(All pictures/videos are merely used for visual purposes. You're not a GUY ~unless you are and you're reading.. wassup Anthony~ buuut the shit I use is just to give your eyes something the paragraphs don't)
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@Y/n: 2k17 was fuckin wild yo.. so much good shit happened but with good came terrible. Just glad I have the best support group anyone could ask for. 2018 is gonna be a movie.
@Y/n: Oh, and I couldn't have gotten through this year without my girls ❤️ fuckin love y'all. #Ri&Dfuhlife
@badandbroke: Awew that's cute- now go back to Rihanna's live.
@Rihplies: you can't leave us with THAT moment and then dip 😭
@Navygang: *Rihanna whispering* "This is how I know she in a good mood.. nigga never cleans up."
@sxraaa: deadass.. I think I'm pregnant.
@ahskeetskeet: I bet you won't drop a thirst trap 👀 @Y/n
@Y/n: I am a livin thirst trap baby girl
@Sxraaa: yep🤰🏽it's yours baby daddy. I hope you can handle twins😬
@blxckfxnty: Please come back to the live @Y/n we thirsty 😭
@Y/n: NO! She's tryna put makeup on me 😭
@Rihanna: Yea cause you need it.
"You're an asshole!" I called out from the bedroom and she laughed loudly. Raising up from the spot in the office, I walked out and leaned around the corner to see her sitting in front of her vanity mirror, her phone propped up. "Why you so mean to me?"
She waved me over so I walked up before leaning against her back, my eyes on the phone that was showing Instagram live. "What?" I mumbled and she held onto my arm that I wrapped around her shoulder.
"They asking about you more than the damn album." I smiled and leaned forward to read some of the comments. "But now that you're here.." I sighed when she raised up her mascara and did a damn. "Be my Barbie."
"I'd rather watch you do it." I said and pulled back. "Plus I'm working."
"You're always working. Sit your ass down and be with me." I pursed my lips and looked over my shoulder. "Don't put me in a bad mood now."
Her new bad moods were really bad moods too.. shit. With a huff, I sat down on the chair next to her and watched her smile 'innocently.'
"Yay okay. So guys this is the full frontal mascara. I'm gonna do an actual tutorial for this soon but for now.. I'll show you my look for tonight." I raised my eyebrows and watched, lowkey now curious at everything she was doing. "I like to start with an eye just 'cause that's how I be feeling, know what I'm saying?"
I leaned over and watched her open the round thingy that then showed a bunch of different colors. "What is that?" I mumbled and she looked over at me.
"Eye shadow babe. The Moroccan spice pallet to be detailed." I hummed with a nod as she showed the camera. "It's New Year's Eve so tonight I'm thinking.. flirty but cool. So.. I'm gonna go with stone cold."
I watched her drag the brush around in it before lifting it to her eyelid and with one swoop, my eyebrows shot up at the iced, bluish purple.. sparkling color. "Ooo." She said to herself like it wasn't her product. "You see that?" I nodded and rested my head on my chin when she did the same thing to her other eye lid. "You wanna pick something for my cheeks?"
She tilted the pallet to me and I looked around before pointing at a random color. "Scandal-ice.. you would." She laughed out before grabbing another brush. "Y'all know I love playing around with highlight and all that good stuff so I made a product that's flexible for all skin tones and.."
I zoned out of her talking and watched her spread the make up over her cheeks. She was so pretty. Ugh.
I smiled to myself at how in-depth and detailed she went into explaining her makeup. You could truly tell she cared about it and wasn't putting on a front. Nothing was sexier than a passionate woman, amiright? Well.. other than a passionate, sexy woman. I done hit the lotto.
Soon she was talking about her lipstick before raising one up. "This lipstick has a really beautiful.. almost metallic finish to it." She mumbled and I gawked when she put the lipstick on which had a ice purple touch to it.
"Oh shit." I said and she gave me a side eye, continuing to put it on. "You made this?" I said in praise and her eyes rolled, her lips pulling into a smile. "I would've never expected that color to look good as lipstick."
"Mhm, and it works for all skin colors and textures.." she capped the lipstick before flipping her hair back over her shoulders.
I grinned and looked over her face. "You're so beautiful." I mumbled and she looked over at me again as I shook my head, my eyes never leaving hers. "How you do it? Lemme know 'cause you make it look easy."
"Shut up." She said dramatically while leaning against my side.
"Is the lipstick smudge proof?" I said with a smirk and her eyebrows raised. I looked at the camera before raising my hand to block it, my head then leaning forward to connect our lips.
