Mary's POV
I was on my way to my weekly pregnant yoga class when I felt a waking pain in my stomach. It was a pain like no other. I had never felt it before. It was coming from the one place that I wished hard it wouldn't, my stomach. I prayed to God the baby was okay. I prayed to God it'd be fine. I have no idea how long I was sucked into my thoughts, because what broke them was me screaming in pain in the middle of our living room. Aaron wasn't home, so obviously he didn't hear it. I suspected maybe the neighbors heard it, but it was unlikely since they were always asleep...they were some pretty weird people. I managed to get my phone from my purse that was on the counter and called Aaron. I let out a slight giggle at my contact name for him. It was simple, yet always made me smile when I looked at it. "candy bear" simple as that. Just the thought of him made me smile.
The phone rang for a few seconds and then I heard that sweet voice on the other end. "Hello?" Aaron's nephew Greyson asked adorablely on the phone. "Hi Greyson! It's Mary, is your uncle around?" I replied kindly. I loved Greyson. He was so cute, I mean, isn't he? "No, he's in the bathwoom. He's been in there for a while after I made him special pancakes." He responded letting out a small giggle knowing why and what Aaron was doing. "Okay sweetie, just tell him to call back okay?" I laughed a little too. Special pancakes? I'll probably hear about this later. "Okay. I wuv you, bye!" He said. "Bye hun, love you too!" With that, I hung up and decided to just get up and drive myself to the hospital. I slowly stood up walking through the pain. It was getting worse by the minute along with my worries. I decided to leave all negative thoughts behind and just focus on the positive. The baby is okay. YOU are okay. Everything will be fine. With that, I made my way downstairs to the garage where my car was located.
"Mar?" A familiar voice said as I got to my car. I turned around and saw Emma. I smiled at her as she walked up to me giving me a warm hug. That girl knew a thing or two about hugging. "Headed somewhere?" She asked me. "Yeah, not feeling too good. Thought I'd check on the baby and make sure everything is fine." I smiled through the pain. I don't know if I haven't said this enough, but this shit hurts like hell right now. "You need a ride? You don't seem to be in the condition to be driving." She looked at me sympathetically. It's like all my friends knew when I was in pain...that or I looked like complete shit...cause I felt like complete shit. "I wouldn't want to bother you-" I was about to say, but was interrupted by June walking out of Emma's car. "She's driving and I'm coming. No questions asked. I don't think any of us would like to put baby Maaron in danger, now would we?" June and Emma nodded in agreement, and I didn't protest anymore to their offer. I was too out of my head to even talk.
Emma got in the driver's seat, as June rode in the passenger's seat, and I rode in the middle of the backseat. The hospital was not too far from the apartment building (thank God), so it wasn't a long drive. We were almost there when I felt my phone vibrate. Excitement filled me hoping it was Aaron calling me back. I slightly frowned when I saw it was my sister, Eleanor. Don't get me wrong, I love our conversations, and when she calls from college...,but I need Aaron right now. I picked up and a very stressed Eleanor started to ramble to me about how annoying and stressful college is. I giggled at her normal stressed self. "El, you're studying professional writing, you know you'd have to actually write at some point, right?" I laughed at her ridiculousness. "Okay, but like I have zero ideas for these assignment. Can't she just give me a normal exam? No, I have to write a fucking 30,000 word story." She said sarcastically. As we both laughed at her remarks, Emma pulled into the hospital parking lot. "I gotta go El, I'll call you later." I said as I got out of the car carefully, as the aching pain continued. "Okay, let me know if the baby is okay. Love you, and see you to- I mean bye." She hung up before I could even say I love you too. See me tonight? She's in New York at school, how could she see me tonight? I decided to shake it off and just focus on getting rid of this terrible ass pain. We walked in with me in the middle, and June and Emma on my sides holding my arms reassuring me everything will be okay.
We told the nurse at the front desk what was happening and she quickly directed us to a room. June and Emma weren't allowed to come in with me, so they just waited in the waiting room. I sat down on the bed and waited for my doctor. Anxiety started to build up in my body. What if the baby wasn't okay? I couldn't live with that. Losing a child. It has to be the biggest pain out there. I'd always been told the love between a mother and her child was the strongest out there. This baby wasn't even born yet and it was my world. I didn't even know it's gender and I loved it with everything I had. I smiled thinking about the gender. Aaron and I had already picked a girl name and a boy name. We may be young, and to some people stupid, but being parents was/is the best thing to ever happen to us.
