Based on S8E10
Logan's POV
Dad, Michonne and I were standing right where we buried Carl.
I was crying a little but I managed to wipe my tears away when Michonne came up to me.
Dad put Carl's gun on his grave and then changed his mind and took it off. I walked up to Carl's grave and I started singing just like he told me to do while we were spending his last minutes together.
{this song is from my little pony On my Own}
[I never imagined myself out on my own
Tryin' to find out what's next for me
The Grimes Twins have always been my home
Maybe now there's more that I could be
I guess as time goes by
Everybody has to go out on their own
And maybe someday I'll have to try
Somethin' new that's just for me
A little somethin' that could be
Just my own and I won't feel so left behind
We used to say that we'd be always side by side
Now things are changin' and this really means goodbye
I always thought our friendship was all I'd ever need
We've always been crusadin' – what else is there for me?
I guess as time goes by
Everybody has to go out on their own
And maybe someday I'll have to try
Somethin' new that's just for me
A little somethin' that could be
Just my own and I won't feel so left behind]
I cried more and then we had to get going.
We killed some walkers off and we went into the house. Michonne looked over at the corner of our porch and saw the hand prints Carl, Judith and I made.
Michonne cried a little bit.
I walked in the house and I looked at Carl's room. I looked at the closet door and saw all the misses we both made trying to practice our aim. I touched my gauze on my missing eye. I teared up again when I knew I was alone at the pain of one eye.
I looked downstairs and saw Michonne and dad talking.
"Logan!" Rick called.
"We need to get going"
I grabbed all the stuff that would remind me of Carl.
We walked out to the van.
I got in the van. Michonne looked at the gazebo
It was still burning.
"He use to sit on the roof" Michonne said.
"We need to get going" Rick said.
Michonne grabbed a fire extinguisher and dad followed her.
Walkers kept coming and I got my gun out just in case.
Michonne and Dad got to the van.
I looked at the gazebo and the sign of Alexandria. I looked out the window.
I was playing with Carl's holster dad gave to me.
Dad was looking and said "what do you think he meant? He wanted us to stop fighting the saviors? Just surrender to Negan?"
I looked up from playing with Carl's holster.
"We can pull over and read..." michonne said
"Carl? No not me." Rick said.
"Rick. Carl.. he wrote a letter out to Negan" michonne said.
"I need to talk to Jadis" Rick said.
I went back to playing with my holster to make it look like I wasn't engaging the conversation.
Michonne saw me look down.
"Logan?" Michonne called.
"Yes" I said.
"Did you know? He wrote one to" michonne said.
"To Negan? Yes" I said.
Michonne looked at me.
"Logan you can't keep secrets" Rick said.
"Can I ask you something?" Michonne asked.
"Sure" I said.
"What did Carl mean when he said you made a pact" Michonne said.
I didn't want to talk about it so I tried to avoid the question.
"Ok dad pull the car over..." I said.
Dad pulled the car over.
"Logan I know.." Rick said but I interrupted him.
"Dad I just need a minute" I said.
"Logan" Rick said but I yelled.
"DAD I NEED A MINUTE!" I yelled and I got out the van and slammed the car door.
Ricks POV
"Some father can't even talk to my own daughter now" I said.
"Don't you think this is harder on her than you?" Michonne asked.
"I don't know she's been closed book with me since she saw Glenn and Abraham get bashed on the head" I said.
"You're right I mean she's a girl. Boys are different. you can't make her talk to you she's got to do it on her own terms" Michonne said.
"I know I just feel bad I mean I can't bring her brother back. She's probably worried sick about Judith." I said.
We saw Logan coming back.
"Logan" I said.
"Dad just go to Jadis ok?" Logan asked.
We drove off to the junkyard people.
When we arrived I had Logan stay in the van not risking my daughters life.
Logan's POV
While dad and Michonne were at the Junkyard. I read my note to Carl.
Dear Logan,
I remember when we would wear the same boy clothes you always wanted to be a boy due to the fact that Logan is more of a boy name. I always remember when mom and dad tells us to not bring snacks in our room but we did it anyway. I never been so lucky to have you as a twin and I'm So sorry for what happened. I know I can't change the clock. I want to tell you even if you heard it before I died but you're the bravest Grimes child in the family. It wasn't me. I was following your lead when you thought you were following mine.
