I feel so sad and unmotivated and I've just had so many thoughts recently about killing my online me and just dropping everything and going away and making another account but not saying it's me... I'm getting so stressed and anxious because-- I know it's not true somewhere-- but I'm just sitting at my bed thinking most of the time, "Everyone hates me. Oh, god, remember that mistake you made in a chapter last year? I bet everyone still judges you for that. The only reason people talk and tolerate you is because you're just sad and everyone feels bad for someone so depressing so they talk to you just so you won't kill yourself and spend all night crying and drawing your crappy, half arsed fanart that you need a reference for because you can't even make a fucking picture of Sherlock by memory." I'm ranting. I'm sorry. Don't expect this account to run for more and more years, please. I won't be able to handle your disappointment. I'm sorry I'm not writing more stories. I shouldn't have become a writer if I'm not going to be able to make stories. I'm not even sure if I can write Despite Not Going anymore. I'm sorry. And I'm so shitty for bringing in a friend and hyping them up about it only to stop and let my mental state take over me, but I know that friend will probably not mind, because she is amazing and one of the reasons why I'm not inactive yet... I'm sorry. I'm not even motivated to write a real story here... so deal with texts... sorry...
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SHERLOCCK! JW
What? SH
I'm pregenant! Your gonna be a daddy! JW
... SH
Hahaha. April jokes! Gotcha JW
Oh, April Fools... But you're still a male. A probably drunk one. SH
I've just had a bit... Stop deducting me over the phone. JW
Mhm. SH
Deducing** SH
Go to sleep, John. SH
Drink some water. SH
WHHHAtah! JW
Put the wine away and wait for me to get home. I'll send Mrs Hudson to check on you if you're not going to settle down, John. SH
Chill, Babe. I'm just laying on the floor. JW
The floor, John? Get off the floor. SH
Go watch telly. SH
I like that Doctor Weird movie. The guy looks a lot like you. Very handsome cheekbones and a cute smile... JW
Yes, John, Dr Strange looks a lot like me. Turn on the TV, go to Netflix, and search it up. SH
ALright love. JW
Which one? Is it??? JW
(Picture sent)
It's the first one, John. SH
I like the one under it. JW
Because it has us on the cover. SH
Now just settle down and go to sleep. I'll be there soon. SH
Okie dokes. Love youuuuu. :D JW
Love you, too... SH