Cause I felt it was incomplete and Jenshad deserves a happy ending
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I watched as he walked out of the gate shaking his hair with his fingers . I looked away as I was tagged along by Karan and Naihal into their car.
I don't have much to stay
His voice ringing in my ear as the car started. My heart felt heavy as I watched his car drove another way.
"Everything alright Jenny?" Naihal asked me smiling and for the first time I thought, no its not alright. But I didnt say it, nor can I lie to her, so the next best thing was to nod. And that's what I did before resting my head back.
We were in an SUV all packed up going back to my place, because well it was either Naihal's or mine. And since it was near and everyone wanted to meet Breezer, we decided on mine.
I closed my eyes blocking all the noise around me and replayed the entire evening. His words, his smile, it wasn't genuine. And the thought of him not enjoying the evening was not okay for me.
His smile flashed infront of my eyes as he lowered his camera after taking my picture. I had him take couple with all of my girls and he had generously accepted, while all the other boys had stayed cleared. Next I saw him joking with Naihal, Sehban and Ameeta , grinning. My eyes furrowed as I couldn't remember a single time he laughed.
Then his gaze flashed infront of my closed eyelids. The way he had looked at Karan's hand holding mine. I couldn't help but hope that, what I saw is true. Was he jealous? Was he affected?
God knows how badly I wanted that.
As I walked inside my apartment with all my friends bantering about, my eyes searched him although knowing he is not here.
I took the glass given to me by Naihal thanking her as everyone settled down now playing with Breezer, the star of the house.
Although, he loved playing with Harshad more, I thought wishing for him to be there. He would have been so escatic to see Bree and even Bree too. But he is not here.
He left
He left because he felt not wanted.
The words made my breathe stuck in my throat. I slammed my palm on my chest trying to breath properly as the realization made me physically shake.
His downcasted eyes, those eyes boring into mine as he said those parting words before walking away to the way he was so quite during the entire evening, everything flashed infront of me.
As Aniruddh walked pass me I caught his hand halting him midstep. He gave me a questioning look as I pushed my unused glass in his hand while saying "I have to go"
And before he or anyone can question I ran out, with only my keys and phone in hand.
I had to see him was all I could think about as the lift went down.
His place was not that far and I reached in mere five minutes.
Getting out of the car I looked up eyeing the tall complex building before entering inside.
I can't believe I let him down
As the lift went up I couldn't help but think about what I will say. On one hand my heart was beating wildly for meeting him while on the other I couldn't help but be confused and doubt my actions.
What if it's not what I think it is ? What if he has some other plans and that's why he left early? What if he was tired and wanted to sleep in?
Before I could drive myself crazy with all these thoughts the lift dinged signalling his floor. I got out walking infront of his apartment.
All doubts piling up my brain with each step towards his door and I took a huge deep breathe after ringing the bell.
The site I was greeted to left me breathless. Unable to hold back I ignored his questioning look as my eyes trailed over his naked upper body, taking in him before looking back up at him as he opened the door all the way and stepped aside.
"What are you doing here?"he asked and I could hear the surprise, confusion and worry all together in his voice.
Any other day I would have smile by his concern for me but today I entered his dark flat with my own question.
"Why did you leave?"
I wanted to be happy as I watched my question had left him speechless but it only made my heart burn. He looked away scratching his head before smiling cutely at me "I - I was kind of sleepy"
A lie which any other day I would have believed if not for the sad smile that followed after. It was so fascinating to watch him hide his emotions when his face naturally can never lie. It was transparent and honest, just like him.
So I repeated wanting for him to answer me stepping towards him closing the door behind me.
He gulped before saying "I told you, it was getting late and I was tired"
"No, you weren't tired" I simply said taking hold of his hand. His calloused hand fitting right with mine.
"I was, it was an amazing party Jenny. It drained all my energy, so I - I, did you come here alone? What are you even doing here? You were all going to go out?"he started clearly trying to divert me.
"Yes I drove here and they all are at my place. But answer my question Harshad, did you not like my friends? Did someone say something to you? I know you were not tired and nor sleepy" worried he doesn't like my friends or my company. Maybe I shouldn't have come here after all.
"Everyone was nice Jenny, no one said anything-" he began and I didn't let him finish stepping more closer to him. The dim yellow light of the ceiling the only thing making his face visible.
"Then why would you walk away?! Why you didn't stay and come with us?! Why did you leave me like that alone?!" I threw all the question because if he is lying then he is hurt. And knowing he is hurt always pains me.
"You weren't alone. You had all your favorites there with you. It doesn't matter -"he stated, his voice hard making me confused for a second with his words. I took a step back as I remembered posting that photo he clicked of me with the guys.
I looked up at him and for the first time I could clearly see the pain in his eyes. I narrowed my eyes, my pain turning into anger as I let go of his arm harshly. He looked at me shocked not expecting this kind of reaction.
"It matters" I said fiercely, because it matters, matters more than he thinks. More than he ever know. He is what matters the most to me.
"Just because -" I started not believing he is going by a picture, a caption only for him to breathe harshly before he started
"I don't want you to justify. I -" but I stepped closer to him, our fronts brushing each other sending shivers down my body, cutting him off I said softly "You are much more than just my favorite"
Because he was, so so much more.