Never forget to do what's right just like what mom said.
Remember to tell Judith everyday how awesome of a brother I was. And don't go do anything stupid like we did. I don't want the same thing to happen to you. You need to be there for Judith. And try not to be the hostile girl you are. Be the sweet and gentle twin sister I know.
Always look to the sun and sing your heart out when you are sad you will always see me. I love you so much Logan Olivia Grimes.
Love Carl your twin brother.
Michonne and Dad came back. And drove off.
Michonne looked annoyed with my father.
"I shot above her head.I just wanted her gone." Rick said.
"Like you did to Siddiq?" I asked.
"Look, I saw her.She made it.
She ran into an empty alley just before I left.
I didn't want her dead.I just wanted her gone." Rick said.
"Feels like what Carl was talking about." I said.
"What we should do when we have a choice." Michonne said.
Dad pulled the car over.
"Uh Um I need a se I need a second." Rick said.
"It's fine. I will try to get Logan to come out" michonne said.
Dad got out of the car and went on to the field.
Michonnes POV
"So you read your letter Carl made for you?" I asked.
Logan sighed. "Yes basically said the same things in case he wasn't able to" Logan said.
"I know you were a little touchy with the subject but can you tell me the pact Carl was talking about? I asked.
Logan was getting glassy. "You can't tell dad. So Carl and I thought dad was dead so when mom and Shane took us to safety we made a pact that we wouldn't fight and that we live in this world together or we die in this world together." Logan said.
"What were you thinking Logan?" I asked.
"I was only 11 and Judith wasn't born yet or I didn't even know I was having a little sister yet when we made that pact." Logan said. Tears were running down her face.
"Logan did you make more?" I asked.
"Yes we broke this pact we made when we were eleven years old and the first pact to keep doing what I am doing and the second pact was to tell Judith about Carl everyday." Logan said.
"Well I'm glad you told me" I said. "Why don't you see if you're dad is ok" I said.
Logan got out the van.
Ricks POV
I was in the field and I read the letter that Carl wrote to Negan.
"Get me Negan." I said.
"Who the hell is asking?" Someone asked.
"It's Rick Grimes." I said.
"Ricky.Look at you, callin' me up.
You wanna tell me where you are so we can do this face-to-face?" Negan asked.
"Carl's dead.He wrote letters.He wrote one to you.
He asked you to stop.He asked me to stop.
He asked us for peace.But it's too late for that.
Even if we wanted a deal now, it doesn't matter.
I'm gonna kill you." I said.
"How did it happen?" Negan asked.
"What?" I asked.
"How did he die? Was it us? Was it the grenades? The fire?" Negan asked.
"It wasn't you.Carl and Logan went out to help someone.And he got bit." I said.
"God damn it.Shit.
I, um I am sorry.You know, I wanted him to be part of things.I had plans.
He and the twin sister Those kids Those Twins were the future. How is Logan holding up?" Negan asked.
"Logan is just fine! The only future is one where you're dead." I said.
"What the hell are you doing, Rick? Why are you fighting? Why are you making this so hard? Carl is dead because of you.Because you couldn't leave shit well enough alone.
I mean, hell, maybe he woulda died some other way.
Any one of us can get our ticket punched at any second.
but in this case in this case he is dead because of you.
Because you weren't there to stop him or your daughter from doing something stupid.
You set this course, Rick.
Who's next?" Negan asked.
" You are." I said.
"No.But someone is.You see, I stop people from dying.I am the answer.
Now, it may have taken a hard lesson for you to hear it, but you should hear it now.
It's time.
Do not let any more of your shit decisions cost you to lose anyone else you love.
That garbage that sticks with you.
Forever.Just like Carl will.
Hell, I'm feeling it.
And I'm gonna be feeling it for a while.
You could have just let me save all of you.
I mean, that's why I killed your friends in the first place.
So, you can sit there and you can say that you're gonna kill me, but you won't.
You failed.
You failed as a leader, and most of all, Rick, you failed as a father.
Just give up.
Give up, because you have already lost." Negan said.
I turned around and I saw Logan.
"Dad?" Logan called.
"Logan how long have you been standing there?" I asked.
"I CANT BELIEVE YOU!" Logan yelled running back to the van.
I sighed I was convinced that I did fail as a father.
I ran after Logan.
"LOGAN COME BACK!" I yelled.