The doctor finally came in and did some tests on me and went out after a few minutes to check on them. I just started to put my clothes back on as some tests had to be done naked. I wasn't uncomfortable with it because: A-My doctor was a woman, and cool af. B-I'm chill w/ my body. The 10 minutes of hell passed and the doctor walked in with a sympathetic look. I already knew what she was going to say just with that look. All I wanted to do was burst into tears. Cry myself a river of tears filled with pain and hurt and drown myself in it. I lost it. I lost my baby. My whole world came crashing down. I pulled myself together and looked up at the doctor. "It was a girl." She mumbled. A girl. A little girl. We would've had a princess, and we would have spoiled the shit out of her. Aaron wouldn't let a single male human near her, and I'd gossip with her about them. We would've named her Olivia. Olivia Rose Carpenter would have been her name. That's the thing. It would have been. Now, it'll never be. After having a long talk with the doctor about how my bump will fade soon, how this happened,etc... I got out of the room. She also gave me some medication for the pain since it may come back in the process of the bump fading...aka the baby slowly dying inside of me.
When I walked out of the room I was greeted by my bestfriends. Just by the look on my face they knew. They needed no more communication to know what to do next. They both engulfed me in a group hug and I just broke down right in it. Emma rubbed my back as June held my head and caressed my hair. "I'm so sorry Mar. It'll get better, I promise." Emma reassured me smiling into the hug, slightly. "We love you Mary, and we'll be with you every step of the way." June said as we let go of the long hug. "How will I tell him?" My voice cracked as I managed to let the words out. Aaron. He's going to be devistated. "Just take it one step at a time." June replied. "He can't just blame you hun'." Emma reassured me. I nodded in slight agreement as we headed to the parking lot.
The whole ride back home was silent. No music. No words. Just pure quiet. It's what I needed really. No sounds, I wanted to think. A million things were juggling up in my mind at the same time and I just needed to sort them out without any interruptions. Quickly, the silence was broken. "Mar, we're here." Emma looked back at me from the front seat. I could see the pity in her eyes. I could see it in both of theirs. They felt sorry for me.
We took the elevator up to my apartment. I put the key in and opened the door. It was dark so I turned on the light with the light switch by the door and gasped at the sight before my eyes. A heart made with rose petals. Aaron in the middle on his knee with a ring. All of my loved ones behind him each holding a letter that would spell out the phrase Will you marry me? I didn't know what to think. I was supposed to be happy. The love of my life was proposing to me. I felt nothing. Just hurt. "Mar." Aaron held out his free hand gesturing for me to take it. I don't know what I was doing, but I just took it for the sake of it. "I know you like to talk, but it's time I do the talking. Got it?" He giggled as everyone around us did so as well. "Mary. How can I put this into words? I'm nervous as shit. You make me nervous as shit. You've become my greatest obsession. My biggest source of happiness. My biggest confidant. The way you make my heart beat is unexplainable. Every time you laugh my ears are blessed. When I see you smile my eyes sparkle with joy. The way your hand perfectly fits in mind gives me a zoo of animals in my stomach. The way you care and love for people leaves me in complete awe of you. What am I trying to say here? I love you Mar. Man, do I love you. This question has gone through my mind since the day that kiss happened. Since the moment I realized how I felt about you. Now, we start our family and I couldn't be happier." I tear rolled down my cheek. They all probably thought it was from happiness, but I was heartbroken that he doesn't know yet. "You've already Mar-ied me. BUT, I want to make it a little bit more official. Will you marry me Mar? If the sign, ring, and me getting a huge cramp on my knee right now doesn't say enough." He laughed and smiled that perfect smile. I was at lost for words. I wanted to say yes, man I did. But the pain from the news I was told less then an hour ago consumed every emotion I could've felt at this beautiful moment. I looked down at him without any emotion in my eyes, and...
I ran. I ran out of there. As fast as I could. I heard my name being called by several people, but I didn't care I had to get out of that scene. I just couldn't handle it. Too much at one moment. I went to the one spot I knew only one person would think to find me at, but it would take them a while to figure that out. So, I had some time to spare. To think. To be, free from everything.
A/N: Please don't hate me lol everything will work out fine I promise :)) filler because you guys deserve one for being so amazing ❤️