Stillness. The world was filled with stillness in that moment. The rained had stoped pouring. Cars stopped beeping. The lights had dimmed. Everything was lifeless except for to things, my heartbeat and his.
Now, with his gun aimed between my eyes, I feel gutted down to my very core. Was this it? Was this how it all ended? My life has come to its final chapter by the love of my life, who now stares into me but hatred.
I held my hands, out in a sort of surrender. My lips parted as I tried to mutter out an apology or some sort of explanation. No sound came from me
for he had shot his gun.
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Laughter came barreling down the halls along with the two of us. We were children once, a long time ago. I tried to catch him, only falling a few feet behind. His caps only a few inches from my fingers. Our giggles echoed down the hall as we flashed by a few of the league members. I'm sure they had rolled their eyes at our antics.
Today was the two year anniversary of the Junior Justice League. Due to the excitement of everyone on the team, our mentors decided to throw us a party in honor of the team. Jason and I had only joined the league a little over six months ago. When Dick finally grew out of the red suit, that's when Batman recruited Jason. My mentor, Batwoman, forced me to join the team alongside him. Of course being the two most problematic ones on the team, we hit it off right away.
Speaking of problematic, the sounds of to thumps echoed through the hall. When Jason came to a sudden half, I fell into him. We both laid on the floor groaning for a second before we turned to each other. It only took a few seconds before our small giggles turned into bursts of laughter. We just laid there, laughing, the whole world to ourselves.
That was before we heard a sudden cough, bringing our attention upwards. There stood our two mentors. The dark knight himself looked over us, his face stoke with his lips turned downwards. The other let a small smirk spread on her lips as she popped her hip out.
Faster than Kid Flash, we sprang up from the ground looking at each of our mentors. Robin scratched the back of his neck. I shrugged my shoulders with an embarrassed smile.
"You two are lucky today is your day off. If this were during any other time, you both would be on mission probation with nothing to do except to clean the whole batcave. What you two are doing is completely irrespons-"
"What Bruce means is that your off the hook this time, but don't make this a habit. Now run along, the rest of the teams been looking for you two." Kate said with a chuckle before shooing is away. Bruce muttered something towards her before stalking off. With Jason and I sharing one last look I gave myself a head start and started running. I heard a "hey" as he began to chase after me.
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When my mother, Maggie Sawyer, found out what I was doing with my evenings for the past year, let's just say her absolute rage was an understatement. She broke up with Kate, burned my suit, and banned all communication with any member of the batfamily. My mother has always accepted heroes, but she never wanted her own daughter to become one.
So what do you do when your mother has gone haywire and has put the house on lockdown? You hack the security system and sneak the hell out.
'rooftop. Pop's Diner. 11 pm' I hit send then slid my phone into my back pocket. I quickly grabbed a thin jacket and slid on my boots before jumping out the window.
I got to the rooftop at 10:45 pm. Sheltered in the silence, I closed my eyes and basked under the stars. Before I knew it someone kicked me in the side.
"Time for dreamin's done (N/N)." He lended me a hand up. Taking notice to my lack of uniform and weapons he gave me a weird look.
"My mom found out about my night job. She burned all my stuff."I frowned for a moment. My eyes began to tear up at the thoughts that began to brew. I'm not allowed to see Jason. If my mom has everything her way, I'll forget about everything in the next month. Jay's my world though.
My sadness grew to anger as my thoughts became more hostile. Soon odds were spilling out of my mouth before a second thought. It was only when Jason places a hand on my shoulder did I finally take a breath.
He reached down into his back pocket before he nudged me. I see a box of cigarettes in his hand. I give him a knowing look. We stole this pack a while back during a convenience store robbery.
And they say we're the good guys.
I held my hand out as he places one in my hand. I go to sit on the ledge of the building, looking out over a tranquil Gotham night. We both began to smoke our cigarettes, just taking in each other's presence. No words needed to be said.
