^^^^Cameron
Cameron's POV
"Yeah I've had some few parts but while I was in college I was casted as a lead 10 times in my sophomore year. I'm in multiple choirs and was told I wasn't good enough multiple times. That just makes me want to work harder and thrive more." I say.
"Well then show us what you got Cameron." Lin says. "Okay my audition song will be, Grenade." I say.
[Edit:I actually didn't know this was Anthony's audition song when I wrote this]
Easy come, easy go
That's just how you live
(Chorus)
I'd catch a grenade for ya
Throw my head on the blade for ya
I'd jump in front of a train for ya
You know I'd do anything for ya
Oh whoa oh
I would go through all this pain
Take a bullet straight through my brain
Yes I would die for you baby
But you won't do the same
No no no no
(End song cause I'm lazy)
"Okay very good we'll get back to you." He says. I smile and walk out towards the door grabbing my bag on the way.
I run into a body as I'm walking out. It knocks me to the floor. "Ow." I say rubbing my head.
"Oh my gosh I'm so sorry are you okay." Now of course I hit my head really hard and was super dizzy. But I put on my tough face because this was the guy I've wanted to meet for years. Anthony Ramos.
"Yeah I'm good. I gotta go." I say getting up and rushing away. I get into the car and burst into tears.
The first time I've cried in ten years. I've learned to bottle it all up and not get involved with boys. Because they always break your heart. But Anthony caught my eye.
I've recently moved to New York. I'm a theater geek. Like not a geek but I'm very good at acting and it's my passion. Besides singing.
I've got brown hair and my eyes always change color. I hear a knock on the window and am faced by the one and only Lin Manuel-Miranda. I quickly wipe away my tears and roll down the window.
"Hello?" I say questionably.
"Hi I saw you run out. I wanted to check if your okay. Are you?" He asks. I smile.
"I really don't know. Bottling up your feelings for 10 years is not good for your mental health." I laugh. He looks at me with sympathy.
"Wanna help me with the auditions, I mean I think I have a few people picked out. But I need other help." He asks.
"Sure." I say. I hope this will help cheer up my day.
"Alright thank you I'll see you soon." He says. And with that I leave. I really hope I get a part. While I walk to my car I see my ex and my ex-best friend making out. Gross. "Get a life bitch!!!" Haley yells at me. I flip her off.
1 week later (I'm writing him letters nightly)(sorry not sorry)
So we find out who gets the roles and I'm excited. I have a bad feeling that I will embarrass myself so I'm very nervous. I decide I'll dress nice but not too dressy. I decided that I would wear the outfit below.
At the stage
Lin had pinned up the results and they were right there.
Hamilton-Lin Manuel-Miranda
Eliza-Philippa Soo
Angelica-Renee Elise Goldsburry
John Laurens/Philip Hamilton- Anthony Ramos
Peggy/Maria Reynolds-Cameron Lorrings
Lafayette/Thomas Jefferson-Daveed Diggs
Hercules Mulligan/James Madison-Okieriete Onaodowan
King George lll-Jonathan Groff
I'm Peggy. That still means I'm on the set everyday. But I'm Peggy. "Hey Cameron, I was wondering if you were okay with your part. I mean you get what you get but are you?" Lin asked coming up behind me scaring the shit out of me.
"Sure." I say.
"Alright then tomorrow 7 am sharp." He says. And with that I walk out.
At her apartment.
"Hola Syd!!" I say petting my dog. She's a French bulldog.
"Hiya cutie." My boy best friend says. "Hi Simon." I say hugging him.
"How'd the audition go?" He asks. Now he's to put this easy he's gay. But he's great for who he is. I smile.
"I'm an good role it's great!!" I say starting to laugh.
"Well I wanna meet this guy let's go." He says. I laugh and nod.
"But he's really nice I don't wanna come off clingy." I sigh.
"Come on Cam!!" He says pulling me to my car. I get in the drivers seat and drive to the theater. It looks like everyone's gone. Thank god.
"I'm gonna go check it out." I say.
I walk in and all the lights are off. I climb onto the stage and feel a spotlight turn onto me. I think I was just imaging it but it felt so real. I take a deep breath in and smile. I felt like I was on a real stage with full crowd.
I saved every letter you wrote me
From the moment I read them
I knew you were mine
You said you were mine
I thought you were mine
Do you know what Angelica said
When we saw your first letter arrive
She said
"Be careful with that one, love
He will do what it takes to survive."
You and Your words flooded my senses
Your sentences left me defenseless
You built me palaces out of paragraphs
You built cathedrals
I'm re-reading the letters you wrote me
I'm searching and scanning for answers
In every line
For some kind of sign
And when you were mine
The world seemed to
Burn
Burn
You published the letters she wrote you
You told the whole world how you brought
This girl into our bed
In clearing your name, you have ruined our lives
Do you know what Angelica said
When she read what you'd done
She said
"You have married an Icarus
He has flown too close to the sun."
You and your words obsessed with your legacy
Your sentences border on senseless
And you are paranoid in every paragraph
How they perceive you
You,you,you....
I'm erasing myself from the narrative
Let future historians wonder how Eliza
Reacted when you broke her heart
You have torn it all apart
I'm watching it
Burn
Watching it Burn
The world has no right to my heart
The world has no place in our bed
They don't get to know what I said
I'm burning the memories
Burning the letters that might have redeemed you
You forfeit all rights to my heart
You forfeit the place in our bed
You sleep in your office instead
With only the memories
Of when you were mine
I hope that you burn
I finish strongly with a deep breath. That felt good. To just sing and let myself go. Suddenly, I heard a crowd applaud. What!? People were here. I see two figures walking toward the stage.
"Not bad." The guy I'd figured was Daveed said.
"I didn't know anyone was here." I say quietly.
"Don't be shy. We're complimenting you." Oak said laughing.
"Sorry I just I'm used to apologizing and being shy. Sorry." I say once again. Daveed laughs.
"You apologize a lot don't ya?" He asks. I smile.
"Yeah sorry." I say instantly catching myself. "Sorry I said sorry. Ahhh I can't stop myself." I laugh. They both laugh.
"You come here often then?" They ask me.
"Well I'm supposed to be looking for Lin but I can't he's so nice and my best friend is making me because I'm Peggy and he wanted to meet him. But I really don't mind and it's all just so stressful not to mention waking up early. I just don't even wanna be a part of this now. But all of my friends and family will be like 'that's not the Cameron we know she'd never give up' and all this pressure is just not my vibe ya know?" I ask.
They laugh. "So your names Cameron, and your Peggy?" Oak asks. I smile sadly and nod.
"You know waking up early isn't as bad as you think." Daveed says laughing.
"Suuuurrrrreeeee." I smile.
"So you'll be on set everyday?" They ask.
"I think." I say.
"Oh my gosh we can be besties on set!!!" Oak squeals. I laugh.
"Sure." I smile.
"We can always hang in each other dressing rooms. Oh and I'm pretty sure you get your own dressing room!!" Daveed says. I laugh.
"You guys really know how to cheer someone up." They smile.
"Well, we'll see ya around Cameron!" Oak says hugging me. I hug back then release. Daveed then hugs my and the process was the same. I walk back out to Simon and climb in the car.
"Drive." I smile.
[edit:it gets better. I promise]
Sorry im gonna do this book that's fun to write. Jasmine's gonna be in here but as Lin's wife so her and Anthony aren't together.