After what happened yesterday, my mind couldn’t rest for a second throughout the night. Thoughts of what I witnessed on the balcony crept through my mind making sleep an impossible task.
Who was that Toni guy? And how did he even know Sarah? He mentioned something about stuff and money. Did this mean Sarah was back to her old ways?
But she never dealt with big guys before. The biggest she had done was the night we got busted as far as I knew. She always liked money but she only got what she needed out of dealing not took it as a way of living.
Heck, Aaroosa said she went to school with us. Then she must had paid for it somehow. Was that why she was having to deal with the likes of Toni? To pay off her schooling?
I highly doubt it. Plus, Sarah never wanted to be a doctor, it was always her parent’s dream to see their little ‘angel’ a doctor. Maybe they were the ones who paid off for her education?
Something wasn’t adding up. How come she lived in this apartment which must’ve cost a lot of money while she still deals? And now she owns some really dangerous guy what seems to be a lot of money.
Hearing a knock on my door snapped me out of my thoughts, “Are you up yet?” Aaroosa opening the door just enough to peek inside.
“Yeah,” I mumbled and slowly got out of bed.
Looking at my balcony door, a feeling of curiosity crept in me so I slowly walked to it in hopes of finding Sarah there. But no one was there. The balcony was empty and there was no evidence of yesterday’s events. It’s like nothing happened. If I wasn’t there at that moment, I would have never known.
Sighing, I turned on my heel and went to the bathroom to take a quick shower before going to uni.
Getting out of the bathroom, I heard a faint noise in my room which I recognized as my notification tune so I quickly went in my room and grabbed my phone.
Seeing a new unread DM from Tasneem, I clicked on it and left the phone on my bed to load the page while I got out my black skirt and denim button-up shirt from the cupboard then I grabbed my phone again to read the DM.
‘Sorry I wasn’t online yesterday. Is everything alright?’
Reading her message, the urge to talk to her came back to me. Only Tasneem would understand what I was feeling when Zayn called me yesterday. And maybe she could have a logical explanation to what I heard yesterday or she could even tell me what I was supposed to do with this new information I had about Sarah.
‘A lot had happened. We need to talk ASAP, but I have uni. Can we talk when I get back?
Sending the DM, I placed the phone on the bed again while I got dressed in the outfit I picked, giving Tasneem time to respond. When I finished, I picked up my phone again to read her reply.
‘Dunno Maggs. I have lots of tutoring today. I’ll tell you if I have time tho. Sorry :( hope you have a good day at uni anyway X.’
She ignored me again? Even though this had happened way too often this last couple of weeks, I couldn’t help but to feel offended, even a little sad that she didn’t have time for me anymore.
Or did she have time but just didn’t want to talk? Was she really ignoring me? Was she bored with me?
Well, of course she was. I always call her to talk about my problems and my life. I never asked her about her problems.
How selfish was I? I talked to her almost every week and I never once asked her about her day. She probably knows every little detail about my life but didn’t bother asking her about her life.
Hearing Waliyha yell for me to finish up. I aimlessly grabbed my hijab and wrapped it tightly around my head then went outside where Aaroosa and Waliyha where waiting for me. They quickly grabbed their bags and we got out of the apartment and headed to uni.
Guilt consumed me from the inside all day. I couldn’t even focus in the lectures. My mind was preoccupied with thoughts.
I thought about how bad of a person I was to have the closest people to me ignore me like that. I pushed them away with my selfishness and annoyance.
How could I not see what I was doing to them?
My fiancée, who, I hadn’t seen in nearly a month didn’t even miss me, and my best friend who lives thousands of miles away didn’t even want to have a skype call with me.
The two people I cared about the most had been avoiding me and it made me feel like crap.
“Maggie, are you okay?” Kaliq whispered so the professor wouldn’t hear him and I nodded in response not feeling like talking to him.
Why would I open my mouth and say something stupid to push him away as well?
Hearing the professor say ‘that’s it for today’ snapped me off my gloominess but it brought my attention to the fact that Bella, Kaliq and Waliyha were going to have to be stuck with this boring girl over the gab period.
Deciding to safe everyone the trouble, I just took my bag and quickly walked out of the other side of the room while the others were talking and not paying attention to me.
Keeping my head down, I walked to the other side of campus so I wouldn’t meet anyone I know there, but boy was I wrong.
“Maggie?” I heard a familiar voice call after me while I walked making me quicken my steps, “Maggie wait up please?”Seif ran after me to the point he was facing me.
Without touching my hand, he tried to stop me by pulling up his hand in a stop sign which made me giggle a little but I tried to hide it and walk past him.
