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3 Years Later...

I hate every bit of myself for what I did. Why would I do that? I kissed him. Someone that is not my boyfriend. How could I be so stupid? I have such a good relationship with the most amazing guy possible, and then I ruin it by kissing someone I literally despise...I feel like the worst person in the world right now. I felt a lump in my stomach. So many things were juggling up in my mind at once. I didn't understand. I was confused. I wasn't drunk at all. Not one drop of alcohol ran through my body. I had no influence into cheating. I just did it, for doing it. I ran out of the room after about 3 minutes of contemplating what to do. I ran as fast as I could and got into my car. I couldn't drive home, I know he's there. He'll know something's wrong with me, when I say that I am not exaggerating this guy knows me more than I know myself.

I drove in circles for about 20 minutes when I decided to pull up at this little park by my apartment building. I sat on a bench and starting balling my eyes out. Even though I am the one who cheated I still feel pain. I feel guilt. I feel an emptiness inside. I know I have to tell him, I know it will break his heart. I can't do this. How will I tell him? The lie is worse. If I lie and he finds out from him I don't know what I'd do. My entire world would crash. The love of my life would hate me. It'd be the end of it all. Without his love, his touch, his smell, his everything...I can't survive.

The real question is...if I feel this way about my boyfriend...Why'd I kiss the guy I despise?

A/N: Who's POV do you think this is? First chapter for the fast foward!! Hope you like it x So close to 170K!! I love you guys so so much, thank you for everything 💕💕

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