She smiled into the kiss before opening her mouth just when I did which made our tongue connect in sync. My head tilted with hers as I slid my hand down her back before playfully grabbing her ass.
A chuckle escaped her lips as she pulled back and looked at the phone when I lowered my hand, my eyes raising when I saw the lipstick still perfectly on. "Smudge proof bitches." She said, drawing an air check with her fingers. "No basic zone!"
"No basics!" Melissa suddenly called from somewhere in the house and my eyebrows furrowed when they both laughed. Them and their damn inside shits.
I looked at the comments and shook my head at the nonsense they were spewing. Her fanbase was a bunch of horny ass, thirsty ass, begging ass motherfuckers.
"Oh, see!" I exclaimed when I saw one comment in particular. "Can you believe she has the audacity to sing to my daughter but not me?!" I grabbed the phone and stood up when Rob tried to stop me. "I sing everything this girl makes, back to 'unfaithful' and 'if it's loving that you want' and what do I get?"
"You get the lovin' that you want!" She said and snatched the phone back from me before sitting back at her chair. "I sung on a whole ass tour with you, what you mean?"
I gave her a look. "Yeah with tens of thousands of other people there! How you write a song about me but can't sing it? Like.. I wanna hear loyalty loyalty loyalty or wild wild wild sometime." She laughed lowly when I fake pouted. "I wanna feel what Kendrick felt."
"You're ridiculous." She sighed out and ran a hand through her hair, head shaking at the camera. "Look what you did, now you got people telling me to sing to your ass."
"As you should." I said before pecking her cheek. "Ima go meet up with Virg to talk about some stuff." Her head raised and she tilted her head with a frown. "I stayed while you did makeup, let me get some work done babe."
"Whatever." She mumbled.
I squinted my eyes before crouching next to her. "You mad at me?" I whispered but she waved me off. "Don't be mad at me."
"I'm not." She said and I watched her give me a smile. "Go, I'm fine." So.. she wasn't fine... or she was? See this is where I always go confused. Sometimes she said 'go' but really meant 'stay' while other times she genuinely didn't mind. God, I hated girl brains sometime. Or maybe I just got too much testosterone in mine.
"Okay.." I mumbled and raised back up. "I'll back, alright?"
She nodded slowly. "Yep." I nodded and started walking away. "I hope you enjoy yourself." She added and I stopped to look over my shoulder but she was already pressing a button on her iPad that made music start to play from the speakers.
I scratched my head.. then I left.
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"What's your net worth looking like now?" Dante asked as we started back to my house from the meeting with Virgil. D would be the 'spokesperson' or whatever.. the ambassador? I thinks that what they call them. Anyways, he'd be wearing the shit in the photo shoots.
"I ain't telling you my net worth nigga." I mumbled and looked down at the time to see it was nearing nine thirty. "Shit, I'm late." I sighed and leaned my head against the front door before stomping to myself in a mini tantrum. "Shiiit." I whined, a groan following.
"Your ass got a curfew?" He teased but I looked at him seriously. "Wait.. for real?"
I huffed and leaned against the wall beside the front door. "We have this thing where if we're gonna be out past nine, we have to let each other know. Especially if it's unplanned like.. I just told her I was going for a meeting."
He looked down at the bag of Friday's in his hand. "And stopped for endless appetizers and a beer which was delicious." I pursed my lips before pointing at him in agreement. "But she thought it was only a meeting.."
"It was suppose to be but your ass kept begging for food!" I hissed and ran a hand through my hair. "Alright alright.. I'll just say time got away from me." I clapped and shrugged my shoulders. "It'll be fine."
"You really scared of her." He mumbled and I furrowed my eyebrows as I looked at him.
"What- hell fucking yeah I am. She spat at me, slapped me, and kneed me in the balls. I'm spending the rest of my life trying not to piss her off, aight?"
"Well when you do dumb shit like this- don't look at me like that. You could've said no to Friday's." I hummed sarcastically before pulling my keys out and starting to unlock the door. "Maybe she'll be so happy you brought food that she won't be mad."
"Right. And maybe Lolo will realize you're closeted gay." He shoved my back as I laughed but just as I got the key into the hole, the door pulled open. "Rob- whoa." My eyes dragged down her body that was clad in a small ass pink fur dress with some sort of fur shit around her waist.. I couldn't even remember the name of it.
All I know was that it had my heart pumping and hands ready to take it off of her.
"Damn." Dante mumbled and I slapped his chest before stepping to the side when she continued forward.
"You ready already? Let me hurry up."
"No." My eyebrows furrowed when she looked at Melissa who walked out as well. "We decided to have more of a girls night, you know? Me, Mel, Jen."
