🌹R O S E II🌹
🌹CHAPTER TWENTY - SIX🌹
I had literally locked myself in my room with and turned on the TV and put on Netflix but I wasn't even watching it. But it was just there in the background. I was so busy thinking of everything that Caitlyn told me and I might be overreacting but this is huge to me. That a woman that I've known most of my life and a good friend to my mom is a assassin.
And not only that but she wants me to decide if I want someone dead. That is very tempting but I don't want anyone dead, I just want them to suffer, the same way that I suffered. But I don't think anyone can ever go through that pain that I went through it, it's just too much for me to handle and as much as I want them all to go through it, but then on the other hand I don't want anyone to suffer, even when I do want to.
Gosh this is just too confusing for me and I have no idea what I'm even thinking of anymore. I don't know what to do or what to think or even know anything anymore. All I want to do is disappear so no one can hear me scream out. Screaming out help me but I don't want to give people the impression that I'm being kidnapped or worse, and also I don't want my throat hurting like crazy.
Soon I start to grow very hungry and I look at the time and it's about seven in the evening and mom isn't home. It's been a few hours since she left, I know she's doing something important with work which I'm sure she can't tell me because of obvious reason. But, that shouldn't take these many hours, should it? I've never really lost a deal so I don't know how to do that.
Well, I did lose one but that was what he did since he destroyed the Locke family or whatever he did do to them. However, technically I did not lose it because I wanted it gone in the first place when I found out the truth. I go to the living room and I pick the phone up and dial her number.
Since I refuse to use my own phone because I already know that there are going to be so many missed calls and missed messages which I'm not ready to face that thing. "Hey, Rosie, I'm sorry, I'm on my way right now and I have food" She says into the phone and I giggle at the tone, she's exhausted, it's easy to tell.
Mom always buys food at some fast food restaurant when she's exhausted and just wants to have a nice time in bed with fast food and then candy or popcorn and you know things like that. "Oh, and I need to tell you something very important when I get home" She continues before I could even utter a single word.
She sounds serious and that can't be good. I really don't need anymore bad news. I've enough on my plate as it is. It's going to all fall down on the floor if everything continues to pile up on my plate. "That's good, I just wanted to check in because you've been gone for so long" I say and when I say it out loud it sounds like I'm a child that's waiting for her mother to come home after work because she's scared to be all alone at home.
"Awe, is my baby Rosie missing her mommy?" She asks and I think she realized that fact to which I found out when I said that. I frown a little as I look outside the window. I automatically stand up and walk around the room and play with everything that I can. "Mom!" I call out as I don't want her to treat me like a child.
I've already been through the childhood years and as much as I would want to go through them again, I don't want that. I'm an adult now. "I'm sorry, Rosie, I had to. Now, I'm pulling up now. See you inside" She says and then she hangs up. Not only three minutes and then she walks in through the entrance.
She's holding a bag that has food in it. "Let's eat in bed" She says and I nod my head. And we walk up the stairs to my bedroom and we sit down on the bed and start eating. "What is it you wanted to tell me?" I ask her and she looks rather shocked and very nervous, I wonder what is wrong with her. This must be bad and if she doesn't tell me, I'm going to think the worst of everything.
Which I don't want to do, I don't want to think of more bad things and I don't wan anything bad happening. She sighs as she shallows the bite she took after she had chewed it. "I'm so sorry but I had no choice, every year I have to invite the... Knight family" She quietly says and I gasp.
This can't be happening. "What?" I ask, I don't know what to say about this. "You mean?" I ask as she already knows what I'm about to say. "Yes, he's coming and his parents" She says and I I sigh with sadness. I can't do this. The gala was to be something that I could get away from everything that has been weighing me down and now everything has been weighing me down is coming back to drag me down.
"But, it will be all right. I can have bodyguards to make sure that he nor they get close to you. Is that all right?" She asks me and I shrug. My mind feels like it's about to explode with everything that I have to think about and everything just keeps piling up on me.
