Screwed...
Demi cancelled her show following what happened. The male was charged with murder and our security locked down on us. That's all that really came from the shooting, no reason why. Oh, and Demi and I are dating which is great. We've been great, happier, a lot more loving. I have locked myself away in the studio for so long, it's scary. Demi and I worked on a little something together called PYNK. It's pretty good, although I don't think we're gonna release it. I've been asked to perform two songs at the Billboard Music Awards. I haven't decided if I'm going too because I just I love singing and producing but i dont know the idea of performing because I hate the lifestyle of fame. "Babe. What do you think of this song I wrote with Janelle" I ask, knowing it's Demi coming into the studio. She drapes her arms over my shoulders...
See, if everything is sex
Except sex, which is power
You know power is just sex
You screw me and I'll screw you too
Everything is sex...
I feel her kiss my cheek as she listens to it "I love that, I really do" I hear her say, I thank her "I was thinking" Demi says, I look at her "Maybe we could perform PYNK at the BBMA's" She states, I sigh "I know you don't want to be in that lifestyle but baby, you have such an amazing talent it'd be a shame if you didn't pursue it. I'll be right next to you the whole time" She explains, I again sigh... Do I? Don't I? That's all that runs through my head "Okay, fine as long as I get to decide the stage" I say, she claps and nods "Deal!" She says. She pecks my lips and moves my hair to the side. I shake my head so it falls back over my scars. She moves it back again "They're beautiful" She states kissing the bullet scars. "We have 3 weeks so we should perhaps start some ideas for the stage though" I say, she nods and she sits next to the mixing desk "I was thinking perhaps a bed, considering the song is about sex and we both end up on it at the end" I say, Demi smiles "I dig that. Throughout it, it should be just us indulged in the song and each other, a little about our love story, you know?" Demi states, I smile "I love that. For the outfits, I was kinda thinking lingerie, with silk see through robes and heels" I say "Like the one I wore on your birthday?" She asks, I nod "Exactly like that but maybe Pink and White. Obviously you wear pink and I wear white or visa versa" I say, Demi nods "I like the pink idea for me. You also are performing Crazy, Classic, Love" Demi states I nod "For that, I need a mixture of male and female dancers. Chairs, for the choreography. I'm thinking of asking JoJo to help with the choreography and Vanessa is 100% a dancer for this song" I say, Demi chuckles "I like this. I'm glad you agreed to this baby" She smiles "I'm gonna go into the booth, record it for me" I say, Demi nods and sits in my chair... I record a song called Get Like.
One Week Later.
The BBMA's are closer than ever, Demi and I have rehearsed none stop and it's coming together slowly. I finally released Call Out My Name. In the end The Weeknd sang on Hurt You rather than this track. Today is my first performance of it, despite me not wanting this fame life I feel I should at least promote my first single. I have an interview with James Corden and the performance, I'm pretty nervous and to add insult to injury Demi can't make it to this either, she's busy with her own musical stuff, which I understand.
I post an Instagram post informing people where I am and for my performance. Soon enough I see Demi's liked and commented on it:
I like her comment before Marissa tells me it's time to go on stage. I brace myself drinking the last bit of water before walking towards the stage.
James Corden.
