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Sadly I'm not a transparent book
And people cannot always read or see through me
I'm sorry if I closed you out in my life
It's been too dark too let you in
There's no light to guide you
You left me no choice
But to be alone in the mental darkness
Why am I not happy anymore?
You have given me everything I need
Clothes, a house, a car, a phone, etc...
Why isn't that enough?
Is something mentally wrong with me?
Why cannot I be happy?
I cry and cry with the same repeated phrase
Why cannot I be content with myself
The yellow, beaming sunshine in me is being invaded as the frozen unbearable thoughts creeps in...
My heart fills with much blueness
One day will I ever be happy?
I want my heart to bleed with bright redness to show love and compassion not internal blackness
This wasn't suppose to be this way, right?
The question will forever be a conscience thought of mine
Maybe...
Just maybe...
The question is...
What is it that I need right now to be happy?
What if I don't know the question to own question?
Will I forever or temporarily be internally stuck from the loss of my happiness...
I hope one day I'll be saved