Chapter 57
"Kellin, look how pretty this is! Isn't it pretty?" Anna asked as she leaned her head onto my shoulder. I wrapped my arm around her shoulder.
"Not as pretty as you." I mumble, kissing the top of her head. She giggles and blushes.
"You're so cheesy." She giggles, poking my side. I smile and shrug softly.
"Eh. I guess I am."
Anna and I were walking down a snow covered trail in the park. The ground was covered in snow and it was still falling. Anthony and Cody had started a snow ball fight with each other and Taylor had ran off saying he was meeting a friend here. Anna and I had just decided to go for a walk away from the others because neither of us really wanted to get involved in a snowball fight. Anna glanced up at me.
"So....Are you gonna tell me what happened earlier?" I sighed and glanced down at her. I guess I had too. I mean, I did say I would....I sighed again and nodded.
"I guess....I um....Look, this is gonna sound really crazy. Please don't judge me about it." She stops walking and turns to face me. I immediately wrapped my arms around her waist. She puts her hands on my chest, leaning into me. Her hands were cold. I could tell they were despite the gloves she was wearing and the sweater I was wearing.
"Babe you know I won't." I slowly nodded, looking down at my snow covered shoes.
"Well.....I-I....When we were....um....you knowing...." I trail off awkwardly. Anna giggles and blushes, nodding. I laugh nervously. "Yea well....I-I...." Anna giggles and leans closer.
"Kellin, are you trying to tell me you had a boner or something?" I give her a confused look, slowly shaking my head.
"Uh...What's that?..." Anna's eye widen a bit and she giggles again, shaking her head.
"You're so innocent Kellin. I'll tell you what it is later, kay? Go on with what you were saying." I nodded again.
"I kept having these memories....."
"Like a flashback?" Anna asked, looking generally concerned. I shrugged.
"Uh....I guess....The only thing is I don't remember the memories. This is the first time something like this has happened." I glanced up at Anna. She slowly nodded and raised one of her hands to my cheek. Without thinking, I leaned into her touch.
"So....you're remembering something you don't remember?" I nodded.
"Well, maybe you had like, blocked out that memory. Like, on Adventure Time, how Finn puts some of his memories into the Vault. You could be doing that." I gave her a confused look. I didn't know what she was talking about, but I didn't question it. I just shrug.
"I don't know. I guess." She puts her head onto my chest.
"So this happened this morning when we?...." she asks, blushing a bit. I nodded. She looks up at me and pouts.
"But I enjoyed it." I couldn't help but to smile a bit, remembering what happened this morning.
"I did too. I was just really confused after it happened." Anna giggles.
"Well then," she pauses and stands on her tip toes, kissing me and then pulling back, "we'll have to do it again sometime." She giggles a winks at me. I pull her closer to me.
"Yea. I guess we'll have to. I think that would be nice." Anna smirks a bit.
"It shall be more than nice." She looks around then giggles. "We're alone." I look around too. She was right. We were in an isolated part of the park. Not many people come this far because there was no play equipment back here. Joggers and people usually run by here, but it was snowing. Most people don't go jogging when its snowing. I look back at Anna and smile.
"We are." She giggles and pecks my nose.
"Let's go find the others. We've been out here for hours. They're probably ready to go home." With that, she grabs my hand and start running down the trail. I smile and laugh, running after her. I tried to match her pace without falling on my face, but it was harder than it looked. Anna was like a squirrel who had just drunk two bottles of Monster. In simpler terms, she had a lot of energy. It was hard for me to keep up with her. I just laughed. Half way down the past, I saw a flash of black hair and neon clothing from behind some trees. I pulled on Anna's hand and stopped running.
"Hold up I think I see Taylor." She stops running.
"Let's go get him then!" She pulls me off to where I had some him. But it wasn't just him. There was someone else there too. I couldn't tell who it as because whoever it was had their hood pulled up, but I could tell it was a guy and that he was around Taylor's age. Taylor looked at us and nerviously smiled.