My eyes took him in as I trailed my fingers over his jawline as our eyes locked. His gaze intense making my heart hammer again. The sound of our ragged breathing more prominent than ever as I felt his skin, removing my gaze off him and focusing my attention on that subtle of his as I whispered before looking at him,not able to move my hand away
"Much much more"
There was a long pause as we stared into each other's eyes as my words sink in both of us, before he began curling his fingers around my waist, his touch making my breathe twitch
"Jen-"
"I was hoping they would like you and they do, both girls and boys. They say you're the most kindest and humble human being. I hope you liked them too, that you would enjoy spending time with all of us, with me and them" I blabbered wanting to know the reason he walked away, the reason he left. Wanting him to love my friends, my family so bad. I wanted everyone to see him the way he truly is. I wanted so much and I didn't hold back.
"It's not that I don't like them. I do. But I am not their friend -" he sighs shaking his head but I grab his arm that was around my waist harshly because no, he is friends with my friends too.
"You know Karan and Sehban since a long time. And Aniruddh and Naihal adore you -" he cuts me off shaking my hand away from his, the action hurting me more than the fire in his eyes
"Knowing and being friends is two different things Jenny! Its - that outing, it's not my scene. So I was uncomfortable and that's why I left. Thats it"
"Then you can make friends. They all are nice and fun lov-" I started wanting nothing more but for Harshad to be my side.
"Why do you want me to be their friend so bad?! Why do you always drag me to this?!" he shouts unable to hold himself, making me take a step back or two as he moves forward, my back slightly touching the door behind me.
"Because I want you there. With me. I want you to be a part of my life" I said, trying to gauge his reaction. It felt like I couldn't hold back anymore, it felt right to just tell him everything. So I did, I continued further seeing the change in his eyes
"And not just as my co-star"
"I am not fashionable. Not I am rich like you.... Or them. I am not high maintenance -" he started, his words hitting me and I realized this was the real reason. I shouldn't be surprised, knowing him I should have known he would think about this. But as I gazed into his troubled eyes my happiness bloomed inside me because of the fact that he did think about this, about my life and his.
"It doesn't matter" I stated because it was the truth and my chest tightened as he shook his head at that.
"It does. I don't do parties like that. I am a simple guy Jennifer. A normal, simple guy who happens to be an actor"
"I love simple" was my reply,honest just like him. I took his hand in mine both of us looking down at our hands and I know what he was thinking as I trailed my fingers on his before clasping his hand tightly in mine. Just like he had said before, it fits. I pulled him closer to me as I rested back on the door. He stumbled forward, his naked front touching my heaving chest. I looked up into his intense eyes as I continued, wanting him to understand "I don't want extravagant, fashionable or high maintenance things . Those are all temporary materialistic in life"
"What are you sayin-"he began and I cut him off tightening my hold on his hand and bringing it to my chest.
"I saw the way you looked when Karan grabbed my hand" as I said this, I could see the color in his eyes change. And I knew, it affected him more than I thought as his fingers clasped mine tightly. I continued, confessing to him for the first time how much I hated it "I would look the same if I see some girl tugging at you like that. Like the way Anchal does sometimes, makes my blood boil to be honest. Why she always need to cling to you like that? It's not friendly and nor it is profession-" he cut me off with confusion prominent in his voice.
"But you and Karan.....? I thought - How is that - " I cut him off before he can question anymore, answering all his questions by stepping on my toes and smashing my lips on his. I moved my lips on his still ones before pulling back and looked up at him whispering
"Does that answer your question"
"Jen" be breathed out, his other hand going to my waist and gripping it tightly making me moan fluttering my eyes closed. I placed my hands on his lean yet muscualer chest trailing the tips of my fingers around his nipple. I looked up at him from beneath my eyelashes as he pulled me practically on his chest.
"You have me to stay " I whispered and before I know it he slammed his lips on mine making me moan at the touch of his lips. I kissed him back just as passionately as he slammed me on the door behind. I run my hand through his soft hairs pulling him closer as I wrapped my leg around his waist. His hand slowly trailed down my thigh , grabbing it tightly as he pushed into me before pulling away as we both needed air. He pushed his forehead on mine as we tried to calm our breathing.
I gripped his neck tightly as we looked at each other. He smiled softly, his eyes darkening as they crinkled and I was done. He trailed his hand softly up my thigh , to my waist before resting there as he whispered, his voice hoarse "You drive me crazy"
"You do more, I basically ran to your place" I say right back making him chuckle our forehead still touching.
He cupped my cheek in his other arm as he pulled me into a soft kiss, not like the harsh and desperate one like before making me smile into it. This is the Harshad I know, always taking care of me. The kiss itself was the proof how much he wants me.
As we pulled apart, his hand moved down my chest to the collar of my dress. His fingers playing with my first button. I knew he was waiting for my permission as I looked up from his hand, his eyes blown all black with desire probably matching mine.
I bit my lip as we stared into each others eyes wanting this so very much. I nodded my head softly and gasped as he ripped all the buttons, all at once holding my both lapel in each hand. I looked up at him in shock, god he was hot, only to find him staring right into mine.
My eyes fluttered as I moaned at his touch on my bare waist. My fingers curling on his shoulder. He trailed his other hand from my neck, slowly down my breast cupping it softly, adding just the right pressure making me moan louder than before. I bit my lips opening my eyes as he whispered "I wanted to do this the moment I saw you in this dress"
I pushed myself closer to him pulling him into a passionate kiss. Our lips moving against each other slowly, taking time as we discovered each other again. He bite my lower lip making me gasp a little before running his tongue on it and then dipped it inside. Our tongues dancing with each other as we explored each others mouth. His hands holding me to him, our chest smashed together and I knew this is were I want to be for forever.
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I am fucking proud of this ❣️