep and held me close. He knew.. If there was one thing that I do remember, it was what Michael said before we fell asleep..
Michael: If you ever do this again, it will be worst than this.
I just lightly nodded and slept. The next day.. Which is Sunday.. I could not move.. No wait. Is it Monday? No wait.. It's Sunday and I couldn't talk for sure.. But I could just barely move. Yes. Sunday morning..NO! It was an afternoon. Who wakes up in the morning the day after an all night sex lesson in not teasing? I woke up Sunday afternoon and couldn't speak. Michael was reading right beside me.. I guess he moved me into the bedroom because I was laying comfortably on the bed. Michael looked at me and smiled.
Michael: Morning baby.
I sort of sat up and then sighed once I knew what I could and couldn't use.
Limbs I can't use:
My legs
My feet
My arms
My voice
Limbs I can use:
My arms
My back
My stomach
My eyes
Michael messed me up.. Big time. Just like last time.. Michael seemed to amused in my predicament and lightly touched my face. I jerked away from him and only ended up hurting myself. Michael stuck his bottom lip out and showed somewhat of pity towards me. Michael touched my stomach and I couldn't do a thing about it. I tried to turn away from him but he wouldn't let me.. So I just didn't look at him. I closed my eyes and Michael kissed my lips.. I put my hand up to block my lips then he slowly and gently grabbed my hands and pinned them down. Doesn't he know that I've had enough? Michael looked at me sincerely and I knew that he was sorry about making me upset. But what can I say? I have no voice to use. What can I do? I'm half paralyzed and weak. I have no power but to piss him off..
Michael: Suzanne.. You have to listen to me.
'Why? Why should I let my ears bare with what you have to say?'
Michael: Because I must explain myself.. When I made love to you, I had no control over it.. I just did it. I couldn't control it and I knee what I was doing but at the same time, I didn't.
'What the.. What do mean?'
Michael: That was not me who made love to you.. I mean, my body was.. You know, but my actions were not being controlled by me. Something else had gotten to me and did that to you. I don't know what it was, but it's always been there since the day we met. Every time we make love, it comes back stronger each time. The hunger for you and the need of pleasure from for and to give it gets stronger each time. I don't know why I can't go at least a week without wanting you but..
I didn't know what to do.. 'You're possessed!' I tried to move but then reality hit me.. I can't move lard ass.. Michael saw me trying to get away and looked down.
Michael: I'm sorry baby.. Please forgive me. I don't know how to stop this or what to do.
I wanted to tell him many things that helped me. The book that I cried over, that helps me get through every situation of everyday. I write but maybe that's not his cup of tea.
Michael: I.. I'll go.
I wanted to touch him and let him know that it was alright. I wanted to kiss him but he was putting his robe on and out the bedroom door in a heartbeat. I heard his light sobs and I didn't see him for two days after that.