"Good Evening Ladies and Gentlemen please welcome Sophia Parker" I hear the claps and squeal as I walk out. I smile and hug James before sitting down "Good evening. It's great to finally meet you" James states, I smile "It's lovely to be here" I say. "So you recently came out with a single called Call Out My Name, am I right?" He asks "I did, yeah" I say proudly "Can you talk is through the process" He asks, I nod "My parents taught me to write songs years ago but I never took it up until I lost my girlfriend, Paris. I wrote a few songs then but following my breakup in my recent relationship I kind of depended on music and song writing until I got this song and a few more. I've practically wrote 2 albums worth but I'm only releasing so many" I explain, he nods "Talking about Paris, are we okay to talk about her?" He asks, I nod "So can you give anyone any advice for grieving over a girlfriend or loved one?" He asks "I'd definitely say do it your own way, remember them in a way only you'd understand. With Paris I honour her by continuing to run the charity we built together. Little things. If you find someone who makes you feel the same love and happiness the loved one gave you, don't deny it. I did for so long and when I accepted it, it felt amazing. You often think people can't love you as much as that person did but trust me people do. I never realised it" I say smiling as I kind of drop Demi in there. He smiles "May we also speak about Miss Lovato?" He asks, I start laughing "Are you and Demi dating again? This picture states you are but we want a confirmation" He asks, I chuckle "You know we're good. She's great,
I'm great. We're good" I say, not confirming anything, he nods "There's not more much to say" I smirk, he laughs but becomes serious "Pardon my ignorance but fans have asked me to ask you if it's weird dating someone with mental health" He asks, I frown "Not at all. Demi and I have a great understanding of each other, if I feel she needs or tells me she wants space I'll give it to her and visa versa. We give each other that space before solving the problem. We communicate great" I say "What about if one of you has a bad day, Demi mentioned in an interview how you helped her with eating" He asks, I nod "Again referring back to the communication thing, we communicate. We learnt very early on in our relationship that we are both very closed people and in order for our relationship to work we need to open up, so we set the cards down and that's how we've been ever since. I like to know if Demi's okay before I give her the space and I always keep my eye on her if she's close by, just for my instinct. Normally our space is not talking for 20/30 minutes" I say, he smirks at me "I feel that's definitely the best way to go about a relationship and thanks for the confirmation" He smiles, I raise my eyebrows and laugh "It's okay" I laugh "but for real, we're finding each other again. What happened between Demi and I changed us as people and as a couple and we're just regaining that trust within each other and just being happy" I gush "Is Call Out My Name about Demi?" He asks bluntly "Some aspects. 'Why can't you wait till I fall out of love with you' is definitely about our relationship and obviously we both helped each other out of broken places" I explain "If Demi had fallen out of love with you or visa versa, do you think this would've still been a song?" He asks me "I think it would've yeah. I was hurt from what she did and she was hurt from how I reacted and what I said, this song and Hurt You, pretty much justifies the whole time. I thought I had fallen out of love with Demi. At the time I wanted to fall out of love, but it's Demi Lovato, come on. Have you seen her?" I say again gushing about my girlfriend whilst looking at the bathing suit pictures she recently posted. He smile at me as the pictures disappear "Thank you for joining us. You can see some on screen chemistry in 2 weeks as Demi and Sophia make their debut with their song PYNK but right now here's Sophia Parker for her debut performance with Call Out My Name" He welcomes me back as I had to get my in-ears put in....
End Of James Corden.
I finish the song and a few tears fall down my face, I smile and wave before the curtains drawn and I'm taken backstage. I smile and the second I hit the dressing room Demi FaceTimes me "Baby!!!" I hear her say, I smile as her face appears on the screen "Hi, D" I say "I told you, you'd do amazing. I'm so proud of you" She beams "I know, thank you baby" I smile at her "Where are you?" She asks "I'm just leaving the studios now and then I'm going home, Rissa is here but shes driving my home and then she's going to her friends" I say a small smirk appearing on my face, she kind catches onto what I'm saying "And your parents?" She asks, I notice her smile getting bigger "Out until tomorrow" I state, she grins "I'll meet you at your house... I have something to show you" She says lowering the camera and showing a little bit of lace, I gulp a little luckily I have my headphones in "I'll see you then" I smirk "Bye baby" She says, I say goodbye before ending the call and rushing Marissa to take us home.
!Hey Guys!
I hope you enjoyed this chapter. I'm excited for Demi to perform Fall In Line with Christina May 20th. Demi has so many things coming up this year. I'm excited for her.
I meet Demi in 35 days, I'm so nervous but excited.
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