What do you see when you look into my eyes?
A freak, a loner, a failure, a nameless being?
Or maybe another face in the nameless sea of people?
What do I see when I look at myself in the mirror?
I see pain, tears and fake smiles
I see a lost and angry broken boy
Who doesn't know who he is anymore
Crying, screaming in agonising pain
I feel the scars on my heart, on my soul
Tearing me apart from the inside
And I think back to a time when I was truly alone
An outcast, wondering the streets at night
The sky was dark and stormy
With the cold rain falling down on me
It was like the sky was crying
All the tears I was so afraid to shed myself
That was a long time ago
But it feels like it was just yesterday
'Cause I can feel the sharpness of the pain
Upon my heart and soul
And I wonder if life is meant to be more than this
This planet; this city; these people; these feelings
I am like a caged animal
Locked in with no hope to escape
I scream, punch, kick, scream, cry
But no one even hears me
So I stand alone on my path like always
With a broken heart, a broken mind and a broken soul
But still I struggle on so that someday
Maybe I could see beyond this depressing world
Of anger, loneliness, darkness and pain
And see beyond the world of optimism
Of peace, love, life and happiness
So here I stand with a fake smile on my face
Even though I'm falling apart on the inside
I will continue to laugh and smile like it never hurts
And I will survive; survive till tomorrow
So this pain that has been with me all my life
So this tragic nightmare will be gone out of my life
And exist no more; and I'll finally be... Alive.