A/n: So I think I won't be doing any requests anymore. I feel really bad because a lot of the time I could only get to a few, or they get lost in my phone or deleted on here. Then I won't be able to remember what they commented or sent me, even if I have a list on my phone. I just feel really bad because I'm not able to get to all of them. So I hope you guys just enjoy what I think of. I'm sorry. o(；△；)o
Recommended Song: Where Are You?-CLC
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When I was alone, you came to me first
I wasn't interested but you shook me up
If you're gonna end up like this, why did you do that?
If you're gonna end up like this, why did you do that?
I sigh, watching my feet dangle over the edge. The ocean looked as bright as it could ever be, the sun's rays sparkling along the water front. The sun was setting, almost perfectly creating a perfect replica on the waves of the ocean. I could only admire it's beauty in this time. I wanted to reach out, grasp on to it's beauty, and store it away in a jar for only I to look at.
With days like these, I would love if it was like that.
But it isn't.
So here I am, sitting at the edge of a broken bench, watching the ocean with longing eyes. This is...was.. my safe haven, somewhere I could stay for hours and watch the sun set without a worry in the world..Until someone else decided to take it from me.
I found him one day, sitting in my usual spot, watching the ocean as the sun started to set.
I was alright with it, not bothered by the sudden appearance of another person at my spot. It was somewhat...comforting, to say the least.
We wouldn't talk, only stare in awe as the waves crashed against the shore, the array of colors glimmering against the water.
A month had passed by, and I finally learned his name.
Mark Lee.
It rolled off the tongue nicely, didn't it?
Mark Lee.
At that time, I didn't know what was the importance of his name. Why would he tell me? Did he want mine in return? Or just to make some conversation?
Later on, though, I found out.
It was the name that simply made my heart flutter into a frenzy just from a simple utter of the syllables. It was the name that belonged to the boy that suddenly took my heart without my knowledge, holding it above his head so I was' able to grab it and take it back for myself.
It was the name of the man that held my heart right by me, and crushed it right before my eyes.
Around a year ago, I was going to tell Mark Lee how I felt. i kept it in long enough, and I felt as though if I didn't tell him now, my heart would explode and it would come out either way. It was like any other day, the sun setting in the most perfect way. It was almost impossible to compare it's beauty to anyone else... Almost.
I had a small letter in my hand, planning on giving it to Mark right before we both left to go our separate ways, wanting him to read it alone and on his own time. I held it tightly as I got out of my car, walking down to the bench once more..
My feet stopped, looking at the bench.
It was empty.
There was no place of Mark anywhere, as if he never was there in the first place. I dropped the letter, letting it fall to the floor as I continued to stare at the bench.
I closed my eyes. Maybe if I close my eyes long enough..he would be there, as if nothing happened.
He still wasn't there. I stayed at the spot, waiting for him to watch the sun set with me like usual.
He never came.
Neither the next day.
Or the day after that.
I was alone again. Watching the waves crash against the shore, the sun set in the distance as light music played through my headphones. I was alone again.
I was alone to watch the day turn into night once more.
I was alone to feel the crisp ocean air place small kisses on my skin.
I was alone to enjoy this safe haven..If I can even call it that anymore.
This safe haven only brought hurtful memories to mind, even at the joy of watching nature at it's best.
Letter still in pocket, I came back every day. Not to watch the waves, or the sun set.. But to see Mark again.
If he ever comes back.
Where are you? Where are you? I keep getting nervous
I hate you I love you
I'm alone again
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