“Maggie, please hear me out. I’m sorry.” His voice was pleading and it left me confused. Why was he apologizing for?
“For what?” I raised my eyebrows in confusion as I stopped walking.
He seemed to have be catching his breath before speaking, “Sorry, it wasn’t easy running after you. I’m not that athletic.” He chuckled making me smile a bit, then his expression changed into a serious one, “That’s not what I was going to apologize for at first. It would be weird to run after you just to apologize for being not athletic.”
His rambling was cute and made me giggle and I tried my best to suppress my giggles but I failed miserably, “It’s okay Seif.” I tried to cover my weird giggles.
“Right,” He nodded as a small smile appeared on his face showing his dimples, “I just wanted to say I’m so sorry about my mom. She can be rude sometimes and she just doesn’t know..ugh, I don’t how to say it without sounding like a rotten child.” He laughed awkwardly.
“You are not rotten, Seif.” I smiled to get him to smile again. He had an adorable smile.
“Yeah, it’s whatever. I just wanted to apologize for that. She shouldn’t have been rude to you. You only came to help.” He rubbed the back of his neck, obviously not feeling comfortable about this conversation.
“It’s okay, Seif. I forgot about it. Really. Anyway, how is Ali today?” I asked changing the subject.
“He’s doing well. Just has a cast on his arm which he thinks is wicked.” He chuckled.
“I bet he does. Did you sign it for him?” I asked feeling a little comfortable talking to him.
“No way. Mom would literally kill me if I touched it.” He chuckled nervously making me bite my lip.
“Is she always that strict with you?” I knew it wasn’t my place to ask that but I felt bad for him.
“She’s just over protective I guess. You know, being in a western country and all.” He shrugged looking away.
“Oh. But you are such a good person, I don’t think she should worry about you that much.”
“I’m used to it.” He shrugged again, “By the way, Mahinoor told me to tell you hey for her.”
“Tell her I say hey back. Hopefully, I get to meet her again.” I smiled widely. I really did like that little girl for some reason. I don’t know but that family had a good vibe about them. Well, the children, not the parents.
“She didn’t stop talking about you all day yesterday.” He smiles that adorable dimple smile that I grew to love.
“Aw, that’s so cute. She’s just adorable.” I cooed.
“Yeah, she is.” He had a proud look on his face that just made me gush in the inside. He’s such a good older brother, “I know you said you are busy next week so we had to double our work this week but I’m kind of stuck babysitting today and tomorrow. Can we meet on Friday?”
“Yeah, sure.” I sighed feeling down again when he mention next week. I probably would spend it alone as well since Zayn didn’t want to see me anyways.
“Is everything alright?” Seif asked worriedly.
“Yeah.” I pulled on a fake smile fast.
“Are you sure?” He asked still looking worried.
“Positive.” I replied.
“Okay then.” He paused for a little looking at his phone which was an old nokia phone that probably didn’t even have a radio in it, “are you staying for a lecture or are you finished for today?”
“I’m going home.” I said feeling bad for skipping my next accounting lecture but I honestly didn’t feel like sitting next Bella for the next two hours and forcing her to make small talk with me on the way home.
“Oh. I wish I could walk you home but I have a lecture in four minutes exactly.” He looked apologetic making a small smile appear on my face.
“It’s okay. I’ll see you on Friday then?” For some reason, I actually was looking forward to that ‘study date’ of ours.
“Yeah, in sha’ allah.” He smiled my favorite kind of smile and waved goodbye as he raced to catch his lecture.
He was probably freaking out in the inside for not being ten minutes earlier than the professor. The thought made me chuckle inwardly.
The next couple of hours I spent on my bed doing nothing but feeling pure miserableness. I had no one to talk to. Everyone around me hated me. They only pretended to be nice because they had to.
Sighing, I turned on my bed for the thousand time as some songs where playing on my phone. Amnesia came on and I wished I really had amnesia when I had my accident.
Maybe that way, I would have a clean start and learn how to be a decent person, not that annoy, clingy brat I am now.
Hearing my message tune coming from my phone, I lazily turned to my side to grab my phone, hoping it was Zayn but my hopes were false as I read Seif’s name on my screen.
‘Why is E.T short for?... Because he had short legs :p’
It took me a second to get what he was talking about before I laughed at how silly that joke was.
Just as I was typing my reply to him, telling him how lame he was, I got another text.
‘Ali just told me this joke. Hope that made you smile a little. ;)’
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A/N
Hey guys. A fast one?
Don’t this is my way of making it you to you guys but I don’t know if I can keep it up.. :(
I’ll try my best tho. Lots of love xx~Marwaa.