Luke: I miss you Calum.
Luke: I miss you so fucking much.
Luke: I've just been laying in our bed. I havnt been eating or sleeping. The boys are worried about me. But I don't care.
Luke: and I also know that texting you is pretty much useless.
Luke: you won't text back. You will never text me back.
Luke: the boys miss you too.
Luke: the day of your funeral we all cried for hours on the couch.
Luke: the fans miss you too.
Luke: for a week now #wemissyoucalum has been trending
Luke: I've been staying of twitter though.
Luke: everyone ask me if I'm okay and honestly I'm not.
Luke: I will never be okay again. Not without you Calum.
Luke: and I hate you so much. I hate you so much for leaving me here
Luke: I could have helped you. I could have saved you. Why didn't you come to me ?
Luke: I hate myself for not seeing how broken you were.
Luke: I thought you were fine. I didn't even notice you were suffering.
Luke: I know if you were here you would tell me how "none of this is your fault" and "don't worry about me I'm fine"
Luke: but guess what
Luke: you're not here and you were never fine
Luke: I wish I could just wake up with amnesia.
Luke: you remember that song? We wrote it together
Luke: after we had our little fight.
Luke: I wish I could wake up with amnesia and forget about the stupid little thing.
Luke: I wish I could wake up and have you here next to me Calum.
Luke: You're the one dead but I feel like I'm dead too
Luke: without you whats the point in living?
Luke: I'll never be able to marry you, adopt kids with you, I'll be alone for the rest of my life.
Luke: I just want it all to go away.
Luke: I hate you so much for making me do this Calum.
Luke: if you were still alive everything would be fine. I could have helped you and we would of had the perfect like we always dreamed of.
Luke: I don't want to follow in your footsteps but I need to see you again.
Luke: I want to be with you.
Luke: maybe we could have the prefect life we always did dream about now.
Luke: I'm doing this for is Calum.
Luke: I don't care if this isnt what you want, what you intended to do, but you can't take it back now.
Luke: I love you so much Calum, so fucking much.
Luke: I will see you soon my love. xx
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