Mom knows how much I dislike the bodyguards, they used to follow me around everywhere when I was a child and I hated it and it took so much convincing on my end to let my mother see that I did not need them anymore, but I've always suspected that she still had them follow me but in secret. I suppose I will never know about it.
"Fine, but how they make sure they are far away from me, when we need to meet every guest?" I ask her and she smiles at me. We finish our food and she hugs me. "Don't worry, I will take care of it all. I'm going to take care of everything. Now, what do you want to watch, I'm not in the mood for horror but I'm in mood for romance" She says and I roll my eyes.
As I know what she's hinting at. My mom wants to watch Titanic, again. We used to watch it when I was a teenager. "All right" I tell her and she squeals up and down in delight and she reminds me about a baby or something. Then mom puts on Titanic and then we watch it and snuggle together.
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Mom sniffles beside me after the movie is finished and I give her another tissue. She always cries when we watch Titanic and it's impossible to get through the movie without her crying and honestly I sometimes cry. I mean I already know what happens and everything and I always get tears in my eyes but I don't usually cry.
"This is the best movie ever" Mom says as she hugs me. I think another reason why she named me Rose was because of the main character in the movie since she's loved this movie since it came out. "I know you do, you've said it so many times before" I tell her and giggle while she playfully frowns at me.
"You're no fun" She tells me and both of us can't help but break into laughter. I let out a yawn and I let the tiredness take over my body. I had brushed my teeth when we took a break when the movie was about half-way done, just because I knew I'd be so tried to even get up when the movie was over and that is the truth.
I snuggle closer to mom and she hugs me tighter. Playing with my hair, she twirls my newly cut hair with her fingers. "I love your hair like this" She whispers to me and I smile. "Me too" I tell her and I can feel her smile my way. This moment is so beautiful and wonderful and I like it.
I've truly missed being with my mother through these seven months and I will never be able to forgive myself for it, then again she did betray me but as it turns out she did everything she could to fix her mistake and I shouldn't blame her that. But, I don't want to think about this now. I just want to enjoy the moment that I have now with my mother and I love it.
I feel loved for the first time in so many months and I never want to let go. "You tired?" She asks me and I nod my head. In this moment I feel like a child and that is all right now. "Me too" She says, doing a mocking tone of my voice and I let out a small giggle. "We should go to bed, this day has been a roller coaster for the both of us and we need rest to finish doing everything for the gala" She says and I smile.
"What if everyone hates it? I mean the decorations and the theme? It's not really common to have galaxy and stars as a theme for a fancy and luxurious gala" I tell her. Somehow that thought had made it into my brain and I can't shake it off, as much as I want to.
I keep thinking that people are going to leave the gala because they don't like it. She hugs me tighter. "Trust me, no one is going to hate it. They might not be used to it but this is the twenty-first century there are so many things that are changing and people seem to enjoy the things that are out of the ordinary" She says, and she was quick to answer me.
"Besides, if they don't like it, then let them. This gala is to celebrate and I will love everything that my little Rosie makes and if other people hate it, then that is just their horrible minds" She says and I smile and hug her. Somehow she always knows what to say to me to make me feel better, it is true what they say. Mothers know best and that is the truth.
"Thank you" I whisper to her and smile, even when she can't see it, I know she can feel it and feel the love. "Everything for my little Rosie" She says and I playfully frown. "You know, you don't have to call me that" I tell her and she lets out a laugh. "I know but it's the truth and I will never stop" She tells me and I let out a soft giggle escape past my lips.
My mother and I stayed like that for a little while until she went on her way to her bedroom and I turned off all the lights and then went under the covers and I welcomed the sleep to overtake me. Though right before I feel asleep my mind kept dreading to the gala, the one event that I was actually looking forward too.
The change of meeting him are high and even if she says that she will be able to make sure that he can't find me or see me and so that we won't meet but there is still that fear inside of me. With that on my mind the blackness swallows me whole.