I couldn't tell how long it's been. I must have spaced out because Jason began to nudge me. I move a little closer to him, touching shoulder to shoulder.
"Maybe this will be a good thing." He flashed a sad smile. "You can actually focus on fixing your own life, not a whole city. Especially one that never repays you in anyway." His voice dropped off by the end of the sentence.
"Jay, I don't want to leave you." I move my hand up to remove his mask. He cups my hands and guides them. He smiles at me. I just stare into his beautiful eyes.
And for the moment it was just us. My focus went down to his hands which still gently held mine. Carefully, he removes his one hand to guide my head to face him. As if the world was pushing us together, our faces slowly moved closer to each other until I could feel his breathing. It only took seconds for the gap to close, giving us our long awaited closure. He moved his hands back down to mine. All was still. All was calm, and all I heard was my heartbeat and his.
He pulled away slightly before whispering
"You're never losing me."
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After my official resignation from the junior justice league, I began to focus more on my academics. I would still visit Jay, my boyfriend of two years, at night whenever we got the chance. Of course there would be an occasional member of the bat clan spy on us, but they were all extremely good at keeping a secret.
One night I was staying up late to work on some chem. homework. I was pulled away from the paper when my phone buzzed. I looked down to see a text from Jason.
'I'll have to take a raincheck on our date tonight babe. We got a lead on something the Joker's been planning for months.'
'It's okay. Stay safe and call me as soon as your done.'
Sadly, I never received that call.
Instead, I received Kate Cane in the flesh knocking at our door. Of course, my mother was obviously very angered by this. After a short exchange of words and a few gasped, my mother called me downstairs. My mother basically shoved me out the door, stating that Kate had some urgent news.
"Kate, what's happening? I'm kinda a little rusty if your recruiting me for a mission or something?" I try to get a laugh, but a frown remains on her face as she continues to walk at a fast speed. My mood immediately switched when I realized there was no time for joking around.
We ended up at the Wayne Manor in no time. It had been forever since I had been inside. That mansion was never dirty, no spec of dust insight. Alfred always was a perfectionist. There would always be some sort of caos between Dick, Jason's brother, and himself. So it was quite odd when I stepped in and the surfaces hadn't been dusted. When we walked by the kitchen the dirty dishes were piling up and the counters weren't shining with cleanliness. The living room looked the worst, for three men sat in the middle on the couches. They stared aimlessly in different directions, all of them with heavy bags under their eyes. They slowly shifted their sight towards me and Kate before motioning to is to sit down.
I sat on the opposite sides of the men. Bruce was the first to speak.
"Did you tell her anything Kathrine?" She simply shook her head. Mr. Wayne rubbed his face, as if to try and wipe away the dullness in his eyes.
"(Y/N), this is about Jason." Dick looked me dead in the eyes before slouching forward, as if he was about to collapse at any moment.
"What's wrong with Jason? Is he okay? What happened? Where is he?" I jumped up, my heart dropping down to my stomach. Tears welled in my eyes.
"Jason......Jason is dead."
———
Stillness. The world was filled with stillness in this moment.
He shot his gun.
It shot right past my head into the wall behind me.
"Jason?" I took a step closer, seeing how he would react. When he didn't move, I took a few more steps still I was right in front of the barrel. Slowly, as to nor startle him. I place my hand on his and lower his arm. He seemed to stay mute, not leaping to attack. I called out his name again.
"Jason? Is that really you?" I put my hands on either side of his head. He growled at me before smacking my hands away.
"You betrayed me." He said, a sharp edge to his words. I took a few steps back from him and prepared myself for any sudden movements. I was caught off guard with what he said next.
"You work for Joker now?"
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Um wow hi. its been like two years. so I guess I'll update y'all on a few things.
I go to a performing art school now, for musical theatre.
I have a girlfriend, we've been dating for three months and it's going really well.
I may or may not start posting again. Maybe in a new one shot book. Idk what do you guys thins?
so ya it's good to be back
~Mara