I'm always really needy.
A little never seems to be enough and lately I've been feeling like I haven't been good enough for anyone around me,
And nothings been good enough for me.
I'm sad a lot.
I'm never really happy.
I feel like I just kind of go numb for a while but then everything crashes and I break.
I wish I was different.
I wish I could make better choices,
Or maybe less mistakes.
I wish I could be someone else all lot.
I wish my words always came out right,
And I wish I was prettier,
Smarter, better.
Sometimes I just wish I someone else.
And I constantly wonder why things seem to go great for a little bit,
But then turn to shit almost just as quick.
It makes me question if I just ask the world for to much,
Or the world just never gives enough.
I'm just sick of fucking hurting all the time.
I want something to be good.
I want something to feel okay again.