<chuu>
"you look calmer than usual," chaewon stated.
i looked at her and didn't even realize that i've been eating at a normal pace, unlike my usual slow-eater side. my plate was almost empty and my friends chuckled for that reason.
hyejoo added, "did something happen?"
"guys, i know this may sound crazy, but i've decided to tone down my crush on sooyoung," i honestly replied. i heard yerim choking on her water.
not that anything would change. i still like her, anyway. after my awkward encounter with a crying sooyoung yesterday, i just thought that it's best not to make a fool of myself in front of her when we get a chance to interact "again". i honestly don't know how that would go, but i do hope i won't screw it up.
as i've said, there's more to sooyoung that i want to know. i don't know what it is, but i'll make sure to find out if i'm given the chance to.
it's all up to you, universe. give me a sign whenever.
it was kind of childish of me to leave this one to the fate's hands. but it was for a good reason. sooyoung has friends from another class, anyway. she wouldn't necessarily need me, right? i mean, it's been four years now and i don't think she even remembers my name.
the bell rang as soon as i finished the last bite. we all got up from our seats and headed to our respective classrooms.
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because of me shamelessly sleeping throughout the whole last subject yesterday, the teacher told me to overstay after classes to finish a special seatwork given to me and submit it to him within the day. i believe that's his way of punishment. i really didn't mind, but i get kind of slow at times. not that i was a total failure or anything. there were just some lessons that i found it hard to understand.
these are shapes! why do i find shapes so hard? quadrilaterals, my ass.
it's been obviously a torture for the past twenty minutes. ever since the dismissal bell rang, i got my eyes glued on this paperwork so that i could finish early. guess, i'll be home later than usual.
i was down to the last item and all i had to do is input a number for the angle. thoughts on the back of my mind just kept on kicking their way to the front. even though i would like to forget about my feelings just for a moment, i really couldn't stop thinking about sooyoung.
i furiously ruffled my bangs and grumbled while putting my head down on my desk. i just wanted peace and quiet in doing the job done, but my brain and feelings wouldn't let me.
my head turned its way to the left side. instead of looking at empty chairs, i immediately spotted the girl who's been running on my mind. startled, i quickly sat straight back up and fixed my bangs.
where the fuck did she come from? then again, i had my eyes on this paper since dismissal of classes, so i never really got to check my surroundings.
sooyoung was staring out the window with her chin placed on her right hand. as expected, she looked so beautiful when the golden hour sunlight hit her. i never would have pulled that off.
it wasn't a surprise anymore that she was the popular girl in school regardless of being a different aged person from the rest of us tenth-graders. in fact, that was exactly the reason why seniors, a.k.a. '97 liners along with sooyoung, are usually the ones confessing their "love" to her. yeah, that's right. what do they know about love anyway?
snapping myself back to reality, i just put '24' on the provided blank space and got it over with. i put my paper inside my satchel and stood up.
so, the universe answered back quite sooner than i thought.
i gathered up all my courage. i pulled something out of my bag and approached her. with a hint of nervousness, i gulped. but this wasn't the time to be nervous.
i overstayed in school for a reason, but it was definitely a surprise to see sooyoung here. it might have been her first time, well, aside from yesterday of course.
this must be a sign! it's gotta be! coming from the one who said she didn't want to assume. not that i do assume that maybe she's like me. but at least, it must be a sign that i should probably confess and get it over with. yeah.
that actually passed by my mind. why did she stay, though? out of all the opportunities for the last four years, why now?
there were a definite number of questions in my mind right now, but i'll just get onto that tomorrow.
i huffed, releasing all the nervousness out of me. i bowed down in ninety degrees while extending my arms to reach my gift to her. the one i've worked so hard on since freshman year. the one that's been inside my bag for four years. i never really got the chance to confess and give it to her... and now, here i was.
"i like you," i instantly blurted out.
i know how this will turn out. just reject me and walk out so i won't have to deal with my feelings ever again.
but... no. she did not do all those.
instead, i felt the weight off my hands. when i looked at them, they were empty. meaning, sooyoung took it.
my eyes widened and i could feel my heart beating so fast. as i was starting to sweat, i ran outside the room yet again. good job, jiwoo. you really did a good job on being a pussy.
i didn't want to hear what she had to say. at least, not now.
so i just raced away from the school and went straight back home.
i panted as i entered the house. then, that's when it started to hit me.
she... accepted my... gift.
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<yves>
there she went again. though, i wasn't sure if she was strawberry yogurt person.
i overstayed after classes because i wanted to know who gave me that drink and the note. but i didn't expect someone to confess to me this late. i gotta admit, i was pretty surprised. no one has ever confessed to me after classes before.
somehow, i just found myself accepting the gift. i didn't know why. it's like my hands were moving on their own and my body didn't deny any of it.
it was a wooden music box with a tiny metal lever on the side. i opened it up to see its parts and a carved message on the interior lid that says, 'i fall deeper into you'
i rotated the lever. an unfamiliar music sounded from the cyclinder. [insert chorus of "heart attack" by chuu , but music box instrumental version.]
the tone of the music was very catchy and it actually somehow tugged my heartstrings for a bit there. she probably made this all on her own, and that touched me the most.
this, without out a doubt, just brightened my day.
even though she's known to sleep a lot in class, she actually looked a bit familiar. maybe i should have taken a closer look to verify.
"kim..." i muttered under my breath. "...chuu?"
that must be it, right?
i didn't really pay much attention to my class. out of all the classes i had, this one i'm having right now was the worst. since seventh grade until last year, i've been classmates with familiar people whom i grew close with; jungeun was my classmate in freshmen year, while hyunjin in sophomore. last year, we three became classmates together.
now that there's actually someone who took me seriously in this class...
...agh. i shouldn't really talk about it.
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[A/N:]
what's up, gaybits? how are y'all holding up?
as you can see, i made chuu's character a tad bit more relatable. haha so i hope you guys are loving her role here so far.
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