I frowned as Jen walked out with a wine glass. "We bout to turn uppp." My frown deepened.
"But.." I looked back at Robyn and could see her eyes soften a bit. "It's New Years.. what about our New Years kiss?" I pouted slightly and her shoulders dropped.
She silently started to smile and step forward but Melissa cleared her throat which seemed to make Robyn step back again. "Well.. I'll try to be back by midnight. If not.. just kiss your computer for me." She blew me a kiss and walked down the porch with her ass just poking out.
Man..
I glanced at Mel as she sighed with a smile. "Cheese on bread maaan." What the hell did that even mean? She then tapped my cheek with a laugh before following after Robyn and Jen to the Uber that pulled up.
Of all days. The day she looks the finest is when I somehow goof. What did I even do wrong? Was it because I came home a few minutes late? I didn't think it was that bad.
I stood outside as I watched them pull off. "Man." I kicked the toe of my shoe into the ground before walking into the house. "Did you see how good she looked?" I looked over my shoulder and pointed at him when I saw him start to respond. "Actually, don't answer that."
"So.. what're you gonna do?" He asked as I walked into the kitchen. "I'm going to a party if you wanna come? It's at a club."
I hummed in thought. A party would- no. I didn't wanna celebrate New Years if it wasn't with Robyn. "I'm good, but you go ahead since I know Lolo is waiting on you. Turn up for me."
He smiled before sitting the bag of Friday's on the counter. "Here, have my wings."
"You're so sweet." I joked and he smacked his lips before giving me hug. "Happy early New Years man. Stay safe out there." I patted his back before watching him back away. "Make sure you wrap it up tonight!"
"Oh I will! Dante ain't 'bout to be a baby daddy yet!"
I chuckled at his goofy ass before grabbing the bag, two beers from the fridge, then heading to the basement.
I feel like this could be a time for reflection to figure out where I went wrong. Or I could eat wings and nachos and watch Martin in my game room..
"Wasssup!" I looked up at the screen before reclining my chair while opening the food container. Martin it is.
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Believe it or not, I was tired of watching Martin. And I mean.. Martin never got boring. I think it had a lot to do with me watching Melissa's and Robyn's Instagram stories.
"Yes spin for me daddy spin for meee!" I frowned as Robyn spun around before shaking her butt a bit, then cover her face with a laugh. "I love it."
I sighed and sat my phone on my lap, another nacho shoved into my mouth. She was suppose to be spinning on me.
Leaning back, I tried to focus on the episode that was in front of me. "I love you Martin." Gina said and I pouted as he slid his arms around her. "I love you too Girl."
Fuck this.
I pushed the bag off of my lap and ran up the stairs while simultaneously pulling my shirt over my head. "Alexa, what time is it?" I called out once I reached the bedroom, the door to the walk in closet flying open.
"It is eleven thirty three."
Shit.
I quickly pulled a champagne silk button on with some plain black jeans, paired with my vachetta tan twelves. I wasn't trying to dress up too much but I also knew the club they went to was high profile so.. I couldn't walk up looking busted.
After I was changed and sprayed some Rogue on, I jogged to the garage and grabbed my Rolls Royce keys off the hook.. then I saw my lambo. I haven't even drove it yet.. why not?
I replaced the keys before opening the car door and settling onto the leather seats. It just felt different but I didn't have time to admire it. I had to get to this damn club before twelve.
So, I pressed the button to lift the garage door before I started out and left the driveway to the main road. I glanced down at the clock on the dash and saw it was twenty minutes until twelve. Jesus I hope I made it.
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When I pulled up, I flew out of the car and tossed the keys to the valet while quickly making my way to the doors. "Y/n!" Some people called and I smiled before shooting a smile with a wave.
The bouncers simply moved out of the way, not giving me any problems as I rushed in. Think.. where would they be right now? Not the dance floor, especially from the video they just took so.. I looked over toward the vip booths and saw the glimmer of pink. Bingo.
I ran at hand through my hair before moving over to their section with my eyes on my fiancée who was sitting on the couch while Mel and Jen danced to a song. Nothing like how the Instagram stories looked..
Once I reached their section, I slid next to her and leaned back on the cushion. "What's a pretty girl like you doing looking sad on New Year's Eve?" She didn't spare me a glance. "I can cheer you up." I added.
A sigh left her lips as she brought a straw to her lips. "No thank you." She raised her left hand and I smirked to myself when she displayed the engagement ring.
"I don't see him here." I played on and she finally rolled her eyes before looking at me, only for her to see me. "He must be a jackass to let you be here alone."