"Uh hi guys." Anna smiles at him.
"Hey Tay Tay. Who's your friend here." Taylor gabbed his thumb at him.
"Oh who? Him. He's ah....He's a friends from school. Uh...Austin. Yea Austin. This is Austin." I looked at Anna and raised my eyebrow a bit. She glanced at me and giggled. Taylor can't lie. At all. He's horable at it. I'm not very sure why he tries.
Anna and I probably should have asked him who the guy really was, but neither of us did. I just staid silent. Anna smiled.
"Well then, its nice to met you Austin." She looks over at Taylor. "Are you ready to go home?" He shrugs.
"Um sure. Just let me say bye to Dr-I mean Austin. Austin. Let me say bye to Austin. I'll met you guys at the gate." Anna giggle.
"Okay then. By Dr-I mean Austin." she says, mimicking Taylor. Taylor blushes and looks down. I felt Anna tighten her grip on my hand.
"Come on. Let's go find Cody and Anthony." I nod and look at Taylor and "Austin."
"Bye guys." Taylor waved, still looking down and blushing, and "Austin" nodded his head. With that, Anna went back to running, dragging me behind her. Once we were far enough away from them, she started walking.
"So, Taylor must've gotten himself a boyfriend." she says, leaning her head on to my shoulder. I wiggled my hand out of her's and wrapped it around her waist.
"Yea, I guess so. It's kinda weird that he's hiding it though." Anna shrugs.
"Maybe he's not out of the closet yet. I mean, he's young and coming out is a hard thing to do. It's really scary too. We live in a society were basically half of the population is okay with homosexuals and the other half think that if one gay couple gets married that the world will end." she said, looking up at me. "What do you think about it? I mean, do you think it's okay." I just shrug.
"I guess. I mean, I'm friends with three homosexuals. I don't think anything's wrong with it. To me, they should have the same rights as we do. I think they should be able to get married and adopt children and raise a family and all that stuff. It's like depriving them of what everyone should have if they can't do it." Anna nods slowly.
"Yea. Yea I agree. I don't understand why some Christians are starting riots about it. I mean, I know the Bible says that marriage is between a man and a woman but how many verses are there about divorce? I didn't see any Christians starting riots about that. And I mean, how many people in the church have divorces?" She takes a deep breath after saying that. I pull her closer to me and move my hand up and down her waist.
"Yea. That is true. I honestly think that if people could just set aside things like races and sexuality and treat everyone as equals, this world would be in better shape. I get so depressed while looking at the world and how it is and sometimes I just consider killing myself because I don't want to see how it'll be in the future...." I trail off, not sure if I should've said that. I didn't want to bring Anna down or anything. But we are a couple. I guess she should know how I feel. I was expecting her to say something about how she diesn't want to lose me, but she took me by surprise with what she said.
"Yea. I feel like that a lot too. And that's the thing with having kids. I want to have them, but I'm so scared on how this world will be as they grow up. I don't want my child having sex at fourteen because other people think it's cool or smoking weed for the heck of it. I don't want to let them out into the world. But at the same time I don't want them to be sheltered kids and all. Do you get what I'm saying?" I nod.
"Yea. I understand. But, really, it should be your kid's choice. I mean, you should tell them that they should wait and that weed may not be the best idea, but it's their choice in the end. When it comes to kids, you can only teach them right from wrong and hope they'll listen to you." Anna smiles and leans closer to me.
"Yea. You'd be a good Dad Kellin. I really think so. I don't know why, you just seem like you'd be a good parent." I look down at Anna.
"I think you'd be a good Mom." I really did think that. I had never really put much thought into having kids. Really the only thing that made me want to have kids was the fact that Mom always said she wanted grand kids. After Max's attempt, I was her only hope at having them. Now that she'd gone I guess I'll still have kids, in her memory. Who knows, maybe I'll have a little girl and name her after her. I always thought Melody was a nice name.