"Y/n.." Her jaw dropped as she looked me up and down. "What are you doing here?" She breathed out.
I hummed and looked ahead on me with a shrug. "I want my New Years kiss."
Her hand lightly grabbed my chin as she turned me to face her. "You're stupid."
I nodded. "I know," Left my lips with a sigh, my hand moving to cup her face. "I'm only working so much because I know soon I'm gonna stop and spend my time taking care of you and.. and lil homie." She smiled when I leaned forward to rest my forehead on hers. "And I'm gonna gladly put my work up for you but.. I just wanna get one more thing done."
"You can work, Y/n. I'm not saying drop everything but make some time for me in between, you know?" I nodded and pulled back with a smile. "Can you do that for me?"
"Of course."
"You promise?"
I nodded and went to respond when I suddenly heard shouting and cheering around the club which made me look down at my phone. Midnight.
My head raised when Rob grabbed my face with a smile. "Happy New Years." She mumbled and I pulled her closer to me before getting my goddamn New Years kiss, alright? And it was perfect.
"Mm!" I hummed against her lips when I heard the next song that came on. "You gotta!"
She gave me a look as I raised up and pulled her with me. "Do I really?" I nodded excitedly and she huffed, her head falling back. Then in an instant, she switched up and playfully flipped her hair before breaking out into the first verse. "Baby, I love you, I need you here with me all the time. Baby we meant to be. You got me, smiling all the time."
I chuckled when she spun around and leaned back against me so I wrapped my arms around her as she continued to sing. "You know how to love me hard. I won't lie, I'm falling hard. Yep, I fell for ya but there's nothin' wrong with that." I smiled as she changed the lyrics with a cute giggle.
We held one another throughout the duration of the song until the last verse came. She turned around in my hold before pushing me down on the couch behind me with a smirk. "And yes I'm kinda crazy. That's what happens baby, when you put it down you shouldnt've give it to me good like that.."
My eyebrows shot up when she straddled my lap and held my shoulders. "Shouldn't hit it like that, had me yellin' like that didn't know you woulda had me coming back."
"Oh you didn't?" I teased while holding her waist and she shook her head with a playfully grin. "I proved myself?"
"You did." She leaned forward and pressed her lips to mine and I kissed back.. then broke away to sing the chorus at the top of my lungs.
"You da one that I dream about all daaay!" She laughed and held onto my shoulders when I lifted back up before grabbing her hands. I spun her around in a three sixty, my smile wide with hers. "What? I can't hear you."
Her eyes rolled before she sung with me. "You are the one so I make sure I behaaave." I nodded with a smirk as we finished the song together. "My love is your love, your love is miiine."
I held her waist before giving her a quick kiss. "I love ya baby." I mumbled and pulled back to peck her forehead. "Another three sixty five right?"
She nodded and slid her arms around my neck as we swayed slowly to the edm music that was now playing. "Yeah, if you don't fuck up." I chuckled under my breath as she gave me a pointed look. "I'm serious."
"I know," I breathed out and pulled her closer. "I'm not taking you for granted.. though I need you to wear some shorter heels this year, alright?" A laugh left her lips as I playfully stood on my tippy toes. "How I'm six feet and you damn near.." I shook my head as she continued to laugh.
"I'm wearing three inch heels, do the math." She pulled me back down to my regular height (which was now probably an inch taller than her frame) and cupped my face. "You really came all the way here for a kiss? You're like a puppy."
I smirked instantly. "Well let me bark up your tree then ma. Where you goin after this? Tryna hit the trap?"
"Oh my God." She dropped her head back, a chuckle leaving her lips. "Is this how you got girls? Really? The trap."
"Hell you talking 'bout? Females loved free gas. Had them bitties gettin' litty- aye watch the silk now." I said when she slapped my chest. "I'm just fuckin' with you shawty, come here." She hummed sarcastically as I pecked her lips before pulling back with a coy grin. "You love me?"
She smacked me again. "Stop that player shit, Y/n." I laughed deeply when she rolled her eyes. "I know what you doing. You forget I brought your ass out them hoe trenches? 'Cause I remember and I remember how you use to talk."
"Alright alright, I'm done." I wrapped my arms around her and pulled her back into me. "You my main." Her head snapped up. "What?"
"Calling me your main means you have side bitches. Call me your wife. Fuck that 'main' shit." Well damn.
"I like em feisty." I teased and kissed over her neck before raising my head when I saw movement over her shoulder. Mel walked past with a smirk and I playfully flipped her off, she made a heart in return. "So.. I'm thinking ice cream and hot wings to cap the night, what you think?"
She nodded with a smirk. "I think this is why you're my person." After flagging Mel and Jen down, she told them she was riding with me before we were out of the club. "Oh you took the Lamborghini finally." She laughed out as I pulled the passenger door open for her.
"Had to." I closed her door and quickly rounded to the driver side. "Do you want ColdStone or-"
"ColdStone." I looked over and saw her shaking her head. "I don't need to hear the other option."
I snorted and pulled off onto the road. "Yes ma'am."
As we drove silently, she tapped my right arm until I lifted my hand from the steering wheel and let her hold it. I looked over at her with a smile when she nonchalantly pressed a kiss to the back of my hand with her eyes out of the window.
Would it be gay to say my heart skipped a beat?
Well shit.. I am gay so.. it fits.
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"So y'all whole family just some talented motherfuckers." Davinci, the producer, said with a laugh. "I mean, you dance and make clothes right.. little sis over here a lil Spike Lee." I looked over at Aaliyah with a chuckle as she fiddled with her camera before holding it up and taking pictures of Jay as he posed. "And Jay over here.. he Atlanta rap fasho."
I leaned against the couch before motioning Jay over. "I wanna hear something, what you been working on?"
"A lot man." He said and turned his cap backwards. "I been trying to write over this beat ain't got no luck. Wanna hear it?" I nodded when he pointed at Davinci to play the music and I bobbed my head to myself as the beat came in while he adjusted the mic that was already set up.
I glanced to my side and saw Aaliyah holding her camera up just as he started rapping or.. freestyling. "Shout my label that's me. I'm in this bitch with DV,
I'm in this bitch with my team. I just poured up me an eight. Real nigga all in my face.."
I nodded along to his lyrics as he rapped flawlessly. How did I never know my own goddamn brother could spit like this??
As he kept going, he got to a point where I was completely fucking flabbergasted. He smirked slightly and tapped my shoulder as he faced me. "Y/nn my dawg, that's for sure. We won't fall out about shit, 'specially not 'bout no bitch. We ain't gone fall out 'bout hoes. Me and Ced get them loads, we let 'em go for the low. I got my hood in control." I watched him hold up his wrists, then pull his chain up for his next bars. "I got my left wrist on froze, I got my right wrist on froze, I got my necklace on froze. Both of my ears on froze."
I fell back on the chair as the beat dropped perfectly. "Gahdamnnn." I breathed out and watched with my hands on top of my head as he kept going for a whole 'nother minute.
"Aye for real.. you wrote none of that?" Davinci questioned and I eyed Jay as he shook his head. "Not one word?"
"Nah but I had some wordplay in my head. Like 'riding in a vert with an uzi' I been wanting to use that and it fit with the flow, so I did. Other than that.."
I then looked at the producer as he nodded slowly before looking at me. "Yo your brothers about to pop off. I hope you know that."
"Shit I do now." I mumbled and looked over at Aaliyah who was still recording. "You get that whole thing?" She nodded so I raised up and pointed at the camera. "Ima day it now.. this shits gonna be ATL's new anthem. Watch out."
After that, they started to talk about the freestyle he just dropped when my phone rang so I stepped out to answer it. "Hey Ni." I sung out as I leaned back on the wall.
"Hey, you called?"
I nodded to myself. "Oh yeah. So I was thinking about going to going to dinner as a group this weekend. I got Aaliyah and Jay their own spot down here so I wanted to show them around, just get them use to the city, you know? And I decided to make a little day of it so.. you wanna join?"
She went silent for a moment before a sigh left her lips. "I.. I'm gonna pass." My eyebrows furrowed. Since when did she turn down food?
"Are you sure? Robyn's gonna be there too."
"Yeah I'm figuring some stuff out right now, Y/nn. Thank you but I gotta take a little me time."
Me time? What is she talking about.
"Do you need anything? I mean I'm here to talk or just listen. Whatever you ne-"
"Y/n." She cut off and I stopped at her tone. "I need space from you." Oh.. "I'll drop Dahlia off on Sunday as planned but please, just let me take a breather."
My eyebrows furrowed as a million things ran through my head. She needed a break from me? Did I do something recently? Say something? "Oh.. okay. I understand." I cleared my throat and scratched the back of my neck in melancholy. "I love you, Ni. Take care of yourself."
A soft sigh left her lips, followed by the sound of the call ending. I've never been so confused-
"Y/nn," I looked up and nodded at Aaliyah as she stuck her head out. "You good?"
I forced a smile and nodded before pushing off of the wall. "Yeah I'm good."
But apparently my baby mama wasn't..
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So.. what's in y'all pretty 🧠