"What's wrong baby?" I look down at Anna. She was looking at me worriedly. I returned her look with a confused one.
"What?" Slowly, she reached up and wiped off a tear I hadn't noticed I had cried. Her hands felt like ice against my already frozen skin, but that touch still felt warm. Just having Anna touch me made me feel all warm and happy. I know that sounds stupid, but it was the only way I could describe it.
"Why were you crying?" Anna's voice shook me out of my thoughts. I gave her a small smile.
"It's nothing. I just started to think about Mom and yea..." Anna nodded and rested her head back on to my shoulder.
"Hey Kellin? Do you think your Mom would've liked me?" I couldn't help but to smile.
"Oh gosh yes. She would've loved you. She would've loved anyone who was willing to date me. Plus, you make me smile, you make me happy. She would've loved you even more if she saw me smiling around you. I can practically see her talking to you about how cute I was when I was a baby and telling you embarrassing stories about me." I say, somewhat sadly. I wish Mom was around to tell Anna things like that. Most guys wouldn't want their mother to say stuff like that, but I'd give anything to have her back to do exactly that. Anna giggles and pokes my side.
"What embarrassing stories do you have Mr. Austins?" I smile and shake my head.
"I don't believe I could ever tell those stories better than my mother, or any mother really." Anna pouts. She looked adorable when she did that.
"Then who's gonna tell me them?" I shrugged, still smiling.
"Maybe Max, if he ever wakes up...." Anna's pout goes away as she stares at me. I looked down and sighed heavily. I could feel Anna's arm arm wrapping around my waist, squeezing it softly.
"Hey Kellin?" I glance up at her. She gives me a small smile.
"How about we go and visit your Mom today? I'd love to met her." I give her a soft smile.
"Yea. Sure. I know she'd love to met you." Anna smiles ever more, kissing my cheek. She looks around and giggles, pointing off somewhere,
"Kellin, look over there." i looked to where she was pointing, only to see Cody and Anthony sitting on a bench together. Cody was sitting beside Anthony, leaning onto him and poking him. Anthony was just smiling and shaking his head. I looked at Anna, smiling at her.
"Wanna scare them?" She quickly nods, giggling.
"I'll get Anthony, you get Cody." I whisper, smirking softly. She nods and runs off. My side felt cold after she left. I wanted to pull her back to me, to get that warmth back, but I knew I couldn't. I'd just have to get it back later I guess.
I wasn't really sure how to scare Anthony. I wasn't good a scaring people. I didn't like doing it. I was always afraid that they'd get mad at me or something. But it's somehow different with Anthony. I knew how he'd react. He'd be okay with it,
Without really thinking it through, I ran to him and hugged him from behind with one arm. I was kinda pulling his neck to me and I'm sure it wasn't comfortable for him but oh well. He could get over it. He had his hand on my neck and was laughing, but he did jump a little. Anna's choice on scaring Cody was to jump on him while yelling "Meow!" Cody jumped and made Anna fall into the snow. She pouts up at him.
"Aww Cody you got me wet!" He smirks and winks at her.
"Sorry doll. I can't help that you're attracted to me." She rolls her eyes.
"You don't have to be so cocky, Cody." He shakes his head, shrugging a bit.
"No. No, I think I have to be." Anna rolls her eyes again and throws snow at him. I finally decided to let go of Anthony. He smiled at me, rubbing his neck.
"Thanks for not choking me." I shrug, walking to Anna and helping her up.
"No problem."
"HEY GUYS I'M HERE NOW." Taylor yells as he runs to us, jumping over the brnch and falling face first into the snow. He didn't move at first, hr just kinda aid there. After a few moments, he glanced up at me.
"Ow. I'm really cold now. Stupid snow. Anywho, are we going home?" Anthony nodded.
"Yea. We probably should. We need to help Kellin pack." he said with a bit of sadness in his voice. Cody nods.
"Oh yea. We do need to do that...You wanna go a head and do that Kellin?" I sighed and nodded. I think we all knew that was a lie though.